January 1, 2004
Well, the first day of the year
and I get a phone call from Don “Donnie” DiRusso from Florida. He
had to tell me that he was his aunt’s funeral- Mrs. Dora Bizzatto-
in Westminster. It seemed that after the funeral at St. Edwards his
other aunt-Mrs. Evelyn Delmonico-started telling people in her about
“him” (Fr. Kardas. She was telling about the article in the
newspaper-last February- about McCormick being interviewed by
Kathleen A. Shaw. He said that his Aunt Evelyn was blistering about
me with very strong comments that were “very favorable.”
I told Donne about the article
in that there was nothing new then what was printed in 1995. But,
Evelyn was on a vendetta run with her husband Ralph Delmonico. Let’s
not forget, Ralph was the guy in 1993 going up and down Main
Street-literally-telling everyone that would listen that I stole
$40,000 from the parish. (He was the guy that used to be a “Sunday
Mass Collection” with the long handles poking parishioners taking up
the collection and holding-up the back wall by the main church door
during Mass-refusing to be part of the assembly. These two-Evelyn
and Ralph-had attitude incorporated not only with the church but in
general. They were not fun people to have for breakfast.
But what this did show by the
last February article and clergy media reporting that there was a
“trashing” as one priest told me. It was over and over again and
January 5, 2004
I watched a one hour special on
cable of NECN entitled “Father Paul Shanley-Crisis in the Church. I
watched how Shanley was presented as being penury with his court
appearance and interviews. He was shown in an extreme light and
often giggly frugality. Obviously, it was not a positive picture
given in the program. One has to remember that in the early 70s;
Shanley was known as the “Street Priest” in Boston and was lamented.
Here it is 30 years later and the media is feasting on a totally
January 6, 2004
I received a phone call from
“Father Peacock” to ask me to get something to eat before I attend
my Tuesday AA meeting.
What was peculiar was Tuesdays
he was gone on his “day-off.” I always realized he had an angle
working whenever I would get a phone call from him. I know this
sounds paranoid, but I don’t think I am that far-off on this guy.
He proceeded to tell me that he
called Fr. John Paul Gagnon (Administrative Leave). He said he spoke
with him for some period of time. He bluntly said to me that he does
not want to have the dinner that he was hoping to have at his
rectory with 3 or 4 other priest on Administrative Leave with him
hosting the group-included me. I just listened. There was something
else going on where he didn’t want to be identified with this
special undertaking on his part-gathering the “wayward bother
I wondered about this whole
thing. What was “Father Peacock” true motive? Thinking about it, he
most of hear from Gagnon that another priest was becoming the
liaison with priest on Administrative Leave (Fr. George Riddick).
“Father Peacock” only did things in the Church to become a
Monsignor. I believe that he thought by getting such a position, he
would have his last chance because of his age to become that
“Monsignor.” There was a reason for that spe9ial dinner being
canceled by him. Father Gagnon was one that knew all the priest
gossip that was not fit to print in the diocese.
I really did min that this was
big cancelled. This was not a group that I would hang-around with
overall besides priestly meetings.
This same meal the conversation
turned somehow where I said: Isn’t it peculiar that my case is
similar toyshop Harrington’s drunk driving accident with a teenager
being seriously hurt in the other vehicle. “Father Peacock” snapped
back at me: “”Your case was sex.” I responded that my case was only
an allegation, not an actual account of Harrington’s fact (slipped
away from the accident by the police department). Nothing more was
said. Actually, the silence was dealing. But, he did come back with:
“No one will fire your case-up because they are fearful of getting
sued.” This was the fear and control factor that “Father Peacock”
would use at times. This occurred mainly when times that he was
frustrated or possibly me coming too close to another issue in his
background. It was very oblivious with his face becoming red with
anger. It was as though the “Ugly American” model of late using
others in an individualistic super-cognitive dualistic manner.
This is like the words in the
song Hotel California: “You can sing out anytime, but you can never
leave.” A number of times, I had people tell me to leave. Where I
responded, it is my vocation you are talking about. I had to realize
that it was “smoking minors” trying to explain to certain
individuals-they really didn’t want to see what it really was.
January 7, 2004
The Sentinel & Enterprise
and the Worcester Telegram & Gazette carried practically the
same front page story on the Worcester Diocese Sex Abuse Audit.
The Sentinel & Enterprise
story “Diocese lauded for abuse outreach: Critics say audit is
superficial, doesn’t address she root of the problem.” Matt O’Brien
reports: “Worcester-An audit found the Worcester Catholic Diocese in
full compliance with the 2002 Dallas Charter on clergy sexual abuse,
a set of mandatory guidelines set forth by the U.S Catholic bishops.
“Church leaders in Worcester
County celebrated Tuesday findings, which praised the diocese for
its outreach work to protect children from sexual abuse, while
critics lambasted the assessment as superficial.
“ ‘The gave themselves a good
report card,’ said Ann Hagan Webb, a New England coordinator for the
Survivors Network of those Abuse by Priests, as she learned about
the national results. ‘They hired auditors that the picked.’
“The review led by two former
FBI officials working for Boston-based contractors, the Gavin Group,
commended the Worcester Diocese for its ‘openness and transparency
in dealing with issues of sexual abuse of minors.’
“The auditors, in a report
released Tuesday also praised the diocese for the ‘protection
involvement’ of a diocesan review committee that began in Worcester
10 years before the Boston clergy abuse crisis erupted…”1
This same day, in addition the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette printed the story “Dioceses
follow abuse reforms.” Denise Lavoie of The Associated Press writes:
“The archdiocese at the epicenter of the clergy sex abuse scandal is
complying with reforms put in place by the U.S. Conference of
Catholic Bishops, according to a report released yesterday.
“Some sex abuse victims and
their advocates said the report, which measured compliance wit a
policy established by the bishops in June 2002, was flawed because
bishops themselves had to much control over the review process.
“The audit praised the Boston
Archdiocese for an aggressive outreach program, which has included
sponsoring a national conference of mental health processionals to
deal with issues related to sex abuse by priests.
“Investigators also commended
Boston for its efforts to give 200,000 churches and school workers,
including priest ‘safe environment’ training to identify and present
abuse, and for establishing a support group for the parents of
people who have been abuse by priests.
“Dioceses in Springfield,
Worcester and Fall River also were found to be in compliance.
“The auditors made
recommendations in seven areas where they said archdiocese had not
gone far enough. Included in those was a call for the church to
better publicize the procedures for filing complaints of clergy sex
abuse, and that the archdiocese should establish a record-keeping
system to document all allegations of abuse reported to state
Attorney Thomas F. Reilly.
“In July, Reilly released a
scathing report saying that 250 Boston-area priests and church
workers had probably molested as many as 1,000 people between 1940
“In their report, the auditors
said Boston had complied with five of the seven recommendations as
of Dec. 1,2003…Some said bishops had too much control over how the
audit was conducted. Auditors were unable to review personal files
that would verify whether bishops were complaining with a ban on
transferring offenders frame diocese to another. The bishops
recommended who the auditors should interview.
picked the auditors, they chose what to show them,’ said Ann Hagan
Webb, co-coordinator for the New England chapter of the Survivors
Network of Those Abused by Priests.”2
January 9, 2004
We get the same story working
on the front page of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette but by
another reporter than Shaw and Nangle. Luttrell’s story is “Local
diocese reform steps commended: Audit commends diocese” states:
“Worcester-An audit showing that 90 percent of the country’s
dioceses were complying with reforms put in place by the U.S.
Conference of Catholic Bishops commended the Diocese of Worcester
for taking steps to protect young people from clergy sexual abuse.
“The audit, done largely by
former FBI agent, commended the diocese for being in full compliance
with the reforms and offered no instructions or recommendations for
“Mary T. Jean of Worcester
Voice, an activist who works with victims of clergy abuse, said the
audit was self-serving and showed no new efforts on behalf of
“Diocese spokesman Raymond L.
Delise disagreed, as did the head of the auditing firm.
“The audit, by the Gavin Group
Inc., looked at how 195 dioceses around the country complied with
the Chapter for the Protection of Children and Young People, drafted
in June 2002 by the Conference of Catholic Bishops in response to
the pedophile priest crisis.
“ ‘The audit process and the
resulting report underscore that we are committed to healing and
restoring trust by demonstrating our support for both letter and the
spirit of the charter,’ Bishop Daniel P. Reilly, bishop of the
Diocese of Worcester, said in a prepared statement.
“The Diocese of Worcester was
audited as part of the first group of dioceses, from June 23 to
27.the diocese comprises 126 parishes and 26 schools, has 244
priests and 76 deacons serving a population of 390,657 Catholics,
the report says.
“Among areas the audit examined
was the exclusion from ministry of priests and others found guilty
of abuse; conducting background checks on employees, priests and
volunteers and volunteers on how to identify abuse.
“The diocese was commended for
the ‘excellence of the Diocese’s communications policy and
procedures reflecting the bishop’s commitment to openness and
transparency in dealing with issues of sexual abuse of minors,’ the
It is interesting to watch
these reports and the PR issue by the Church. It gets: Who’s on
first and what’s on second. The issue at hand is lost in the word
January 10, 2004
This day we get in the “Local
News” of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette a story by Kathleen
A. Shaw “Legal bills and cemetery costs put diocese in the red.” She
writes: “Worcester-The Diocese of Worcester finished its fiscal year
with a loss of about $800,000, which included major deficits in the
cemetery system and a payout of more that #325,000 for legal fees
and other cost related to allegations of clergy sexual abuse.
“In the fiscal year that ended
Aug. 31, the diocese also had to take more than $288,000 from the
central administration fund to make up for a shortfall in the
“The diocese released its
annual financial statement yesterday. Raymond L. Delisle, diocesan
spokesman, said expense exceeded income by $793,996.
“The bulk of money that went to
the central administration fund came from the cathedratiucum, which
is a tax on proceeds from parish collections that go directly to the
diocese. It is assessed according to canon law throughout the
worldwide Roman Catholic Church to provide money to dioceses. In
this diocese, the tax is 7 percent…”4
What I find interesting is a
reporter like Shaw is taking this annual report and making
statements that one has to interpret in context and questions: What
does any one figure “truly” represent. The best one that I heard
when I was taking the “new pastors” course at Anna Maria College
where the professor on economics had the annual diocesan report from
the printing of the Catholic Free Press saying time and time again
on figures: I’m not sure what this figure means? So, drawing that
the diocese ran 2003 in the “red” in regards to what overall factor?
I know that one would say: “Red” means money in deficit nature-
My case was settled in 1998 by
the diocese. So, the monies paid out for priest sex abuse figure
would not be included in this 2003 financial report. Therefore, one
had to watch where the lines are in such money matters.
January 14, 2004
The cartoon “B.C.” this day in
the newspaper had “You know” machine giving “Chin answer”: “You know
your trail is heading south when your lawyer objects to your
swearing to tell the truth and nothing but the truth.”5
When I read this in the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette, I, immediately, recalled how my
civil lawyer called me to say: You’re case has been settled. I was
shocked because I never was actually able to give my whole story and
tell the “truth.” The truth was that I never molested these two
girls that claimed that I allegated or anyone for that matter. I was
never given an opportunity to defend myself or for that matter make
those statements besides in my deposition. The case was settled
without my agreeing to settle the suits or anything else. I was,
only, told by Attorney Carey: It is over. I recall saying to him:
What is over?
Oh! This is the second
anniversary of my last contact with anything with my
bishop-appointment at Chancery with Bishop Reilly. This was the
meeting that I asked for help with my “rent” and gave him the list
of “Stolen items from the rectory.” It reminded that I was given a
positive confirmation of hope and list being addressed-end of story
on Reilly’s political part.
What I did notice, again, was
while writing my “journal” and text that my shoulder became tight
and I was feeling more tense than usual. I went outside for my
three-mile walk (approx. 60 min.) to clear my head and find a means
of relaxation in this walking. But, my body was sore at the
shoulders. I kept reminding myself in the walk to relax.
January 15, 2004
“Therapists confer to help
abuse victims: Archbishop says counseling needed” appeared in this
day’s issue of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette. Denise
Lavoie of The Associated Press writes: “Newton-Nearly 200 social
workers, psychologist another mental health professionals from a
dozen states came to the epicenter of the clergy sex abuse crisis
yesterday for a groundbreaking conference aimed at finding the best
methods for treating victims of clergy abuse.
“Many of the speakers at the
conference were nationally known experts in treating child sexual
abuse, but they readily acknowledged that clergy sex abuse is a
relative new area for them and one that requires specialized
“ ‘We know very little about
the impact of clergy sexual abuse,’ which is different in ‘important
and fundamental ways’ from sexual child abuse, said Terrace Keane, a
professor of psychiatry at the Boston University school of Medicine
and director of The National Center for Post-Traumatic Stress
“The conference was
co-sponsored by Boston College and the Archdiocese of Boston. The
clergy sex abuse scandal erupted two years ago in Boston with
revelations that church officials had shuffled pedophile priest John
J. Geoghan fro parish to parish even after learning of abuse
allegations against him.
“The scandal widened after
internal church documents showed that dozens of priest were
similarly protected after the church received abuse allegations
against them. The scandal spread to dioceses across the country as
more and more victims came forward to say they were abused by
priests as children…”6
A couple of points must be
recognized as the crisis of the last two year begins to ask: What
was happening to me in 1993? The other point of the “scandal
spread…more and more victims came foreword” is only beginning more
questions: Why now? Do you mean to say that no one spoke out but
when one realized, as the experts say-a new phenomena – we have
people connecting dots to get what we have now. Where would money
play into the formula or agenda against the Roman Catholic Church in
January 16, 2004
John L. Allen, Jr. writes this
day in the National Catholic Reporter with “The Word from
Rome: Rome greets audit with appreciation, reservations.” He writes:
“On Jan. 6, the W.S, bishops issued the first of three
much-anticipated reports on she sex abuse crisis. The report
presented was an audit of American dioceses on their compliance with
the Charter for the Protection of Children and Young People adopted
by the bishops in Dallas in June 2002. The report found that 90
percent of dioceses are in basic compliance, a result that player to
largely positive comment in the American press; although victims’
groups argued that since the auditors worked for the bishop it was
not a credible probe…
“At the same time, however,
officials continued to voice reservations about some aspects of the
“For one thing,
officials told me, it’s still unclear to them what ‘sexual abuse’
means in the American context. Thus if the John Jay report lists ‘X
number of incidents in Y years,’ these officials will wonder what
the criteria were for classifying something as an ‘incident.’ This
becomes a particularly acute problem if one review board in one
diocese decides that a given behavior constitutes sexual abuse and
thus a priest is removed for life, while I another diocese similar
behavior triggers no disciplinary consequences (What if your bishop
had a drunken driving accident of a teen bodily harm?)
officials still question the ‘zero tolerance’ policy itself which
stipulates that a priest will be revoked from ministry for life for
even one incident of sexual abuse of a minor. These officials
believe that in cases of a less serious offense in the distant past,
priest would, at least in some instances, be able to resume a
“A related concern has
to do with due process rights. One hears horror stories in the
Vatican about priest who have been suspended as a result of an
accusation, and then ‘cut off’ by their bishops, with no further
communication and hence no chance for their day in court (Try me
and my story. What I find interesting was that my case was not the
only one that was “cut off.” Rome was aware of the operations of
their bishops and realized how heavy handed some cases were. Yet, I
became a statistic overall.)
“Finally, some Vatican
officials continue to express reservations about the role of the
National Review Board, especially the concept that laity are
exercising a sort of ill-defined authority over bishops
This one of those rare
times that I read anything of what has happened to me by the
isolation of my situation and the Worcester Chancery “Goon” Squad. I
wondered: What if we-priest- had the Priests’ “Union” functioning?
Another article in
this same issue “Audit avoids basic question: Why? Report measured a
bureaucratic response to a bureaucratic solution, says expert on
abuse crisis” by Fr. Thomas Doyle. He writes: “The lengthily and
detailed report on the implementation of the Charter for the
Protection of Children and Young People contains much to commend it.
There seems little doubt that hits is a good ‘first step’ but it is
far from the end of the road. These bishops and others who believe
that the institutional church and the bishops have turned the corner
are sadly mistaken. While the repots reflects definite progress, the
deficiencies loom and must be both acknowledged and someday
addressed if the so-called ‘corner’ is ever to be reached and the
end of the road-a church of openness, trust and compassing led by a
majority of leaders with similar virtues-is to be seen.
major problem with this report and the prices it describes is that
it seems primarily geared toward re-establishing the lost
credibility of the bishops rather than getting at the root cause of
the sex abuse nightmare and thereby effectively dealing with the
many painful aspects of this nightmare. True, the report examines
the norms of the charter in great detail and at times makes
realistic and pointed observations followed by good recommendations.
The problem is that the entire endeavor only scratched the surface
and this, by design. The purpose of the audit process was to
determine compliance with the charter which tells very little of the
total clergy abuse story. The report is certain to disappoint and
anger victims, survivors, their families and loved one, their
supporters and many other laity, clergy and religious who have been
waiting for an adequate organizational response to this terrible
dark night of Cathol-icism’s corporate soul…The rot of the problem
is not a few thousand dysfunctional clerics. It is far deeper than
This is the Father Doyle that
the media credits for started to make public the priests’ sex abuse
crisis in the United States when he was working the Vatican Embassy
in Washington. Doyle was practically “exiled” because he then became
an Air Force Chaplin in Germany.
I received a belated
Christmas-picture card from David Laughrea in California. David knew
me from my first assignment at St. George’s and corresponded
annually with a Christmas card. This year he wrote: “I found out
from my mother and father that you are retired.” This is how certain
people out here have me classified. What I wondered was where did
his father-Jim- get that type of information to tell his son?
January 20, 2004
I have experienced my good
times to write and not so good even at times, I am unable to turn my
computer on to do my book or journal. I call this experience my
“roller-coaster ride” with the ups and downs of life in general.
What I noticed previously and
experience time and again that I am struggling with emotional ups
and downs that I try to adapt where I try to not carry on my daily
I do experience at times when I
recall a phrase or thought that I recall when I may have been laying
in bed during the night. I was at a point of taking a slip of paper
and pen on my night table to jot it on paper. I’ve changed that
routine because I had to discipline myself to say “sleep time is
I want to finish writing my
book section and wanting to do this now to move on to project-novel
writing. I noticed that my writing is more objective and rational
style. I have a rhythm going at this time. When I write I try to
block-in a plan of 2 or 4 hour bracket.
January 25, 2004
Now here is a story that is
something we do not have in Worcester Diocese. The closest of
anything as such was in the early 70s with Bishop Flanagan, as the
Ordinary, of a “Priest Association (Union).” It only lasted five
year, mainly due to the fact that it consisted of “curates”
(Associate Pastors). I was a member and recall that Monsignor
Manning and Father Rueger would not even talk at meal time in the
rectory at St. Georges, Worcester. What was peculiar was our bishop
(Flanagan) allowed the “union” to function. The pastors were the
issue. It was a definite need for a “rights” issue. But, it had a
fast-death because the members were experiencing rectory
difficulties-living with the absolute pastor model. It was an
interesting experience that eventually had Rueger be my “executor”
as auxiliary bishop-Harrington’s lap dog.
So, the Worcester Telegram &
Gazette prints this day “Clerical group struggling: Boston
Priests’ Forum trying to define its purpose” by Jay Lindsay of The
“The article reads: “Boston-A
pioneering group that gained prominence during the sex abuse crisis
as a voice for long-silent clergy is struggling to define its
purpose even as some priests criticize it as divisive and barley
“The Boston Priests’ Forum got
its start as a place for clergy to socialize and support each other
and soon found itself rallying around a single issue-concern about
the handling of the church abuse scandal by Cardinal Bernard F. Law.
“Now, a year after Law
resigned, the forum finds itself caught between retuning to its
roots as a fraternal organization or developing the pubic voice it
found during the height of the crisis, said the Rev. Robert W.
Bullock, the group’s president.
“The forum might best serve
priests as an independent vice, but that could also cause major
discord, said the Rev. Thomas A. Mahoney, the group’s treasurer.
“‘That’s why this is a
difficult crossroads to come to,’ he said.
“The Boston Priests’ forum was
founded in 2001 by three priests who began meeting over dinner to
discuss the theology and chronic problems of the priesthood, such as
isolation and overwork.
‘When the abuse scandal broke
in January 2002, group leaders took on a role as a public voice for
clerics who saw church elders as unresponsive to their concerns
about false accusations and plummeting morale…”9
This is the unanswerable
question in my case and I image many others: What if? We will never
know. The hierarchy made sure of that.
January 23, 2004
I came across an interesting
thought in my writing of my manuscript: Sermon style for weekend
liturgies-If you have a comfortable Jesus in you life agenda, it is
not Jesus. Most interesting to have this renewed thought to carry
in the memory bank.
January 28, 2004.
I noticed that writing my
manuscript that I was, another explanation, going through a yo-yo
emotional feelings. I had found it difficult this day and last few
weeks difficult to write, mainly because of related newspaper
stories of late.
January 30, 2004
At times, I felt as though I
was being treating as a ‘welfare case.” I was doing non-priestly
work. But, I had the impression that some people think I didn’t do
anything but get a monthly “salary.” I actually have been told that
I didn’t do anything. Oh? I would get very defensive at times with
this when asked: What have you been doing?
Finally, I became somewhat
smart and developed a standard response: I have a daily routine that
is quite extensive. I realized that manuscript work and writing
wasn’t substituted for living. I was trying to live a normal life
pattern as conditions have been established.
One conversation that I had
with a former parishioner made the remark to me that when a new
bishop comes to Worcester that he would bet me doing something back
in the Church. I didn’t have this hope. I was somewhat resolved to
functioning with my priesthood was going to be in” the cave.” I
think I was pragmatic enough to keep a focus on doing the best with
the conditions that were in my area of living. There were forces
that were pushing me to get a “real life.” But, overall, the
vocation issue of my priesthood was the key to my personhood.
January 31, 2004
The Worcester Telegram &
Gazette front page story in large headlines gives us this day
“Report on clergy abuse released: Conte responds to public concern:
Statements from 113 victims used to investigations.” Roger Leo of
the Telegram & Gazette Staff reports: “Worcester-To assure the
public that has office has followed evidence of clergy sexual abuse
wherever it leads, District Attorney John J. Conte yesterday
released a report of investigation that began in February 2002 and
“Mr. Conte’s report showed 17
clerics have been charged with criminal sexual abuse since 1985 and
eight others were to criminally charged but have been removed from
“Ten of the accused priests
were charged between 1985 and the mid-1990s, while seven others have
been charged as a result of an ongoing investigation that began in
2002; one of those seven has pleaded guilty and one was found not
guilty. The cases of the other five are ongoing.
“The report also showed that
allegations of a clergy sexual abuse peaked in 1979, when 56
offenses wee alleged, and dropped precipitously after 1989.
“Explaining the unusual step of
releasing information about on-going investigations, the report
titled ‘Report on Clergy Cases January 2004,’ states: ‘This report
is essential to respond to widespread pubic concern about
allegations of sexual abuse by members of the clergy.
“ ‘This information is provided
to encourage victims to come forward, assist victims at
understanding the investigative process, and assure the public that
this office has been following the evidence wherever it leads… To
date, the report states, 113 victims have provided statements to
state police investigators or local police, while another 18 victims
have declined to give statements sot investigate…
“Statements taken to date
(Chart): statements resulting in charges-35; statements asserting
claim barred by statue of limitations-58; statements asserting fact
that do not constitute criminal conduct-4; statements that require
further investigation-7; statements asserting claims that are
outside the Middle District jurisdiction-4; statements asserting
claims against deceased persons-3; statements in which victims
decline to cooperate with prosecution-2; total statements taken to
date-113 (Source: Office of the District Attorney).”10
The Atlantic Monthly
issue this month had an article by Father Andrew Greeley “Young
Fogy’s: Young reactionaries, aging radicals-the U.S. Catholic Church
unusual clerical divide.” He writes: “The divisions created by
Vatican II are not new, of course. Caught up in the reform euphoria
that followed the council, the lower clergy and the laity almost
immediately developed a new ideology based on respect for women and
for the freedom (including the sexual freedom) of the laity. On
these matters, quietly or loudly, the laity and the lower clergy did
resist the teachings of the Church.
“The backlash was swift, Church
leaders realizing that reform had slipped out of their control, grew
increasingly convinced of the need for Restoration-a movement n
which the upper clergy would close ranks and reassert their
authority. Newly appointed bishops would restore the rules;
theologians who disagreed would be silenced; and, as much as
possible, the old order would be re-established. Even some of the
progressives of the council, frightened by the laity’s exuberant
interest in change and by the declining influence of the Church in
the United States, lost their nerve and joined in the call for a
Restoration. Today’s young conservative priests are rallying to the
“Who are these young
counter-revolutionaries? Several studies are helpful in answering
this question: a 1970 National Opinion study (with which I was
involved); two studies released by the Los Angeles Times, in
1994 and 2oo2; and a 2002 study by the sociologist Dean R. Hoges.
Hoge’s The First Five Years of the Priesthood: A Study of Newly
Ordained Catholic Priests is particularly useful. Hoge reports
that half the newly ordained priests are fundamentally different
from layperson-that he is literally a man apart. Hoge also reports
that almost a third of these priests feel that the laity need to be
‘better educated to respect the authority of the priest’s word.’
These beliefs are strikingly at odds with other of the predominantly
liberal generation of new priests studied in the 1970 NORC survey.
Today’s young priests tend to want to restore the power that the
clergy held not only before Vatican II but also before a large
educated Catholic laity emerged as a powerful force in the Church
after World War II. Older priest today often complain that their
younger colleges are arrogant, pompous, and rigid and that they love
to parade around in clerical dress. The image that comes to mind is
young versions of the old ethnic monsignors of the Depression ear.
“Stark differences exist
between older and younger priest on many major areas of concern
within the Church. The 2002 Los Angeles Times study reveals
that priests of the Vatican II generation overwhelmingly support the
idea that priests should be allowed to marry. In the study 80
percent aged forty-six to sixty-five were in favor, as were 74
percent of those aged sixty-six to seventy-five. Only about half the
priests under thirty-five, however, supported the idea. The study
revealed a clear divide, too, on the ordination of women. Sixty
percent of priest aged fifty-six to sixty-five, and at least half of
those aged forty-six to seventy-five, supported the idea, but only
36 percent of priests under forty-six did. Significantly, even
priests over seventy-five-whose news toll take well before Vatican
II-were slightly more likely to support the marriage of priests and
the ordination of women than were the young priests…”11
I have submitted a significant
amount of print from the article by Greeley to express the great
divide of the “young fogy’s” from my group, ordained in the early
1970s. I even saw this with a young man from St. Edward’s parish,
which was teaching in a Catholic High School, and decided to enter
the priesthood. He was only a lector and would never participate in
anything else in the parish because he was “too busy.” Then, he
would run away. I thought possibly it was a personality issue with
me. So, I asked the parish music director to try to get him involved
with a few projects. He gave the same answer to her. This group of
“young fogy’s” was also known as “sanctuary candle stick polishers.”
They did not mix-it-up with ordinary parishioners.
February 2, 2004
This day the Worcester
Telegram & Gazette prints “Report from DA draws split verdict:
Critics say document lacks details” by Martin Luttrell. He writes:
“”Worcester-Representatives of the Catholic Diocese of Worcester
said a report issued last week by District Attorney John J. Conte
shows that the diocese is working with him to investigate
allegations of pedophile priests, and that the majority of the cases
reported are several years old.
“But advocates for the victims
have misgivings, contending that the district attorney’s report
shows nothing about an investigation into the chancery or how the
clergy abuse problem was allowed to grow.
“ ‘It’s a situation that seems
to have decreased dramatically since 1979,’ said James G. Reardon
Jr., a lawyer for the diocese. He was referring to statistics
complied by the district attorney’s office that showed allegations
of clergy sex abuse peaked at 56 in1079,then feel steadily until
1989, when fewer than 10 cases were alleged to have occurred.
“ ‘I don’t see a lot of these
(victims) coming forward,’ Mr. Reardon said. ‘Most are historical
claims going back 20 years. Something obviously happened to change
the dynamic involved.
“‘Even most of the civil claims
are for allegations more than 20 years ago,’ he continued. ‘The
magnitude of the problem seems to have decreased dramatically. His
statistics bear that out,’ he said of Mr. Conte's report.
“The district attorney’s
investigations began in February 2002 and continue. The report,
released Friday , shows that 17 clerics have been charged with
criminal sexual abuse since 1985 and that eight others were not
criminally charged but have been removed form ministry…”12
I was reading on the Internet a
Catholic segment that reported that the National Catholic
Reporter was going to list “Tracking list of names of clergy
that have been alleged with articles” pertaining to their specifics,
This was a feeling as though I was hit by a punch in my stomach. I
had this experience before that I believe I described as being hit
with a ‘stomach-pit feeling.”
February 5, 2004
Mrs. Connie Rivard died a
massive heart attack at the Westminster Inn pool. I was told she
finished her daily swim and sat on a beach chair and that was it.
Connie was my parish
secretary-did the weekly bulletin- on a totally volunteer bases. She
was doing the bulletin for two other pastors previous to me. She
gave three or four days a week in the office.
She was one person that may
have had the character of New Hampshire old state flag motto: Don’t
thread on me. She was interesting with her questions to me where I
tried to answer them as best as I was able. I believe she knew that.
She was strong natured but very
dedicated to the parish. She did have the knack with her friend to
write letters to the bishop. I mean, she would write “strong”
letters before my time with previous pastors and church situations
and especially when I was removed. She walked with me through a lot
while I was in the parish and after-twice a week went to lunch with
her and Mrs. Vickie Mitchell. They would do their grocery shopping
after lunch. Connie was something. It was good to have her on my
side especially when I was renovating the parish church and building
died the “Faith Community Center.”
I spoke with her the day before
she by phone after I shoveled her walks. Our phone conversation was
my last communication with her. It was a lengthily and nice
conversation of a number of topics.
Connie was precious.
February 6, 2004
I spoke with Attorney Jim
Morarity by phone. It was a general conversation with nothing
specific. We did talk about the priest sex abuse issue. He mentioned
how he noticed that because of Geoghan and Paul Shanley in Boston
that Worcester Diocese was “jumpy and so uptight.” He mentioned that
my case was nothing like the Boston cases. He, also, commented how
the Church was a theocracy and absolute power: “They have all the
cards.” He mentioned how things were not in my control and I had to
be practical. I did respond that I knew I didn’t have any control
over my situation. He said: “It is a mothball situation.”
This reminded how I was taking
a ride with Jack Keena day to NH for his “libation supplies” where
he asked me: “You mean you’re not going to do anything-with the
Worcester Diocese.” I said: “No! Not at this time.” Typical Jack as
a retired salesman had it in his blood to even go into the den of
the devil if it would produce a sale. Jack would rush-in on
situations. I didn’t even go any further with explaining to him
because he was on a different wave length of addressing issues.
Back to Jim, he and I would
speak periodically where he was a parishioner from Westminster. We
would have some interesting “chats.”
I sent a letter to Attorney Ted
Carey in Boston asking for copies of depositions in my case for my
personal file. More times I wanted to check what was said on matters
in my case. I should have requested this immediately in 1995 but did
not believe anything of substance happened in my overall case. Boy!
I was wrong because I now re-read exactly what was said and what
thing were being “frozen” that never were related on my part as
Bishop Harrington treatment and reasons for that conduct.
I was, also, thinking of late
about Bishop Dupre of Springfield (MA) Diocese alleged sex abuse
case by two men some two decades before. I was thinking-did not do-
of sending a note to Rueger saying: He (Dupre) wasn’t lucky as you
were. I would have sent this note with a smiling face of the bottom
of the paper. One huge reason was that Rueger received the
Vatican’s “Good Housekeeping Seal of Approval” of being innocent on
his alleged sex abuse situation.
One of the books that
has been written during this time of upheaval in the Church- Vows
of Silence: The Abuse of Power in the Papacy of John Paul II by
Jason Berry and Gerald Renner and reviewed by Tom Roberts in the
National Catholic Reporter.
Roberts writes: “The church
should read this book not because it contains startling new
revelations and certainly not because it is uplifting or edifying.
It should be read because it will train our focus, in these days of
reports and audits on what we must consider-church leadership and
accountability. It is a must-read because it pulls together, as is
only possible in a reported book of this length, the clear evidence
of how deeply ingrained is the culture of clerical secrecy that
allowed the scandal to flourish. It makes clear that matter how many
new reports and norms are issued, no matter how many Episcopal
apologies are stacked up amid the wreckage of the crisis, the only
real way out of the current mess is to institute bold new mechanisms
for establishing transparency and for holding church leadership
“Both Jason Berry and Gerald
Renner are respected journalist whose carriers encompass print and
reporting on myriad subjects but who are probably most widely known
for the groundbreaking work each has done in unearthing the clergy
sex abuse crisis and the culture of clerical secrecy.
“By way of full disclosure,
their work, individually and as a team has appeared in NCR.
Berry’s career is inextricably linked to NCR; his reporting
constituted the major contribution to the earliest reports of the
sex abuse scandal nearly 20 years ago in these pages.
“This book is a dramatic
telling of the deeper story of the sex abuse crisis that has gripped
large segments of the church for the past two decades and that has
hit the elder culture most forcefully in the two years since
publication of The Boston Globe’s investigating pieces. Those
stories led both to a flurry of activity aimed at dealing with the
crisis and the ouster of Cardinal Bernard Law.
“The story is told primarily
through the careers of Dominican Fr. Thomas Doyle, a whistleblower,
who early on urged the bishops to listen to the victims and to stop
hiding abusive priests, and that of Mexican Fr. Marcial Maciel
Degollado, found of the Legion of Christ religious order: Maciel has
been accused of sexually abusing seminarians. Under the norms
enacted in the United States, given such accusations, he would have
been removed from active ministry months ago. However; he remains to
only a priest in good standing but a revered figure in Rome who has
received clear sings of papal approval…”13
What this book does do is show
how there is different strokes for different folks syndrome. I
wonder with the numbers of over 4,00 priest allegated in the United
States, how many stories were that where priest were never heard
from again without a public announcement. There were cases in the
Worcester Diocese. Certain priest just disappeared and no one in the
regular priest population knew anything or would not talk. Most
guys, really, did not know anything. It was a very interesting place
to minister (work) in the 80s and 90s.
February 9, 2004
I wrote a letter to my civil
lawyer in Boston with a simple request: “Dear Attorney Carey, I
would like a copy of each deposition (2) that was taken during the
course of discovery in the matter you represented me. I appreciated
your assistance. If you have any questions, you can reach me at
What I, finally, did for I was
to obtain all pertinent legal material concerning my case. It was
time-long overdue- to read the legal facts.
February 11, 2004
I received my weekly issue of
the National Catholic Reporter which had a weekly column
“Washington Notebook: by Joe Feuerherd. He writes: “The Norms
(American Bishops) call on bishops to suspend a pried from ministry
once a credible accusation of abuse is brought forward. If the
investigation bears out the allegation, the priest (with an
exception for the elderly and infirm) is to be removed from
“Writing in the Boston
College Law Review, (Fr. Ladislas) Orsy S.J. who spelled out his
objections to the ‘hasty’ legislation.
“‘The Norms offer weak
protection to innocent priests and deacons who are easy target of
groundless accusation,’ he wrote. Meanwhile, the protections that
are offered (the accused, for example, ‘is encouraged to retain
counsel’) mean little because the legal infrastructure necessary to
protect the rights of the accused is almost nonexistent.’ (No
kidding!) ‘A priest is suspended and he has no reliable procedure to
which he can turn,’ says Orsy. ‘It is so slow so convoluted and so
lacking of properly trained personnel-especially in small
dioceses-that it is not enough.’
“ ‘In the law review he put it
this way: ‘The diocesan courts in the United States (and elsewhere)
are limited in their ability to handle criminal cases. The judges
and the offices of the courts were trained primarily for the
adjudication Additional problems:
The Norms lack a common definition of ‘sexual abuse.’
Writes Orsy: ‘To assign the ultimate responsibility for the
definition of the crime to the diocesan bishop/patriarch may result
in definitions diverging from place to place and from case to case,
not a sound practice in criminal law.’
Similarly, the written policies for dealing with
sexual abuse issues required by the Norms are to uniform. ‘Such an
obvious deficient approach can be explained only by the extreme
concern of the Conference to trespass on the jurisdiction of the
individual bishops,’ writes Orsy.
The ‘Norms offer no legal safeguards to prevent the
repetition of misguided actions by bishops’ nor do they give a role
to the ‘college of presbyters [priests]’ in ‘resolving the crisis
and preventing similar ones in the future.’ Says Orsy: “The fact
that a small percentage of them [priests] were sick is not a reason
not to use all the intelligence and energy of the rest.’
The ‘zero tolerance’ policy included in the Norms
fails to made ‘critical distinction.’ Writes Orsy: ‘…the law should
have ‘zero tolerance’ toward any crime by proscribing it, but the
judge and jury should weigh and ponder the personal responsibility
and culpability of the accused 9which can exist on different
degrees0 and come to decision accordingly.’
The diocesan preview boards established by the Norms
serve at the pleasure of the local bishop and are appointed by him.
‘Had the priests and the people of the diocese been given an
opportunity to have a voice I the selection of the candidates for
the board, the chance to provide wise advice to the bishops would
have been greater.’ Says Orsy: ‘The danger that some bishops may
appoint persons who will ‘never cause any problems’ is obvious.’”
“The clergy sex abuse
crisis, says Orsy, is a symptom of a larger problem: a deeply flawed
centralized church management system. There are no effective
intermediaries between the world’s 2,7000 dioceses or their
equivalents) and Rome. Writes Orsy: ‘They all repot to the Holy See
(Rome)-only. No matter what the administrative apparatus of the Holy
See is-and it is relatively small-it cannot provide preventive
control. By way of comparison, imagine a worldwide corporation with
2,700 local branches and with no intermediate controlling stations
between them and the center, which has a relatively small staff…”15
Jesuit Fr. Ladislas
Orsy is visiting professor of law at Georgetown University. So,
reading this, I never had a chance with Bishop Harrington-my
Ordinary- rattling at me: “You’re guilty till proven innocent.” I
didn’t punt even if it was fourth-down and 99 yards to go. It was a
matter of justice which was only a “mirage” in the Diocese of
This same day the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette gave us by Rachel Zoll of The
Associated Press “Sex abuse by clergy exceeding estimates: Over
1,3000 priests since 1950.”
Zoll writes: “The
scope of sexual abuse accusations against Roman Catholic clergy
since 1950 appears to be much greater than previously estimated by
victims’ groups and the media, an Associated Press review f reports
form dioceses has found.
“The U.S. church will
make an unprecedented, nationwide accounting of abuse claims and
cost later this month, and some bishops already have started
releasing local figures. The AP contacted dioceses across the
country and found that 1,341 clergy members have been accused of
molesting minors, with more than half the dioceses yet to report.”
‘What it’s really doing is showing us in black and white that the
problem is much worse than any of us thought,; said Sue Archibald,
president of The Linkup, a Kentucky-based victim advocacy group.
“Statistics have yet
to be released by some archdioceses that have faced hundreds of
allegations, including Boston and Los Angeles.
“A January 2003 review
by The New York Times counted 1,205 accused priests nationwide over
five decades. Survivors First, an advocacy group compiling its own
list for media reports are lawsuits, has counter 1,800.
“But Paul Baier, of
Survivors First, said he compared the numbers his organization
collected with reports from 41 dioceses and found the dioceses’
local statistic were double what he had counted.
“ ‘If those trends
continue across 195 dioceses, we can see the numbers that’s
self-reported by the bishops being twice as high as the names in our
pubic database,’ Boer said…”16
When I read such
reports, I reflect on Christmas time retail sales and the figures
and media reports that are given out. It is the “Whose on first, and
what is on second.” The merchants and retailers give out
information that I wonder about because they have to satisfy the
shareholders. What is the real story, would we ever know?
February 12, 2004
Stan Giza calls me from Palmer
to tell me about the Springfield Diocese’s “quitting.” He told me he
is saving the newspapers for me to read the whole story.
This day’s front page of The
(Springfield) Republican announces “Bishop quits after abuse
query: Dupre abruptly resigns, enter hospital.”
Bill Zajac- staff writer-
reports: “Springfield-Ad ay after The Republican confronted the Most
Rev. Thomas L. Dupre with accusations that he sexually assaulted two
boys about three decades ago, he abruptly resigned yesterday as
bishop of the Springfield Romans Catholic Diocese, citing health
“The bishop’s departure at age
70 left unanswered the series of questions posed to him about the
accusations, which the newspaper has been investigating for months.
The accusations were first brought to the bishop in a letter last
year by the mother of one of the two alleged victims, one of who was
about 13 and the other a pre-teen when the alleged abuse began.
“The woman, a longtime diocesan
school worker, said her letter arrived at the bishop’s residence
weeks before he told The Republican last year he might retire
earlier than the mandatory retirement age of 75 because of heart and
other health problems.
“The woman tried unsuccessfully
for months to persuade her now adult son to publicly press charges.
Her name is not being used in accordance with the newspapers’ policy
of protecting alleged sexual abuse victims.
“Roderick MacLeish, a Boston
lawyer-where have we heard about him-who has handled hundreds of
abuse claims in the Boston Archdiocese, said he has been retained by
the woman’s son strictly to try to protect his anonymity. MacLeish
said he is representing the other alleged victim, who is also trying
to protect his anonymity as he explores legal options.
‘ ‘My client want his
privacy protected and his family’s privacy protected. I hope all,
including the diocese will respect that,’ said MacLeish, adding that
he hasn’t fully discussed legal options with his client.
“ ‘This is a serious
situation,’ MacLeish said.
“The allegations were presented
to the bishop amid a recent flurry of public speaking engagements in
which Dupre urged Catholics to support a constitutional amendment
that bans gay marriages.
“Dupe’s resignation follows tow
years of diocesan problems related to clergy sexual abuse in the
diocese and the Catholic Church.
‘The diocese issued a statement
yesterday stating that Dupre submitted his resignation in November
and that his request was granted by the Vatican on Tuesday.
“Dupre allegedly sexually
abused town minor beginning in the 1970s, according to the mother of
one of the victims. After failed attempts to speak to Dupre about
the allegations, the newspaper submitted a detailed list of
questions via email to diocesan spokesman Mark Dupont Tuesday.
“Within hours, Dupre checked
into an undisclosed medical facility outside the diocese for
undisclosed treatment. His ailments are not considered life
threatening, according to diocesan officials…”17
This same issue of the
newspaper printed a “Timeline: Bishop Thomas L. Dupre of the
Springfield Diocese.” It was an extensive one beginning with Dupre’s
birth-Nov.10, 1933. This issue of the newspapers gave four pages
covering Bishop Dupre.
February 13, 2004
The Springfield Republican
front page had in bold print “DA to investigate bishop: A local
priest told the state attorney general of accusations in November,
but the case was to pursued because the alleged victims didn’t come
Bill Zajac-Staff Writer-
reports: “Springfield-The Hampden County District Attorney’s Office
has begun taking steps to investigate allegations that the recently
retired bishop of the Springfield diocese sexually abuse two minors
beginning more than two decades ago.
“As local diocesan leaders
sought to ease the shock of thousands of Catholics in Western
Massachusetts, they were also preparing a report on the allegations
that will be sent to the archbishop of Boston.
“The Rev. Thomas L. Dupre,
whose retirement was, announced Wednesday, has yet to respond to the
allegations first reported yesterday in The Republican. He checked
himself into an undisclosed medical, non-life-threatening illness
after The Republican confronted him with a detailed list of
questions regarding the alleged abuse.
“The Roman Catholic Diocese of
Springfield said Dupre first applied to the Vatican for retirement
in November 2003 and he was notified that it was accepted on
Tuesday. Dupre who has a recent history of heart problems, cited
health reason for his retirement.
“The accusations against the
bishop came from a mother of one of the alleged victims. The woman,
a longtime worker in a Catholic school in the diocese, said her son
was abused by Dupre starting in her son’s freshman year in high
school and that here son’s best friend was abused beginning when he
was a preteen. The alleged abuse started in the 1970s and lasted
into the 1080s…”18
When I was reading this, it
seemed that this chancery had a procedure in place to handle the
media and questions. It was a significant difference than handling
my particulars- We (Worcester Chancery) will get a hold of you. I
waited, waited and waited. Nothing but some five years later I get
to meet the new bishop.
I wonder how many priest
personal and others were involved with time being accounted for in a
Dupre case or for that matter, my situation.
I go back to one of those “hot
house” kitchen interrogations of me where Rueger had a folder that
was stacked with papers that were at least 5 or 6 inches thick. Was
it my file? It was never referred too nor anything but in front of
Rueger on the table- show time.
Our diocesan newspaper, The
Catholic Free Press, had a front page picture and story of
Bishop Thomas Dupre. It was submitted by the Staff and Catholic News
Service entitled “Springfield Bishop Dupre resign; health cited.”
It stated: “Washington-Pope
John Paul II has accepted the resignation, for health reasons, of
Bishop Thomas L. Dupre of Springfield.
“Archbishop Gabriel Montalvo,
papal nuncio to the United States, made the announcement in
“Bishop Dupre, 70, has been a
bishop since 1990 and head of the Springfield Diocese since 1995,
His successor was not named immediately.
“Diocesan spokesman Mark Dupont
said Bishop Dupre left the diocese Feb. 10 for treatment at a
medical facility. He declined to give detail citing concern for the
“Last May, in an interview with
The Republican Springfield’s daily newspaper, Bishop Dupre said he
was considering retiring early because of his health. He has a heart
condition and has had back problems.
“The same month in an interview
with his diocesan newspaper, The Catholic Observer, he said for the
last four years he had ‘suffered from a serious heart ailment as
well as other age-related issues.’…”19
One has to read this complete
article because if is so Episcopal orientated (Catholic Free Press)
in its reporting of 21 paragraphs with three paragraphs about
allegations in comparison to practically only allegation story
being reported on the Springfield’s daily newspaper- The
The Church has perfected its
approach for bishops- special treatment. Of course, as we all know
for experiences in Worcester Diocese and other dioceses, bishops are
autonomous and can interpret and apply such directives as they see
fit-or simply ignore them-sometimes.
So, we get this day,
in addition to Bishop Durpre’s story, the Catholic Free Press other
front page story “We are on the road to recovery: Report issued on
history of sexual abuse in diocese” by Kevin Luperchio of the Free
“Worcester-Following more than two years of self-scrutiny on the
issue of clergy sexual abuse of minors, Bishop Reilly has released a
report detailing what the diocese has learned and steps it has taken
to ‘restore the trust that has been seriously broken by the
The report includes a
pastoral letter from the bishop, published in today’s edition of The
Catholic Free Press, and information on the number and type of abuse
allegations made by year and action taken against accused priests.
“It shows that 45
priests have been accused of sexual abuse of a minor in the 53-year
history of the diocese. (Forty-three were diocesan priests and tow
belonged to other dioceses.)
“The number of accused
priest comes from a total of 1,506 priests, including 775 diocesan
priests and 751 religious order priests or priests from other
dioceses, who ministered in the diocese between 1950 and 2003.
“Twenty-nine of those priests
were removed from public ministry, either through administrative
measures, sick leave or retirement; three were allowed to continue
in public ministry because the allegations against them were
withdrawn and 12 were deceased at the time allegations were brought,
according the report. The remaining priest has been removed –or
excoriated-from the diocese prior to any allegation and is no longer
in public ministry…”20
The Worcester Diocese did
everything to give the impression of Bishop Reilly’s message of
“Creating a Safe Environment.” They really hit on the issue of a
“dragnet going through the water” and all is well.
In addition, this day, the
National Catholic Reporter reports: “No one knows whether James
Kelly’s suicide last October in from of a New Jersey Transit train
in Morristown, N.J., stemmed from the childhood sexual abuse by a
Mendham, N.J., priest or from other problems.
“Still, while gathered after
his funeral on the grounds of St. Joseph’s Roman Catholic Church I
Mendham-where the abuse occurred more than two decades ago-people
who were abused by the same priest discussed manning their support
group chapter after Kelly, a 37-year-old telecommunications salesman
from Morristown who has recently been laid off.
“ ‘We were must kind of having
an open table discussion,’ recalled Bill Crane, who, like Kelly, was
sexually abused by the former Fr. James Hanley. ‘And it dawned on me
that something really needs to take place that is tangible, to bring
to light thee seriousness of what we endured as children, so it
won’t be forgotten.’
“Crane suggested erecting a
small monument, and received approval from the group and the
church’s pastor, Fr. Kenneth Lasch. When dedicated in April outside
the church’s Pax Christi Center; the 400-pound basalt
monument-shaped like a millstone-will evoked a biblical saying that
is meaningful to Christians who were sexually abused by children.
“In the passage, from the
Gospel of Matthew, Jesus addresses those who would harm children,
saying, ‘It would be better for you if a great millstone was
fastened around your neck and you were drowned in the death of the
“The monument apparently would
be the only marker in the nation dedicated to victims of the clergy
sex abuse crisis located at a church. Lasch said it could help
victims fell the church will not forget what happened to them
February 14, 2004
The (Springfield) Republican
prints this day “Diocese must ‘come clean’: Interim successor to
The story goes:
“Springfield-The newly elected leader of the Roman Catholic Diocese
of Springfield said yesterday the church must ‘come clean,’
admitting that an ‘old boy network’ years ago protected priest
suspected of sexual abuse.
“Monsignor Richard S. Sniezyk,
who will lead the diocese until a bishop is appointed by the
Vatican, said church leaders and members are shaken by an allegation
this week that out-going Bishop Thomas L. Dupre molested two boys
more than 20 years ago when he was a parish priest. Dupre resigned
Wednesday, citing health reasons.
“In referring to the ongoing
sex abuse crisis in the church, Sniezyk said church officials must
acknowledge a culture that protected abusive priest existed years
“ ‘We have to come clean,’ said
Sniezyk, recalling own as a young priest he heard rumors of ‘cliques
of priest’ who molested young churchgoers, that were protected by
church and legal officials, Sniezyk, who was ordained in 1962,said
he never witnessed any abuse. (There was stories as such that I
heard in the Worcester Diocese-The Boys in the Band Group.
“ ‘I think truly an old boy
network existed. We have to admit that no one did anything with it
in those days,’ Sniezyk said adding that priest are now being held
“Sniezyk who was elected
administrator yesterday by an eight-member board of diocesan
consulters will oversee the day-to-day operations of the diocese
until a bishop is named by the pope, which could take up to a
February 15, 2004
I was struggling to come to
terms with me being put into “mothballs.” I felt that I was made a
scapegoat by Harrington and Gang. I was writing my journal for
myself but also for giving a picture of what this experience looked
as from another side of the issue.
February 16, 2004
The Worcester Telegram &
Gazette reports “Bishop Reilly issues report on sex abuse:
Priests’ names not given.” (Priests names have been printed in this
Another report of the Telegram
& Gazette Staff-Martin Luttrell reported: “Worcester-The Diocese of
Worcester released its first report on the scope of clergy sexual
abuse of children yesterday, citing 112 allegations of abuse form
1950 through 2003.
“While the diocese found that
only 48 were substantiated and another was considered credible, an
activist who works with victims of clergy sexual abuse said the
numbers are higher than she had thought.
“‘What’s new is that this is
the first time we’ve pulled the numbers together and put them in one
report,’ said diocese spokesman Raymond L. Delisle. ‘Previously, we
had done this one at a time. We were doing this as part of a
national study. We put it together and wanted to share that.’
“Bishop Daniel P. Reilly shared
the text of the pastoral report yesterday with parishioners during
Mass at St. Paul’s Cathedral, which was videotaped and broadcast in
the evening on WCTR, Channel 3.
“According to the diocese
report, $2,280,833 has been paid in compensation to victims in
settlements of abuses between 1950 and 2003. Of that, $1,469,000
came form insurance and $811,833 was paid directly by the diocese.
“An additional $185,879 was
spent for victim counseling, services and therapy, the report sates
“ In the report, Bishop Reilly
emphasizes that the source of funds for any settlement, therapeutic
response or legal fees was the Bishop’s discretionary funds….No
donations to the Bishop’s Fund, or parish contributions to the
diocese known as the cathedraticum, or gifts to the Forward in Faith
capital campaign were used for anything other than their designated
The numbers become very
interesting to read. But, trying to understand them is another
story. (My settlement with the two “alleged victims” was $95,000-
February 17, 2004
I was on the internet to read
The Boston Globe article “Abuse article says 4% of priests in
US accused: Figure is higher than Church officials expected.” It was
written by Michael Paulson of the Globe Staff who was similar to
Kathleen A. Shaw of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette.
He wrote: “About 4 percent of
Catholic priests have been accused of sexually abusing minors over
the past half-century according to a draft of the first
comprehensive study sexual abuse within the Catholic Church in the
United States. The percentage is higher than many people including
church officials, had anticipated.
“the draft of the study, done
by John Day College of Criminal Justice for the US Conference of
Catholic Bishops found that 4,450 of the 110,000 priests who served
between 1950 and 2002 were accused of sexual abuse of minors,
according to CNN, which reported yesterday that it had reviewed the
“The number of alleged
perpetuators given in the draft study is higher than the tallies by
news media outlets, including the Associated Press and The New York
Times that have tried to count reported allegations nationwide.
“The number is also higher than
that protested by church officials. A top Vatican official, Cardinal
Joseph Ratzinger (father Pope Benedict XV), said in 2002, according
to the Catholic News Service: ‘In the United States, there is
constant news of this topic, but less than 1 percent are guilty of
acts of this type.’
“But the number of
victims is lower than expected by many…”24
This same day The
Republican in Springfield prints “Aid for former priest debated:
Anonymous donors chipped in $100,000 to help support abusive
priests, something that baffles the mother of an alleged victim.”
Staff writes Bill
Zajac wrote: “Springfield-the fund that possibly could provide
financial support for a recently defrocked priest in the Springfield
Diocese represents incredible acts of charity by donors, diocesan
“But others are
raising questions, including why the church hasn’t provided the same
amount of charity to victims of sexual abuse (Worcester seems to
settle cases on layer’s fees and offering counseling.).
“In announcing the
laicization of convicted child molester Richard r. Lavigne Jan. 20,
officials of the Romans Catholic Diocese of Springfield said he may
be eligible for financial help from a fund recently created to
financially support priests removed form ministry for sexual abuse.
“At least two people
who want to remain anonymous have contributed about $100,000 I total
for the fund, according to diocesan officials. More than two people,
but no more than six or so, may have contributed to the fund,
diocesan officials said.
“Sandra L. Tessier of
Springfield, the mother of an alleged sexual abuse victim of Lavinge,
expressed outrage that the diocese would facilitate a fund to
support Lavigne-a person accused by about 40 people of sexual
abusing them as minors. Lavigne also is the only suspect in the
unsolved 1972 murder of 13-yer old Springfield altar boy Daniel
“ ‘What kind of person
wants their money supporting a sexual predator?’ Tessier said…We
Monsignor Richard S. Sniezyk) are a church that follows the
teachings of Jesus Christ. If Jesus Christ was here he would reach
out to Richard Lavigne as he reached out to Judas, as he reached out
to Peter after he denied him, and as he reached out to all sinners,’
Sniezyk said…Lavingne’s current $1,030 monthly stipend and $8,800 in
annual health benefits will end May 31. To continue to receive
financial help, Lavinge would have to ask for charity from the
“If he does seek help,
a lay panel of professionals would determine if Lavigne is indigent.
If he were deemed indigent, money would be given to him from the
newly created fund. The amount would be decided by the panel.
Lavigne would also have to agree to cooperate with the diocese’s
This is interesting
reading in due fact of what the Worcester Diocese has me under their
Michael Paulson of the Boston
Globe staff wrote “Aubse study says 4% of priest in US accused:
Gigure is higher than Church officials expected.” He wrote in The
Boston Globe: “About 4 percent of Catholic priests have been
accused of sexually abusing minors over the past half-century,
according to a draft of the first comprehensive study of sexual
abuse within the Catholic Church in the United States. The
percentage is higher than many people, including church officials,
“The draft of the study, done
by John Jay College of Criminal Justice for the US Conference of
Catholic Bishops, found that 4,450 of the 110,000 priests who served
between 1950 and 2002 were accused of sexual abuse of minors,
according to CNN, which reported yesterday that it had reviewed the
“The number of alleged
perpetrators given n the draft study is higher than the tallies by
news media outlets, including the Associated Press and The New York
Time, that have tried to count reported allegations nationwide.
“The number is also higher
than that projected by church officials top Vatican official,
Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger, said in 2002, according to the Catholic
News Service: ‘In the United States, there is constant news on this
topic, but less than 1 percent of priests are guilty of acts of this
“But the number of victims is
lower than expected by many…”
February 18, 2004
The Worcester Telegram &
Gazette foes on this day’s front page “Parish priest placed on
leave: Diocese removes Blackstone pastor.”
Martin Luttrell of the Telegram
& Gazette Staff writes: “Blackstone-The Romans Catholic Diocese of
Worcester has placed rev. James D. Champion, pastor of St. Paul
Church, on administrative leave after allegations of sexual
“Monsignor Thomas J. Sullivan,
diocesan chancellor and director of ovations informed parishioners
of Rev. Champion’s removal during three Masses on Sunday. He and
Worcester District Attorney John J. Conte said that the allegations
did not involve children, nor result I criminal charges.
“Rev. Champion, 58, had been
pastor at St. Paul for 12 years. He has been removed form
ministerial duties and is no longer living at the parish rectory,
Monsignor Sullivan said…
“A report released last month
by Mr. Conte showed that 86 priests, brothers and sisters of
religious order, ordained ministers, as well as three laypersons,
have been accused of sexual misconduct.
“Of these, 37 are living
priests attached to the Diocese of Worcester, and one layperson,
also connected to the Diocese of Worcester; 20 are deceased priests
who were attached to the Diocese of Worcester and one layperson
connected to the diocese who is also deceased.
“A report released by the
diocese Sunday only addressed priests accused of sexual abuse of
children, citing 112 allegations of abuse from 1950 through 2003.
“Both reports indicated that
the instances of alleged abuse peaked between 1975 and 1979, and
that most victims did not report them-either to the church or civil
authorities-for an average of 20 years (Any professionals
investigating those last fact-20 years?).26
What has to be said is
interesting how the Worcester Telegram & Gazette writes an
article of a priest situation, which is usually short if facts and
they run away with a pattern of figures that become the “manta” for
articles for a good period of time as we witnessed in this February
Another possibly of such a
technique is that the writer has to submit an 800 words or similar
standard for an article.
I had an interesting
conversation with “Father Peacock” this afternoon. He had to give a
deposition concerning a priest that lived in his rectory when he was
a pastor at another assignment. He knew that I sensed something was
happening with his questioning at one time about depositions. So, he
related that the lawyer-Attorney Goulka- for the diocese who was
driving said to him: “Father ________ is guilty. He did do this
(abuse a boy)” This was very hard to believe that this lawyer made
such a remark to him and being so flippant-if it was said?
“Father Peacock” had to tell me
that on his deposition copy, one question asked him was if he was
aware that the Huse of Affirmation was treating pedophiles? He,
also, mentioned that he was asked if he knew anything about a “sex
ring in Worcester”? I mentioned this one time to him that I was
asked about this when I was at the IOL, Hartford. I made no comment
and kept a poker-face.
He then proceeded to
tell me that after the deposition, a copy was sent to him to make
any corrections or additions. I kept a poker-face and said nothing
because I never was given such a procedure.
What was interesting
was that “Father Peacock” was so “uptight.” What surprised me was
that he had just retried forma three week vacations (retreat) to
Canada. Something was bothering him about “something big,” He
reacted towards me negatively that that last three years he came
back in early February because he had to “face another priest
alleged in the diocese.” Oh? The stories were very conflicting that
he was relating to me. I knew that he never told me anything without
it being calculated.
“Father Peacock” then
put a spin on a story as his interpretation: The diocese now says
all cases of allegation have to be reported to the DA’s Office. It
was not to go anymore to the Worcester Chancery. He told me that the
Fr. James Champion story of an adult accusing him was to the DA’s
Office. I knew that from reading the newspaper. But, it seemed that
this story being told me was as though I would take a while to pull
the diamonds from the min approach. He had to make it a point tome
that the diocese now seems to say that it is not them anymore but
the DA’s Office that is doing the priest-in. My question: Why is he
so stressed by all of this? Oh! He even had to tell me that Attorney
Goulka told him on the ride back to her office from his deposition
said to him: “You did very well.” (He would say something as such
even if it did not happen.).
February 20, 2004
The Catholic Free Press comes
out on its weekly publication on page one “Blackstone pastor removed
form parish.” The paper reports (no staff member):
“Blackstone-Father James D. Champion, pastor of St. Paul
parish for the last 12 years, has been placed on administrative
leave of absence because of allegations of sexual misconduct, Bishop
Reilly has announced.
“The bishop, in a letter sent
to priest of the diocese Tuesday said the allegations do not involve
children or minors or any of the parishioners at St. Paul’s.
“Monsignor Thomas J. Sullivan,
diocesan Chancellor, has been names temporary administrator of the
parish, Bishop Reilly announced today. He will continue as
Chancellor and Director of Vocation with his residence remaining at
the bishop’s residence.
“Msgr. Sullivan told
parishioners about Father Champion’s removal at the Masses last
week-end. He assured them that the bishop would assign a priest to
be responsible for the spiritual and temporal administration of the
parish. ‘The stability and strength of St. Paul’s is very important
to the bishop. All of the regular parish scheduling will them
continue as planned and parish activities will not be curtailed,’
Msgr. Sullivan said.
Msgr. Sullivan told
parishioners that the diocese learned of the allegations against
Father Champion from the district attorney. He said the bishop and
the Diocesan Review Board have investigated the matter and will
continue to do so. He said the district attorney’s investigation
also will continue.
“District Attorney John J.
Conte said the allegations do not involve a child or a minor. He
said no charges have been filed against Father Champion. He said the
man who made the allegations agreed that the district attorney could
make his charges known to the Diocese of Worcester, but did not want
to proceed with criminal charges, Mr. Conte said. ..”27
What gets interesting about the
“dragnet going through the water” is where this fit in the big
What are the charges that such an individual
allegate Father Champion? Yet, what is it that this guy had to go to
the DA office? But, the Worcester Diocese has a “Diocesan Review
Board” in place. Does this reflect the “good-old-days” of the Bishop
Harrington and other regimens? It also gets interesting reading how
issues have involved-same results.
Champion case must have made a
lot of “brother priest” in the diocese have their shoes get tight.
Another front page story of
this same paper had the story “Local Report Generates Little
Reaction.” Kevin Luperchio, staff writer, wrote: “A bishop’s report
on clergy sexual abuse of minors has generated little reaction
around the diocese.
“The report, published in a
pastoral letter last week, outlines child sexual abuse allegations
against clergy to the diocese’s establishment in 1950. It included
the number of priests accused of sexual abuse (45), the total number
of allegations reported to the diocese (112), and the amount of
money the diocese has paid in settlements ($2.29 million).
“Raymond L. Delisle, diocesan
director of communications, and Patrick Engdabl, director f the
diocesan’s Office for Healing and Prevention, said they received no
inquiries or feedback from the report (Why am I surprised to even
read such a comment from this group that are “hole pluggers”? The
general public is more aware of what the game is on this priest
sexual abuse ‘crisis’ is.) The Office for Healing and Prevention,
established as a response to the clergy sexual abuse crisis,
provides outreach to survivors of sexual abuse and works to educate
the public about the issue surrounding such abuse.
“Mrs. Engdahl said the lack of
response to the bishop’s report suggest that ‘people’s questions are
being answered. We are giving people the information they are
looking for’ (Get real, Mrs. Engdahl.).
Msgr. Thomas J. Sullivan,
diocesan chancellor, said he thinks people find the diocese report
credible, especially in light of the separate report released weeks
earlier by District Attorney John J. Conte (You have to know Tom
“The report, which reviewed the
district attorney’s investigation into clergy sexual abuse of minors
and adults in all area faith communities, ‘were almost identical to
the dioceses’ report,’ Msgr. Sullivan said.
“Father Henry A. Donohue,
pastor of St. George’ Parish in Worcester, sad he thought the
bishop’s report, was very well done (Another guy you have to know.).
“Father Donohue said the fact
that the report covered the entire 53-year-history of the diocese
provided an overall context from which to examine the problem of
clergy sexual abuse in the local church.
“‘People have a tendency to get
caught up’ and assume the problem is more widespread than it is, he
said. ...It gives perspective,’ the pastor said.
“David Lewcon, a local victim
of the clergy sexual abuse and member of the Survivors Network for
Those Abuse by Priests, said the report left him with several
“ ‘The main questions, he said
are how long the diocese toke to remove priests who are accused of
sexual abuse and whether the diocese used money from the Bishop’s
Fund to pay victim’s settlements…
“A draft (National Level)
leaked to some media outlets noted that roughly 4,450 clergy have
been accused of abusing a total of 11,000 minors in the U.S. Between
1950 and 2002.”28
The issue of practically no
reaction by the general parishioners, hopefully, would show that the
hierarchy reaction was more of an issue than the priest allegated.
People are not stupid. But, the church hierarchy and the media play
an interesting “power and authority” struggle and sell papers.
Where is George Rueger?
This morning on “Imus Show”
there was an interview with William Donoghue (Catholics United)
saying that the American Bishops shouldn’t have come out with the
report of allegations since 1950? Donoghue said the names on the
Internet have some names that are not guilty. But, he continued to
say that they are on the World Wide Internet.
Yes! I know. My name is on that
February 24, 2004
I had lunch with: Father
Peacock” because it was “”Fat Tuesday.” This is the day before Ash
Wednesday. Well, it seemed after the last conversation I had with
him and his point of everything now is with the DA that I pushed a
hot button. It was me commenting that he had one chance to become a
Monsignor. He reacted with a calm manner by saying that Bishop
Reilly won’t make anymore Monsignors because the “publicity would
have some come out as a victim against anyone named.” He said as an
example of Bishop Dupre in Springfield after an anti-gay newspaper
had two guys come out publicly against the bishop.
I said that I was referring to
the next bishop, not Reilly’s appointments. I kept wondering about
“Father Peacock’s” constant, silent probing of me for information of
what was going on and his quirky comment on victims, running sacred
or more interesting in why he was so “nervous.”
“Vatican report criticizes U.S.
sex abuse policy: Overreaction charged/Vatican study faults
zero-tolerance rules” article appears in the Worcester Telegram &
Gazette that was written by Frank Bruni of The New York Times.
This gets interesting: “Vatican
City-A report on child sexual abuse that the Vatican released
yesterday found fault with American bishops zero-tolerance policy of
seeking to remove from ministry any Roman Catholic priest who has
abused a child (The damage was already done by the hierarchy and
“The 219-page report titled
‘Sexual Abuse in the Catholic Church: Scientific and Legal
Perspectives,’ cast that policy as an overreacting to a public
outcry and as a potential counterproductive way to keep children
safe from sexual abuse.
“The report included
expressions of concern that sexually abusive priests who are cast at
of ministry and pushed away from the church might be more likely to
abuse against because of their isolation and a lack of monitoring of
“ ‘Although until now the
phenomenon of abuse was to always taken seriously enough, at present
thee is a tendency to overreact and rob accused priests of even
legitimate support,’ wrote one of the editors of the report, Dr.
Manfred Luetz, in its conclusion. Luetz, a German psychiatrist, is
a member of the Pontifical Council for the Laity. “The other two
editors are not connected to the Vatican and the report mainly
presents the perspectives of those tow scientists and six others. No
one of the eight is Catholic; all are experts in the study or
treatment of sexual abuse.
“Their perspectives were
distilled from the papers they presented and the comments they made
at a private fur-day conference here in April that was sponsored by
the Pontifical Academy for Life. Copies were made available here
“While the report repeatedly
challenges the wisdom of that policy, it also represents and
unusually unblinking, expansive acknowledgment by the Vatican of the
problem of sexually abusive priest.
“If furthermore shows the
Vatican’s interest in looking to science, and not just prayer, for
answers. Many critics of the church’s past response to sexually
abusive priests have said that bishop stood often believed that
penance alone could keep a priest who had molested a child from
doing it against…”29
Telegram & Gazette carried a small report from The Associated
Press “Leninet remarks on sex abuse draw apology form monsignor”
It states: “Springfield-The
interim head of the Springfield Diocese apologized yesterday for
saying the Catholic sexual abuse scandal steamed from a belief once
held by some priests that having sex with yung men was acceptable.
“Monsignor Richard S. Sniezyk
said that as a seminarian and a young priest in the 1950s and early
1960s, he heard of priests who had sex with young men, but ‘no one
thought much about it.’
“They did go ministry, they wee
good to their people, they were kind, compassionate, but they had o
idea what they were doing to these young men that they were
abusing.’ Sniezyk told The Boston Globe on Sunday. ‘It was that era
of the ‘60s-most of it took place from the mid-‘60s to the early
‘80s-and the whole atmosphere out there was, it was OK, it was OK to
“ ‘Certainly that atmosphere is
not present is most present in the church today,’ he said.
“In a statement last evening,
Sniezyk said he was ‘deeply sorry’ if his comments ‘caused distress
to the faithful or un-necessary and unfounded suspicion of the
priests of my diocese.
“He said he ‘did not mean to
suggest, nor do I believe to be true, the sexual misconduct in any
context is ever acceptable and sickening violation of children and
the long-term horrific result…’ “30
I was ordained in 1970 and
never heard anything as what this Monsignor stated here. I just
don’t believe there was such thinking even existing. But, again, I
was trying to be “normal” and did not hang-around fellow clergy. I
visited and traveled with parishioners. This was a big issue that
was used against me by the diocesan chancery (Harrington and Rueger)
and fellow priest in a silent manner.
What was very peculiar if one
takes the 60s, 70s and 80s was that there was this period of after
the finish of the Second Vatican Council where so many priests left
the active ministry to get married? So, it begs the question: Who
remained? Was there a silent code of something else besides having
“a vocation” game?
February 25, 2004
“Pastor guilty of stealing
$250K: Rev. Donald Ouellette admits to taking money from Fitchburg
church” appeared on the top of the front page of this day’s issue of
the Sentinel & Enterprise (Fitchburg).
Matt O’Brien of the staff
wrote: “Worcester-The former pastor of the Immaculate Conception
Church in Fitchburg pleaded guilty Tuesday to stealing $250,000 from
“The Rev. Donald Ouellette, 49,
the former pastor of the Catholic parish on Walnut Street, pleased
guilty to 18 counts of larceny in Worcester County Superior Court.
“Superior Court Judge Peter
Agnes set a May 5 sentencing date for Ouellette.
“Ouellette, who has not offered
an explanation for the crime, could potentially face up to five
years imprison for each of the 18 convictions, said the priest’s
lawyer, Michael McEvilly of Leominster.
“Ouellette was accused of
writing more than 207 checks to himself from a parish bank account
while pastor at the Fitchburg church since 2001, prosecutors have
“The priest’s unscheduled
change of plea in Worcester Superior Court happened tow months after
a convicted child rapist, William Lamontagne, told the Sentinel &
Enterprise that Ouellette funneled some of the stolen money to him
“Ouellette has denied through
his layer that he and the prisoner were in a relationship.
“’You listen and it’s
confusing,’ said Monsignor Thomas Sullivan, who visited Lamontagne
in prison last year and talked to Ouellette about the allegations so
he could help Bishop Daniel Reilly decide what to do about the
“‘What the relationship was is
must confusing,’ said Sullivan, who as chancellor of the Worcester
Catholic Diocese acts as liaison to the district attorney’s office.
‘One ways one thing and one says the other…”31
February 26, 2004
I received a packet of material
from Attorney Carey. In the packet was the depositions of McCormick,
Reidy and Joselyn. I was not aware of that a Reidy and Joselyn gave
depositions. I did not have a copy of my deposition in this packet.
So, where was mine? I did give a deposition. I was able to read the
script at this time that my case was “resolved” much earlier in the
process-guilty till proven innocent- and the money line must have
been established to be a certain amount that was agreed by all
parities but me.
But, it does beg the question:
Where is Abby Marshall Weber’s deposition? There was a settlement of
$45,000 settlement payment. None was mailed to me from my lawyer.
Against, where was my copy of my deposition?
I put these depositions that I
had in hand and put them in my file for later reading.
February 27, 2004
John L. Allen, Jr. of the
National Catholic Reporter wrote in his column “Word from Rome”
that the morale is depressing in the American church. He wrote:
“Some bishops are short-circuiting Rome by asking priests to resign
or retire when guilt seems established, seeing that adequate
resolution-hence they are not forwarding there cases to the CDF. The
problem, the canonist pointed out is that such a strategy normally
means that the diocese bears ongoing financial responsibility for
the priest, meaning ongoing civil liability for wrong doing.
Moreover, it is a violation of canon law…and a lack of respect for
the law was part of what got the Church into this mess in the first
This would have been very
understandable in my situation because I would have revealed about
Harrington’s drunken driving accident and procedure of handling my
case. Therefore, I get threatened by Pedone, isolated and become
history-the eyes of the Worcester Diocese and Church.
This same issue of the
National Catholic Reporter reports: “Albany bishop denies sees
allegations: Appoints independent investigator, pledges full
cooperation.” The NCR staff writes: “The Albany, N.Y., diocese
announced Feb. 17 it had hired a former U.S. attorney and criminal
lawyer to investigate charges of sexual misconduct against Bishop
Howard J. Hubbard. Hubbard, 65, has strenuously denied allegations
that he had a homosexual affair with a man who later killed himself,
and that he had sexual encounters with teenage street hustler.
“The allegations of events that
were supposed to have happened in the 1970s surfaced in early
February at news conferences called by attorney John Aretakis, who
has repeatedly sued the diocese over clerical sex abuse cases.
“Complicating the situation is
the Feb. 15 death of an Albany priest, Fr. John Minkler, who had
been linked by news reports to a nine-year-old letter that denounced
the bishop, accusing him of homosexual affairs, tolerating gay
activity in the priesthood and departing from church teachings.
“The Albany County coroner has said the autopsy
on Minkler’s body was inconclusive, and more tests are needed to
determine exactly how he died. Media accounts have speculated that
Minkler, 57, committed suicide. Minkler was a chaplain in a Veteran
“Hubbard met with Minkler two
day days before the priest was found dead. Diocesan officials told
NCR that Minkler came to them to deny having written the letter…”33
We get more mystery stories
evolving when we learn more of such a story and there are many more
around the country including Worcester Diocese.
This same issue had on its
editorial page “Reports will tell only part of the story” by Tom
Robert (NCR editor). He writes: “The day before the figures were
leaked from the John Jay College of Criminal Justine report on
sexual abuse by Catholic clergy, I was standing on a lawn in City
Park in New Orleans, attending a memorial service for 50 victims of
sexual abuse by priest.
“The victims, from across the
country, had all committed suicide. Many if not most of them
committed suicide at a young age, in their 20s and 30s. No one, as
abuse survivor Barbara Blain made clear at the service, was drowning
absolute connections between the suicides and earlier abuse. ‘But we
have to ask the questions,’ she said…
“It was tempting, viewing the
thin row of survivors and friends against the backdrop of life’s
normal activity, the see this moment as neat metaphor for the bigger
picture. Victims ignored, left too often to their own thoughts,
their own recollections, thin voices carried off on chilly winds…
“The following night, after the
figures had been releases, I was on CNN and in answer to a question
I sad I thought it was significant that at the end of nearly two
decades of refusing to release any information, the bishop-p were
now handing it over to lay investigators and surveyors. That is not
how the bishops would want it to happen. That is significant change.
“The night after the memorial
service was also the night that Dominican Fr. Thomas Doyle gave a
talk as part of a program organized by Voice of the Faithful at
Loyola University in New Orleans. Twenty years ago, Doyle was
working in the nuncio’s office in Washington and climbing the
clerical ladder, but he ran in to reports of sexual abuse scandal in
the esarly 1980s. It is well-know story now that he refused to go
along with the cover-up and became a whistleblower. H lost his
position and any chance of becoming a bishop…
“At Loyal, he spoke about the
sins of clericalism, of an abuse of power and authority. Fro him the
sex abuse crisis is a symptom of a deeper ill-he calls it
corruption-that emerges from a hierarchical culture that is steeped
in secrecy and beyond accountability…Known real corruption-not
mistaken or misjudgment…”34
This adds to my issue of “Power
and Authority” theme.
February 29, 2004
The Worcester Telegram &
Gazette printed a story by Denise Lavoie of The Associated Press
“Lives of pedophile priest, abuse victims end in tragedy: Geoghan
slain, McSorley dies 6 months apart.”
Lavoie writes: “Boston-John
Geoghan, a frail, hunched-over man who shuffled when he waked,
became the most recognizable image of pedophile priests after his
cases ignited the clergy sex abuse scandal in the Archdiocese of
Boston two years ago.
“Patrick McCorley, a troubled
young man who friends said struggled with drug addiction and alcohol
abuse, was the public voice for Geoghan’s victims who worked to help
other escape the demons that plagued him.
“Within six months of one
another, both men are dead, victims of a crisis that affected
thousands of children across the country, including at least nearly
1,000 in Boston between 1950 and 2003, according to a tally release
by the archdiocese last week.
“Geoghan, 68, was beaten and
strangled in prison, alleged by a fellow inmate enraged by Geoghan’s
molestation of children. The defrocked priest, who was convicted of
fondling a 10-year old boy, was accused in civil lawsuits of
molesting nerly150 Boston-area children over three decades.
“McSorley, 29, who said Geoghan
molested him on a trip to get ice cream while he was 12, was found
dead last week at a friend’s apartment in Boston’s North End. The
cause of death has not yet been released by the medical examiner’s
March 1, 2004
I tried to find in Google
search engine the term “zero tolerance.” This term pertained to
priest’s allegated with no success. I was working on my fear buckets
being filled-up. But, I felt different in that I was not the usual
scared approach. I mentioned this in my journal writing because of
the experience. I was, at this time, taking the issue of “What
next?” Here, I was being in out-the-door possibility. In actuality,
I was only a priest in “my cave.” This was where I said daily Mass,
my Divine Office (breviary) and mediation prayers...
It was now over 10 years that I
had been living with uncertainty.
March 5, 2004
Now we are getting “paralysis
of analysis” on the American Bishops Sex Abuse Reports.
The Catholic Free Press prints
a Catholic News Service article by Jerry Filteau. He writes:
“Washington (CNS)-The U.S. Catholic Church reached another key
milestone in dealing with its clergy sexual abuse crisis Feb. 27
when tow major documents on the extent of the abuse and its causes
were released simultaneously.
“Milestones aren’t end
points. They only serve as progress alerts.
“But the National
Review Board report on the causes and context of the abuse and the
July Hay study f the nature and scope of the nature and scope of the
abuse mark two important breakthroughs.
“They province for the
first time a full objective accounting of now bad the problems was
and a thoughtful independent critique of what led to this sad
chapter in church history.
‘This study and this report, while painful to read, form a vital
benchmark,’ said Bishop Wilton D. Gregory of Belleville, Ill.,
president of the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops, at a press
conference following the release of the two documents.
“The John Jay
study-conducted by the John Jay College of Criminal Justice in New
York, on e the nation’s top institutions in that field-said its
survey found that al least 10,667 people had reported plausible
claims of childhood sexual abuse by 4,392 priests or deacons between
1950 and 2002. This represents 4 percent of the approximately
110,000 diocesan and religious priests who served in the United
States in those years.
“Are those numbers an
underreport? Certainly! No one claims all victims have come
When I read this last
comment about coming forward, my tape plays in my head of Rueger
clacking: “More are going to come out on you (Ted).”
This same issue of the
Catholic Free Press printed “Disciplinary actions varied against
priests, says sex abuse study.” Against the Catholic News Service
writer Augustine Bono wrote: “Washington (CNS)-After allegations of
child sex abuse against priests still in ministry were substantiated
by church officials, church disciplinary actions carried out in
those cases ranged from doing nothing to suspending clerics, said a
comprehensive national study on the church crisis covering
10 percent of the substantiated allegations, no action was taken
against the priest, and in 6 percent of such allegations the priest
was reprimanded and returned to ministry, said the study by the John
Jay College of Criminal Justice in New York.
“Priest involved in 29
percent of the substantiated allegations was suspended, it said.
investigator Karen Terry told Catholic News Service that church
officials substantiated allegations against about two-thirds of the
4,392 clergymen accused of sexual abuse during the 52-year time
“She said allegations
against permanent deacons that were substantiated were minimal and
is included in the figures for priests. The survey reported that 41
permanent deacons and 4,351 priests were accused of abusing 10,667
“Terry said the fact
that some of the allegations were not substantiated does not mean
study was commissioned by the U.S. bishops’ National Review Board to
show the nature and scope of the clergy sexual abuse crisis. It
gathered information from 195 of the 2002 dioceses, Easter-rite
eparchies and ecclesial territories tied to the United States. It
also contains data from 60 percent of the religious communities in
the United States representing 80 percent of the religious priests.
“Part of the study
tracked the actions taken by dioceses and religious communities
against priest involved in about 10,000 substantiated allegations.
Because many priests had multiple allegations made against them, the
study recorded the disciplinary actions as a percentage of the
“In almost all of
these cases, church officials substantiated the allegations through
their own investigation, an admission of guilt by the accused or a
criminal conviction, Terry said.
“The most common
action taken was to offer the priests medial help, such as
specialized treatment, evaluation and/or individual psychotherapy,
the study said.
“Almost 37 percent of
the accused received medical assistance, with many then subject to
other actions, said the study.
besides suspension included:
Priests involved in 24 percent of the substantiated
allegations we put on administrative leave.
Religious priests involved in 6 percent of the
substantiated allegations were returned to their order or reported
to their superior…
“The study reported
that75 percent of the abuse incidents took place form 1960 to 1984
but that tow-thirds of the allegations were reported after 1993
(Interesting that I case came on board in 1993- Worcester’s Poster
Boy with Bishop Harrington’s January auto accident)
“Regarding how church
officials received all allegations, the study said that half were
made directly by the victims and 20 percent by lawyers for victims.
Relatives, public officials and anonymous reports accounted for most
of the rest, it said.
“Principal investigator Terry
said that in many cases the long time lapse between the incident and
the allegation made it impossible for church officials to gather the
data necessary to prove or disapprove an allegation (You want to
bet. I have my bishop tell me: “You’re guilty till proven
Another article in this
diocesan paper “Bishop Reilly responds to reports” by stating: “It
is my hope that the publication of this reort will provide some
additional comfort for the victims of child sexual abuse as they
realize the Catholic Church is taking this plight very seriously.”38
Everyone now that Bishop Reilly
had the gift of gab-and play politics-and was doing everything to
preserve the church hierarchical “kabala” system. It is almost
predictable to say what Reilly would say before he would say
anything. Reilly was slick.
Worcester Telegram & Gazette reports this day: Mass. Bishop may
face criminal charges: Springfield indictment sought” by Trudy Tynan
of The Associated Press.
“Springfield-A prosecutor said yesterday he will pursue sex-abuse
charges against retired Springfield Bishop Thomas L. Dupre, who is
accused of plying two altar boys with alcohol and molesting them
while he was a parish priest in the 1970s.
grand jury indicts him, Dupre would become the first bishop charged
in the sex-abuse scandal that erupted in the Roman Catholic Church
tow years ago. There have been at least a dozen grand jury
investigations involving bishops, and four bishops have resigned
after being accuse of sexual misconduct.
believe that there is a serious potential here that for the very
first time in the United States and possibly in the world there
could be a prosecution of a U.s. bishop for crimes relating to the
sexual abuse of children,’ said lawyer Roderick MacLeish Jr., who
represents the accusers.
“Dupre, 70, stepped down Feb 11, citing health reasons. His
retirement came a day after The Republican newspaper of Springfield
confronted Dupre with allegations.
Michael O. Jennings, has not commented on the allegations. He did
not immediately return a call for comment yesterday.
“MacLeish has said
Dupre sexually abused the boys for years and asked them to keep
quiet about the abuse when he was made auxiliary bishop in 1990.
“” ‘I have determined
that there is probable cause to support these allegations,’ Hampden
District Attorney William M. Bennett said. ‘Therefore, I have
decided to present the matter to the grand jury for a full and
complete review of all evidence…”39
What I found most interesting
was in talking with “Father Peacock” telling me: “You don’t want to
go to lunch or talk with Fr. Kilcoyne. Be aware that he is a
gangrenous guy with Worcester contacts.”
What I was thinking in hearing
him say that was that Fr. Kilcoyne most likely would have been
saying the same about “Father Peacock.”
March 6, 2004
I was wondering about my
writing of “the book”: Was I in a frozen state, going thought all I
did in my deposition, facing the allegations and unresolved ministry
by being shelved. This may have been like Alice in Wonderland
looking in the mirror. It worked for me-renewal. It was time that a
previous feeling of being in a hole was otherwise with me at this
A thought came to mind in where
Rueger at one time said when we were meeting with Fr. Lynch and
Bishop Harrington saying that I did not have “anything else in my
file.” So, where were my deposition and the other depositions? Just
In addition, at this time I was
wondering what was happening in the hierarchical structure because
Bishop Dupre’s house in Springfield was raided by the police to get
material out of the pantry. Worcester Diocese had its Chancery
Office flooded. But, Rueger was telling priest that no records were
destroyed in the main vault.
This all is made for TV. You
can’t make this up. This gave me more purpose to continue writing.
Father Andrew Greeley could not even imagine all of this, or has he
already done so.
This period of time has sexual
elections against priest the hot button. Why don’t we hear about
policeman, school teachers or other professions on this same issue?
This is going to get
interesting from the newspaper.
Emilie Astell, of the Telegram
& Gazette Staff wrote: “Priest accused in suit of sexual assault,
She wrote: “Worcester-The Rev.
Peter J. Inzerillo, formerly of St. Leo’s Church in Leominster ,is
named in a civil suit filed in Superior Court charging him with
sexual assault and battery of a teenage boy a decade ago (1994).
“Rev. Inzerillo was one of
eight priests removed by the Diocese of Worcester as a result of an
investigation by the office of Worcester District Attorney John J.
Conte into charges of clergy sexual abuse. Seventeen clerics have
been charged with criminal sexual abuse involving children or teens;
and eight, including Rev. Inzerillo, were removed from their
pastoral duties, according to a report from Mr. Conte’s office.
“Rev. Inzarillo, who remains in
the priesthood, is on administrative leave, according to Raymond L.
Delisle, a spokesman for the diocese. Rev. Inzerillo was removed as
pastor of St. Anthony de Padua Church in Fitchburg in1994 and later
resigned from that post.
“The diocese does not comment
on pending lawsuits, Mr. Delisle said.
“The suit, filed this
week by a plaintiff identified only as ‘John Doe,’ alleges that Rev.
Inzarillo engaged in an inappropriate relationship with him when the
young man was 15 or 16 years old.
various dates between1993 and 1994, Rev. Inzerillo, still the pastor
of the Fitchburg church at the time, allegedly told the youth he
loved him, hugged him, and fondled him. The tow came in contact when
the youth, who lived in Leominster at the time, visited St. Leo’s.
Rev. Inzerillo was a regular visitor to the Leominster parish as
“The suit claims that
John Doe, who now lives in Connecticut, suffered emotional distress,
causing him to incur medical bills, lawyer’s fees and costs. The
suit seeks an unspecified amount in damages.
“The suit also charges
negligence by what it calls the Roman Catholic Archbishop of
Worcester, listing the address of the diocese and the bishop’s
office, 49 Elm St., Worcester. Worcester is to archdiocese.
Joseph Dever, who represents John Doe, did to return calls made to
his office yesterday.”40
Father Inzerillo is a
classmate (ordination) of mine. He was Vocation Director for the
Worcester Diocese which means he was a Chancery Staff-had a desk in
it. He was part of “Boys in the Band.” Peter was something of his
own-go, go, go.
This suit was in
addition for what he was originally removed from the parish. This
was another suit. Did Rueger say to him: “More is going to come on
One has to watch how
Bishop Reilly and the Chancery Gang handle this one.
A last thought for
this day with the movie “Passion of the Christ.” A person sees what
they “want to see” for it. Same with abuse cases with priest.
March 7, 2004
Father Peacock talked with me
some very interesting comments: He said the situation with Fr. Pete
Inzarello is that “They won’t stop till they pick the carcasses
(priest) clean.” Then he talked how I mentioned one time that you
never hear about policeman getting alleged. He continued with: “They
know how to cover each other.” Oh? What does this message from him
at this time signal?
“Priest unafraid to criticize
diocese for abuse sandals” by Adam Gorlick (AP) appeared in the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette. Gorlick wrote: “Longmeadow—from
his pulpit, the Rev. James Scahill seems like an unlikely agitator.
(The old ways was that his body would have been floating in the
“He greet parishioners with a
gentile smile and isn’t afraid to encourage a laugh from his
congregation with and-lib at the end of Mass. His easy way helped
him develop a welcoming image and strong following in the two years
he’s been pastor of St. Michael’s Church.
“But during that time, as more
people have come forward to say they were abuse by Western
Massachusetts priests when they were children, Scahill has emerged
as the most vocal clerical critic of the way officials in the
Springfield Diocese have handled the allegations.
“Unafraid to express his views
that priest should be allowed to marry and that church leaders
shouldn’t be lobbying against same-sex marriages. Scahill took hi
first direct shot at the Springfield Diocese, home to 62,000 Roman
Catholics, when he arrived at St. Michael’s in 2002.
“At the time, Scahill and his
parishioners wanted the diocese to stop giving a $1,000 monthly
check and $8,500 a year in benefits to pedophile priest Richard
Lavigne, who was removed from ministry when he was arrested in 1991.
Lavigne pleaded guilty a year later to molesting two altar boys.
“As a protest, Scahill began
withholding a percentage of weekly collections earmarked for the
bishop’s office… ‘Everyone at St. Michael’s is happy with what he’s
done. He’s willing to make things right.”41
There, always is an interesting
story about someone like Father Scahill -personality type 49.
I wonder if we would
ever get to hear that one.
What has come to mind,
concerning Scahill speaking-out, is a line for Jerry Sheinfeld of
Shenfeld: No to say there isn’t anything wrong with that. Some
people would possibly say that he was following his conscience. But,
one does not hear that too often this day and age.
March 11, 2004
Here’s a sound bite you
wouldn’t have beard in the not-so-distant past: ‘The shocking
scandal of sexual abuse of minors by some clergy and the mishandling
of this dreadful situation by some church leaders have brought shame
and ridicule on the Catholic Church in the United States.’
“Those words were uttered
Tuesday afternoon by the bishop-elect of the Roman Catholic Diocese
of Worcester, Robert J. McManus. Our new bishop is relatively young
at 52, well-educated, and savvy enough to understand the need to
address the scandal so forcefully in his first local press
“(It wasn’t so long ago that
his predecessor, in his first public comments on the clergy abuse
scandal, angrily accused the media of being unfair to the church and
dismissed any inquiries with the memorable line, ‘We’’ let you know
when we feel like letting you know.’)
“Just as our new bishop was
bluntly denouncing the past actions and inactions of his church,
church leaders were gearing up to fight what they apparently
consider a more appalling sex scandal: the prospect that two gay
adults who love each other will be allowed to marry in
Massachusetts. The fact that same-sex unions have little to do with
sex and everything to do with equality is a point lost on Catholic
church leaders, whose aggressive campaign against gay marriage has
stunned even those opposed to it…
“There is every indication that
Bishop Dupre (Springfield Diocese) would have survived the alleged
crimes of his past were it not for his astounding hypocrisy. In
February, on el his alleged victims were reading a newspaper account
about how Bishop Dupre had taken a leading role in denounce in gay
marriage. The alleged victim-who says he was 12 when Bishop Dupre
plied him with alcohol and showed him gay pornography before having
sex with him-became outraged over what he considered the bishop’s
arrogance and decided to hold him accountable…”42
There must have been and still
are a significant number of fellow ordained “brother” that had their
shoes tight after reading or hearing this story.
In addition this day, I had my
appointment with Dr. Zeman. This session was about looking at the
lost of my priesthood. He said that I looked good. I responded how I
lost weight in that I exercise twice a day by morning Nordic Track
for 50 minutes. In addition I walk 3 miles a day for approximately 1
hour. Dr. Zeman went back about “your lost priesthood.” He suggested
that I talk with a Canon Lawyer. Then he asked me how old I was-59.
I sounded defensive with him and others because I was tired of being
asked: “What are you doing with yourself?” He asked me if I was
depressed. I told him that I slept well. He then asked if I was
eating well. Then I mentioned that I want to have my “Letters” to
Clark University. He asked me why I want to do to that particular
location. I told him that it had a department of Psychology that
might someday study such issues. I mentioned that I did not want my
“Letters” to go into a Catholic institution because no one would see
them again-appropriately lost. He made a remake that I should check
with a Canon Lawyer because he knew of a couple of priest that are
working. I responded that I knew for a fact that Worcester
allowed-unofficially- work on part-time. I was concerned of the
monthly stipend and especially my health plan.
Dr. Zeman said to me
that I had every right to be defensive with what I had gone through
the last few years. He then stated to me this question: Are you
really afraid of losing your monthly stipend and priesthood. I
responded” Yes! Definitely!
We then talked about
my writing when I said that I try to end my writing around 7:00 p.m.
because I have to have time to unwind. He responded: “Good! You are
doing the writing and “closing it.” I responded with “More or less.”
(Whatever that means).
We ended the session
by Dr. Zeman’s regular comment of our next appointment is in 3
months? But, call anytime if you need one (appointment).
March 12, 2004
Here comes a good one:
“Worcester Diocese, Rueger added to suit” reported by Gary V. Murray
of the Telegram & Gazette Staff. I always get interested when I read
Murray writes: “The Diocese of
Worcester and Auxiliary Bishop George E. Rueger have been names as
defendants in a civil lawsuit filed in Texas by two men who allege
they were sexually abuse as teenagers by the Rev. Thomas H. Teczar
after the Catholic priest relocated from Worcester to the Fort Worth
area in 1988.
“The plaintiffs, identified in
court documents as John Doe I and John Doe II, added the Worcester
diocese and Bishop Rueger as defendants in the case in December.
Previously named defendants were Rev. Teczar, the Roman Catholic
Diocese of Fort Worth and Bishop P. Delaney. The amended suit, which
is pending in Tarrant County District Court, includes claims for
conspiracy to commit sexual assault, breach of confidential
relationship, and assault by offensive physical contact, intentional
infliction of emotional distress, fraudulent concealment and
“Diocesan officials and Bishop Rueger, who is
being sued individually, denied all of the allegations to the
amended suit that was filed in curt last month.
“Rev, Teczar, who now lives in
Dudley, was ordained in the Worcester diocese in1967 and was placed
on leave by Bishop Timothy J. Harrington in 1986. He remains a part,
but I no longer allowed exercising his priestly functions…43
The rumor-mill had it that
George Rueger was the one that allowed him to find a “benevolent
bishop” with Fort Worth Bishop taking him for an assignment. Nothing
more was every heard about ties in the media or even better the
This same day the National
Catholic Reporter gives us in its “Editorials” back page these
facts: “The Reports (2) of 10,677 victims, 4,392 priests, More than
$572 million and ‘The exercise of authority without accountability
is not servant-leadership it is tyranny.’ (The old shepherd-sheep
system or another model is the imperial governing body.)…It
(forgiveness) requires moral accountability. It requires, as every
Catholic who has prepared for the sacrament of reconciliation knows,
This is the front page of this
particular issue of the National Catholic Reporter and the
complete page back-editorializing.
The American Bishops will never
give what such works as the National Catholic Reporter or
similar groups want. The reason is power and authority.
March 14, 2004
I noticed in my reaction to
certain individuals when I was pressed about what I was doing that I
continued to react defensively. I was consciousness about this and
knew that I had to develop a “poker-style” approach. Usually, it was
on my part to react with a quick answer. At this time, I was
reacting with a stop-and-think approach and not say anything. When I
spoke, it was a general statement as: We’ll see or I’ve been
reflecting about that issue. A good example was when Bishop
Harrington told me that I was known as a “Little Hitler.” I said
nothing but stare at him.
IN my research of “gossip”
information, I was able to find out how the Worcester Diocese was
going to regulate those priests on Administrative Leave- Kardas
keeps going to Dr. Zeman for appointment and being kept under the
psychiatric umbrella. This was where I thought I finally understood
when Dr. Zeman meant when he said: “You’re morning the death of your
priesthood? This was most likely coded language for me to go and get
a job? He even pushed the issue by asking: “What can you do for
work? Basically, I understood it was that I was out of the
priesthood and had lost all-medical and other priest benefits.
There was another standard in
the Worcester Diocese. Fr. Pete Inzarello case of being put on the
“job” for a few weeks and then removed because of a few public
complaints, he was re-established to Administrative Leave. But, this
time, Inzarello was under Bishop Reilly's umbrella and able to be
put in a different monthly pay stipend and benefits. Different
strokes for different folks-I wonder why?
March 19, 2004
The National Catholic
Reporter gives us “Albany bishop faces abuse allegations:
Hubbard denies charges some call questionable: diocese hires
Ed Griffin-Nolan reports: “A
parity of ghost and a former prostitute have made charges of sexual
improprieties against Albany Bishop Howard Hubbard, and in the
current climate of sensitivity to clergy sex abuse, this has been
enough to keep the 65-year-old bishop in the center of the media
attention he’d rather avoid.
“Hubbard has been involved on
all sides of the clergy sex abuse scandals and now finds himself
right in the middle of it. In the wake of a series of allegations
against the bishop, the diocese has hired former federal prosecutors
Mary J. White to investigate and report to the public…”45
What had me interested in this
article was that I had to hear from Bishop Harrington that I was
being “followed by private detectives/investigators.” And the band
March 21, 2004
In my 3 mile walk this day, I
was wondering about the stolen items from my room in the rectory at
St. Edward’s. I gave the list to of these items to Bishop Reilly
over 2 years ago. I never herd anything. I was just thinking how or
why I didn’t hear anything more. Bishop Reilly told me” “We’ll take
care of this. No problem.” Why didn’t anything happen” Most likely
the diocesan insurance would have covered this. But was there other
people (Rueger, Pedone etc.) influencing this issue differentially?
For that matter, by the diocese recognizing this, was there issue of
other matters of what was really going on in this Chancery Gang?
Just wondering? Those stolen items were my personal items that were
conservatory valued at least $3,000.
I was talking with another
priest and somehow-just by chance, right? The topic about an
allegated priest was asked by Attorney Ed Ryan: Was anyone out to
get him? I recall this same question form Fr. Henry Bowen asking me
when we first met to defend me as a Canon Lawyer: “Ted, was there
anyone out to get you?” Another interesting bit of information for
the puzzle is added. But the puzzle was already been re-arraigned.
March 22, 2004
I received this letter from my
civil lawyer: “Dear Father Kardas: In response to your letter dated
February 27, 2004, I have looked through my file for your deposition
transcript. I also looked through my billing records. It appeasers
that we never ordered any/or paid for a copy of your deposition
transcript, therefore, I unfortunately do not have it in my file.
Sincerely, H. Bissell Carey, III.”
When I received this, it seemed
to me that even my civil lawyer had me: Hatched, matched and
dispatched. An expression used in the Church on certain individuals
celebrating Baptism, Marriage and Funeral- not a regular participant
of Sunday Eucharist. Here the expression is used to direct that it
was all over-my case- even before it began. So, money talks
obviously more than the cost of a copy of my deposition.
March 24, 2004
This next article was somewhat
interesting reading because; first it was not the local newspapers
from Worcester, Fitchburg or Boston. But it was on this day by an
Associated Press reporter-John Christoffersen in The Republican
(Springfield) of “Conn. Dioceses report abuse tally: An attorney who
has pending abuse claims against the Hartford archdiocese, called
the use of the phrase ‘substantial allegations’ misleading.”
“Hartford-The Roman Catholic Archdiocese of Hartford has received
‘substantial’ allegations of sexual abuse of children against 24
priests since 1950, church officials said yesterday.
“Church officials, who are
reporting figures for a national survey, said there were a total of
79 victims, with most of the allegations dating to the 1960s or
1970s. The priests represent less than 2 percent of the total number
of priests who served in the archdiocese during that period, church
“ ‘While the actual statistics
over the period covered by the survey are relatively minimal in
scope, even one perpetrator-one victim-is one too many.’ Hartford
Archbishop Henry Mansell said in a statement. ‘Clearly, history
cannot be changed. However, we can make sure that history is not
“Cindy Robinson, an attorney
who has pending abuse claims against the archdiocese, called the
reported percentage of priests accused of abuse ‘meaningless.’
“‘The use of the phrase
‘substantial allegations’ is historically a typical tactic used by
church officials to hide sex abuse scandals,’ Robinson said. ‘That
means there could be dozens of allegations which some church
official felt were unsubstantiated. I personally don’t find that
“The Rev. John Gatzak, a
spokesman for the archdiocese, said the reference to substantial
allegations means claims that were substantiated or had sufficient
credibility to be considered true…”47
This last phrase by Father
Gatzak giving meaning to “substantial” opened my eyes as meaning
“claims that were substantiated or had sufficient credibility to be
considered true.” This had me reflect on who is making such
evaluations or discernment. Let’s not forget that I had the occasion
to have a Bishop Harrington with Rueger, Tinsley and Pedone in the
Worcester Gang. Also, let’s not forget that I had no recourse of any
defense-guilty till proven innocent-Queen’s Justice...
Another point of interest with
Gatzak’s comment is I have not read any media outlet that had given
such a specific point of reference of how cases are handled. People
(clergy) just disappeared around here.
March 26, 2004
One point should be made known:
Read everything you can get on a topic. This was part of my
education in the seminary when I was studying Moral Theology.
I have been receiving
correspondence from “Voice of the Faithful-Rebuilding trust begins
today” which must have obtained my names form the National
Catholic Reporter which I subscribe too.
This day I received this
letter: “Dear Thaddeus J. Kardas, The future of the Church ins in
our hands. Please read the enclosed Petitions for Reform and, if you
agree with us, sing and return them today.
“Voice of the Faithful is an
organization of mainstream Catholics. Like you, we have each been
forced to face a wrenching truth about an underlying culture in our
Church…one that allowed more than 10,670 cases of sexual abuse by
over 4,300 implicated priests-and an as-yet undetermined number of
bishops who kept it secret throughout our lifetimes.
“Members and supporters of
Voice of the Faithful have examined their consciences and decided it
is time, as faithful Catholics, to take some action. That is
why many view us as the response of the Church to victims and
survivors in pursuit of healing and justice. It is why we have taken
an active role in supporting our priest in their ministry, and in
developing models for communication and collaboration. It is why we
are working on a set of principle for financial responsibility and
disclosure that can be adopted at the diocesan and parish levels.
And it why we are calling upon bishops to provide laypersons with a
meaningful voice in the governance and guidance of the Church…”48
Reading this and realizing that
this was why Bishop Reilly began a Diocesan Pastoral Council. He did
so, most likely, to checkmate this group in the diocese.
I never sent anything back to
this group. It is interesting reading especially on my part where I
seem not to have any voice or identity whatsoever-being a
March 27, 2004
(Springfield) has this for front page story: “Vatican to decide
Dupre’s fate.” Bill Zajac of the papers staff writes:
“Springfield-The Roman Catholic Dicoese of Springfield will lead the
investigation into the allegations that former Bishop Thomas L.
Dupre sexually abused two minors, but the Vatican will decide any
possible actins against him.
“A day after apologizing to the
alleged victims for confusion surrounding a potential investigation,
the Springfield diocese announced yesterday the process for the
“Officals from both the Springfield diocese and
the Archdiocese of Boston said yesterday the confusion was related
to the unique task before them. Dupre is the first bishop in New
England accused of sexual abuse of minors and could be the first in
the United States criminally prosecuted if the district attorney
“It following the 2002 U>S.
bishops policy on clergy sexual abuse, all allegations other than
those against a bishop are investigated by logical diocesan review
“This is an odd situation. I
don’t think anyone anticipated this situation arising when the
policy was established.’ said the Rev. Christopher J. Coyne,
spokesman for the Archdiocese of Boston.
“It is unclear what action would be taken
against Dupre if the accusations are deemed credible…”49
Reading this, I recall that
Bishop Rueger was “proclaimed innocent by the Vatican.” This was
when Rueger received the “Good Housekeeping Seal of Approval.” Why
did the Catholic Free Press report this to the local population when
there should have been a Diocesan Review Board? Yet, we were told
that the Vatican found Rueger pure.
This same day I received an
e-mail for Mrs. Joanne Curtin. She wrote: “Subject: Hip Hip Hurrah.
Do you know how long I have waited and prayer to hear you come to
the conclusion that though victimized you are not a Victim. You Have
Choices. The Light has overcome the Darkness and it will not be put
out. You nave been in the dessert but it us time to take the Light
form under the bushel basket and let it shine. It may not be easy,
but I sincerely hope this is your Last Lent in the cave. Friday is
here but Sunday is coming. Peace and Justice needs to be done and
you need to continue your Mission to Resonate Christum. They owe
you a Ministry, long and faithful servant. Take care JMC”
Mrs. Curtin has walked with me
since I arrived at the parish in Westminster. She is a registered
nurse and has an interesting background in the Church where her
husband and herself came for PA and even marched with the Berrigan
Brothers against the Vietnam War. She is attending retreats and a
reader of Catholic literature besides other health and spiritual
issues. She has some very interesting insights at times.
March 28, 2004
I would have loved to do a
study of a Catholic pastor in1974 and a pastor in 2004. A classic
example would be someone as “Father Peacock” model now and then. He
keeps the issue of “retirement” practically each time I speak with
him. What might have been the difference between then and now with
pastors and “power and authority”? How many then-1974- used the
“retirement” escape hatch to this present generation of pastors’
looking for today’s escape hatches.
March 29, 2004
Father Richard P. McBride
writes in his weekly column of Essays in Theology “Is the Sexual
abuse Scandal ‘History’?”
He writes: “At a news
conference in connection with release of the report of the National
Review board-the body that had been appointed by the U.S. Catholic
bishops to examine the sexual-abuse scandal-Bishop Wilton Gregory,
president of the Bishops’ Conference, used the ‘history’ in an
apparent attempt to assure the general public that the sexual-abuse
crisis is now behind us.
“ ‘The terrible history
recorded here today is history,’ Bishop Gregory insisted (The New
York Times reported that the bishop had ‘punched at his word.’)
“The sins committed by the
predatory priests (there was no reference to Episcopal malfeasance
in Bishop Gregory’s remarks) were relegated entirely to the past. It
was as if those sins had been laid out before some mythical
confessor and been duly absolved.
“The ‘penance’ imposed on the
predatory priests had also been executed. ‘I assure you,’ Bishop
Gregory pointed out, ‘that known offenders are not in ministry.’
“In accordance with the
‘zero-tolerance,’ or one-strike-and-you’re out, policy adopted by
the bishops in Dallas almost tow years ago, a priest was to be
removed immediately from the priesthood if at least one
substantiated allegation had been raised against him.
(We lease aside here persistent
reports from various dioceses that a number of priests who have been
accused of sexual abuse remain in active ministry, or at least on
the diocesan payroll.)
“Significantly, Bishop Gregory
made no mention of the ‘penance’ that the bishops themselves might
be required to perform, particularly those who had conversed up the
crimes of sexual abuse transferred to the perpetrator from place to
place, thereby exposing other children and young people to future
abuse, intimidated the victims and their families by threatening
counter-suits or arriving at confidential settlements that imposed
permanent silence on the parties, stonewalled or lied in the
discovery phase of litigation, or blamed everything on
‘anti-Catholic’ media or on reform minded Catholics for ‘using’ the
crisis to push their own ‘agenda.’ (How about one being asked any
question whatsoever about ‘certain agendas’?)
“Contrary to the sometimes
pugnacious assurances of certain lay and clerical defender of the
status quo, the National Review Board’s report indicates that the
incidence of sexual abuse by priests may not, in fact, be below the
In addition, this day I
received a letter address to me at the Giza’s home of 2065 Calkins
Street, Palmer, MA with an enclosed FAX to: Pastors and
Administrators From: Jerome D. Jussaume (Diocesan Finance Manager)
about a meeting-April 6th-Ascension Parish Hall,
Worcester on diocesan group health insurance plan.52
I guess that I was on someone’s
list (old) in the Diocesan Finance Office to get such a mailing.
This day is February 29, 2004 and I was removed in 1993
and have been at the Palmer address since July of that same year. Oh
Well! Listings are one thing but who made it a point to mail me a
FAX letter? Somebody with a pointed-hat is in the chancery playing
I received a copy o f the
newsletter from WEORC: The feature article states: “In these
recent days, the urge for honest dialogue has become something of a
passion for Church fold. All over the country, Catholics are
weighing in about what ails this Church we so deeply love. The WEORC
coordinating Committee wants to encourage this dialogue. So we have
provided the following food for thought entitled ‘Fault Lines.’
We’ve already asked stoneworkers to preview this article and their
reactions are included on the following pages. Pease feel free to
hoi the dialogue and respond with your own thoughts by using the
comment space provided or email us at WEOR etc.
“Fault Lines: The
pedophilia scandal hit the Church like an earthquake. Initially, the
causalities and devastated structures were obvious. Among the
wounded were victims of abuse and their families, abusers and the
bishops who enabled them, the reparation of the priesthood, and the
erosion of trust throughout the entire Catholic community. As with
any group rocked by such a calamity, there was a desire to deal with
the damage promptly and return to normalcy as soon as possible. Thus
the bishops launched their Dallas strategy of zero tolerance, hoping
that ore effective procedures would help heal the wounded, prevent
further abuse, and restore Mass attendance, contributions and thrust
among the faithful.
“However, with earthquakes only
the passage of time, further aftershocks, and careful scrutiny
reveal the true extent of the destruction. Tectonic plates have
shifted deep beneath the earth’s surface, cracking foundations,
weakening hey structural supports, and endangering human lives.
People of all ages experience ongoing trauma, persistent nightmares
and other psychic scars. Engineers, building inspectors and safety
experts bring their unwelcoming but necessary damage reports to
governmental officials, politicians and property owners. Likewise,
attorneys, parents, survivor networks and investigative reporters
have alerted bishops and their superiors in Rome to the need for
more extensive repairs in the damaged fabric of the Church.
“What are the initial singe of
more subtle fracture in the foundations of the Church? Priests are
speaking out about their concerns and grievances. In Boston,
Milwaukee, New York, Chicago, Rockville Center and elsewhere they
are voicing frustrations about removal of culpable bishops, growing
shortage of priests, violations of due process, scapegoat of clergy,
acrimonious official bull-sessions are now shouted from the
The area of “frustrations” I
believe I have been referring too in my writings. What I know from
reading history is nothing will “really” change in a dialogue
nature. The present structure of the Catholic hierarchy and clergy
will be like wax on a candle that has just been blown out-the wax
become hard. And the band plays-on. Business as usual goes on with
the official Church.
April 1, 2004
“Father Peacock” called me to
say that Fr. Gerry Branconia called him that he wrote to Bishop
Rueger to ask for $50 help (rent). Branconia was in the same
financial bracket as me as far as I was able to find out. Rueger
supposedly wrote back to him telling him in a long letter that he
was not going to get additional financial help.
I never heard about this again.
But, it seems with an established pattern with the Worcester
Chancery Gang. But, they would tell others that each priest is
April 2, 2004
I was watching Imus in the
Morning regular morning program. This day Don Imus had Mike Barnacle
as a guest by phone of Barnacle’s new job writing for the Boston
Herald and the N.Y. Post. Barnacle goes on a tirade about the
Catholic Church and the American Bishops with the pedophile priest
issue. Barnacle sad he “goes to Church and receives communion but
not every week" because how the bishops handled this crisis (sex
My question was what was going
on with Barnacle. He had the stage of the program but acting a part
that was very peculiar and totally out of character for Barnacle. I
noticed that even Imus was uncomfortable with Barnacle on this but
was squiring in his seat trying to conduct this interview.
The Worcester Telegram &
Gazette gives us the first page of local news section: “Former
Notre Dame principal cleared” by Kathleen A. Shaw. What is
interesting in this article by Shaw is how she writes about the
preclinical but adds “In another development.”
She writes: “Fitchburg-A former
principal of Notre Dame High School has been acquitted of charges
that the he assaulted a student in 1968.
“Brother Louis Laperle, 76, of
Pascoag, R.I. was cleared last week in Fitchburg District Court of
charges that he assaulted a student between Jan. 1 and June 30,
1968, when he was principal, He was is now retired.
“Brother Laperle was charged
with three misdemeanors charges of assault and battery and was found
not guilty on all charges, according to Elizabeth Stammo,
spokeswoman for Mr. Conte…In another development, the Rev. Jean-Paul
Gagnon has been charged with indecent assault and battery on a
person over age 14 at a time when he was pastor of St. Augustine
parish in Millville.
“According to a statement from
the office of District Attorney John J. Conte, the offense occurred
in Sutton on Oct. 11, 2002. The accuser, who has not been named
publicly, was described as a man who was active in the Millville
“The criminal charge was issued
through Uxbridge District Court. Rev. Gagnon is scheduled to be
arraigned there on May 17.
“Mr. Conte said the allegation
against Rev. Gagnon was investigated by the state police detective
unit assigned to his office.
“Rev. Gagnon took personal
leave in October 2002 after Timothy P Staney of Worcester, and his
parents, Corrine and Joseph Stanley of Spencer, filed a civil suit
“The suit alleges that Rev.
Gagnon sexually abused Timothy Stanley while he was serving at Holy
Name of Jesus parish in Worcester. Rev. Gagnon has denied all
This is a buddy of “Father
Peacock” where I was hearing a different version of the story being
that the family and alleged victims has issues with the Church and
Father Gagnon. (One might have to notice that the secular press
calls clergy “Rev.” while the Catholic Free Press writes “Father.”)
April 3, 2004
I had to hear from “Father
Peacock” some facts of “in my face? About what I was receiving
compared to his as Pastor. He was using his annual income issue by
telling me numbers. He sad his annual income started at $24,000 and
adding housing of $4,800 (Total approximately $48,000 with stipends,
other benefits as study week, retreat and gifts).
What he started to do to me was
tell me that I was under the “old” system of ten years ago being put
on “Administrative Leave” by Bishop Harrington. I only listened and
had to realize that I was getting 1/5 of what this guy was making.
But, the Chancery would tell people that they are taking care of
their priest on “Administrative Leave.”
April 6, 2004
I was thinking on sending
Bishop Rueger an Easter card which I did not send with the message:
Bishop George, No one else has come out on me. Hope no one else
comes out on you. Happy Easter. Ted Kardas
April 9, 2004
National Catholic Reporter
reports a story that is very peculiar for them to print in the light
of what their mantra has been on the clergy abuse crisis.
“Alleged victim recants abuse
claim, pastor reinstated” by Catholic News Service-Joliet, Ill. It
states: “Fr. Thomas White was exonerated of abuse charges and
reinstated as pastor of St. Daniel the Prophet Parish in Wheaton,
Ill., after James Tibor of Naperville recanted charges of secular
abuse he made against the priest, the Joliet diocese has announced.
“Tibor, 34, had named the
priest and the diocese in an October 2003 lawsuit alleging sexual
abuse of a minor in 1997 and 1980. White had been on administrative
leave since Oct. 22.
“Tibor, in a written statement,
admitted that he was never alone with the priest and ‘that Fr. White
never had any physical, sexual or other contact with him at any
time.’ Last October, Tibor had said reports of priests abusing
children had brought suppressed memories to the surface.
“‘Upon further reflection, he
has come to doubt whether the events in the lawsuit ever occurred,’
his attorney said March22.
“White, 70, who always
maintained his innocence, was elated at his complete exoneration,
said diocesan spokesman John Cullen.
“ ‘I don’t know what caused [Tibor]
to bring the charge, but I hope that this encourages people to grant
priests the same presumption of innocence that other people in our
society are given,’ Cullen quoted White as saying.
“Joliet Bishop Joseph L. Imesch
said, ‘The accusation caused a great deal of pain and suffering for
Fr. White and great consternation and turmoil in his parish. I am
committed to help victims of abuse but deplore those who make false
“In a letter to St. Daniel
parishioners, the bishop told them, ‘Your faith and belief in [Fr.
White] has been a great source of strength for him.’
“He added, ‘Fr. Whitle’s Lent
lasted more than five months and now his Easter has already begun.’
I have a question: What
happened to the alleged victims with his “suppressed memory”?
This Good Friday day, I heard a
review about the movie The Passion of the Christ with Mel
Brooks directing. It mentions nothing about the Resurrection. The
movie is suffering of physical nature but not very much of his
psychological and spiritual suffering. It is totally lacking of
So, here I was in “my cave”
having heard nothing for the Chrism Mass. Nothing in the mail of a
message from the bishop... I felt abandoned, labeled and rejected as
April 12, 2004
Another article by Father
Richard McBrien writes in his Essays in Theology this day:
“Celibacy: Cause or Factor?”
He states: “It has become
commonplace nowadays to insist that obligatory celibacy is not the
cause of sexual-abuse crisis n the priesthood. The recent report by
an independent, but Episcopal-appointed National Review Board, makes
that point very definite.
“One wonders if perhaps its lay
membership felt the need to give something back to a hierarchical
establishment that would likely be uncomfortable with most of its
“I may be that there are some
uninformed, simplistically-minded people out there who have claimed
that celibacy is the cause of this terrible scandal and crisis, but
I am not aware of a single serious commentator who has made such a
“The defenders of celibacy are
surely right when they ask, ‘If celibacy were the cause of she
crisis, why haven’t the overwhelming majority of celibate priests
been sexually involved with children and young people?’
“But those same defenders move
onto softer ground when they cite the statistics that ‘only’ four
percent of celibate priests have been guilty of these crimes and
sins of sexual abuse. From there they move almost effortlessly to
the conclusion that 96 percent are faithful to their commitment to
“But this is a fallacy. Sexual
involvement with children and young people is not the only way that
celibacy can be violated. The fact that at least four percent of
priests have abused children and teenagers does not necessarily mean
that the remaining 96 percent are delicate in the full sense of the
“Suc as assumption is at least
questioned, if not contradicted, by the testimony and experience of
spiritual directors, psychologists, vicars for clergy, and most
importantly, of priests themselves. They know that celibacy does not
work in the way that church officials and many, if not most, laity
assume it works…”56
Nothing is going to change on
this celibacy issue. I said before that this is not the issue with
priesthood in the last 30 years that I had seen. In American, it is
an issue that church officials or mothers’ of priest would never
different orientation of a significant
proportion of ordained clergy in this type of individual. I was not
in this camp of ordained priest.
April 14, 2004
The Boston Globe on its web
page printed this story by Adam Gorlick: “Bishop in Mass. Puts Abuse
Suits on Hold.”
He writes: “Springfield,
Mass.-The new head of the Springfield Diocese said Wednesday clergy
sex abuse lawsuits and complains will be put on hold for six weeks
while church attorneys try to reach a settlement with lawyers for
“Bishop Timothy McDonnell said
the diocese has agreed to a 45-day moratorium to foster negotiations
with more than 40 people who say they were childhood victims of
“During the moratorium,
litigation on both sides will halt.
“ ‘I have hope that we can
reach a fair and agreeable solution that begins the healing,
McConnell told The Associated Press. ‘It won’t end the healing by
any means, but it will begin the healing….’”57
Interesting move by the
Springfield Diocese. The Worcester Diocese operated with “the priest
April 20, 2004
I was thinking how I seriously
writing the text of my book-manuscript- on December 31, 2003. I has
been a more difficult venture than I thought it would be. I felt at
times drained and not able to write. Other times, I would find other
things to do to avoid doing “the book.” Then I reverted back to the
model of the turtle moving along and at times needing to withdraw
into the shell for R&R.
April 21, 2004
I reviewed my journey again as
an annual overview of what I should have done:
I should have hired a lawyer after Bishop Rueger made the
slander statement at the Confirmation Mass at St. Edward about me in
the spring of 1993 when he said: “You (candidates) do not have to
listen to Fr. Kardas.” This issue was that he undercut my position
as pastor of the parish. Anything I did from that point was negated
by his public remark. There was a full church at the time of this
statement for witnesses-defamation of character and credibility
issues. Rueger should have, as one pastor told me, complemented me
for having a model parish with the R.C.I.A.-Mystagogy.
“You’re guilty till proven innocent.” (Bishop Harrington in
Documentation-Medical and public statement that I was no a
Being isolated with comment of “we will get hold off you.’
1/5 salary based and not benefits.
Vindication-present to get it out for myself-dangerous
Humiliating and depersonalizing-imposition
The Church Hierarchy as a “kabala” with hatchet men like
Rueger’s Code Name in diocese: Carol Channing (Yu have to
listen to him talk and watch his walk).
I found on the Internet under
Father Greeley’s web page his article that appeared in America
magazine: “Ratzinger (Pope Benedict XVI) and New York Times Agree on
Sex Abuse by Priests.”
Greeley wrote: “The New York
Times labored rightly to bring forth a mountain of priest abusers in
its recent census and produced only a mouse as it admitted in the 12
paragraph of it sensationalist prose. The Times reported a percent
of American priests abusers not greatly different from that Cardinal
Ratzinger obtained in the rarified airs were voices speak to German
theologians-1% for the Cardinal and 1.8% for the Times. Yet the
Times used this very low proportion to launch yet another attack on
the Catholic Church and celibate priesthood.
“I have for the record, been
warning Church leadership since 1985 that was ‘sitting on an atom
bomb’ created by the reassignment of abusing priests. One victim of
a priest is one too many. One reassigned abuser is one too many. The
number of abusing priests (1205) and victims (4268) is horrific.
However if the Ratzinger/NYT estimates are anything near the
reality, 98% of American priests are not abusers, a point the Times
neglects to make and which ought to have been the lead in an
unbiased news report. I suspect that the Ratzinger/Times estimates
are too low, but doubles the number to 4$-which suspect is closer to
the truth-and one still finds that 96% of priests are not abusers.
The horror is doubled but the picture is not nearly as bleak as the
Times and other media have hinted through the last year.
“The Times writer, however,
proved remarkably ingenious in keeping the feeding frenzy alive.
There is evidence in the data, she suggest, to support both those
who blame the abuse problem on celibacy and those who blame it on
the breakdown of sexual morality during the sixties.
“This is simply to so. The
numbers prove nothing at all. Most experts in sexual abuse of minors
and children attribute it to a deep and incurable syndrome acquired
early in life. Marriage won’t cure it. An abuser who marries is a
married abuser. Moreover it is contemptuous of women to suggest that
a man can cure his attraction to minors simply by sleeping with a
woman. The fact that most of the abusers were ordained in the
sixties can just as well be attributed to the fact that there were
large ordination classes in those years.
“Nonetheless, the Times writer
ignores the clinical evidence about the personalities of abusers and
use the debate between the two sides to create havoc, and let those
against the furies of the taking heads who have pontificated about
priests for the last twelve months. She thus deftly shifts the frame
of her article form abuser to all priests…”58
It is amazing how Greeley and
McBrien of the last few weeks have the issue of avoidance. This area
is what the writer of the Times article getting at, Father Greeley
and Father McBrien.
April 22, 2004
I had a very interesting
“conversation” with Father Gamache. It started with him saying: “You
will die soon. We will go to your funeral watching the black hearse
saying “There goes Teddy.” I sad to Gamache “They are going to get
you first and the headlines will read “we got him.’ He said he knew
that in Winchendon the papers will say: “Father dropped a Mass. No
ramp for the handicapped. Then Gamache said if he was allegation,
he would fight it because he had the money to do so.
I wondered where all that came
from on his part. I said: I wouldn’t wish him to be in my shoes.
Then, our conversation turned into a differently where he said to
me: “I realize that.”
April 23, 2004
The National Catholic
Reporter gives us this day “Bishops seduce and abandon review
board.” Eugene Kennedy for the Religious News Service gives this
He writes: Don’t have as much
attention to what we say, Richard Nixon said famously in introducing
his cabinet to the country 35 years ago but say attention to what we
“The bishop’s administrative
board recently voted to defer until November any authorization of
the continued work on the clergy sex abuse scandal by the National
Review Board for the Protection of Children and Young People that
they themselves appointed in 2002.
“What they are saying,
according to their president, Wilton Gregory, is that they discussed
‘how to build on what has already been done’ and ‘strongly
reaffirmed’ the conference’s commitment to the character they
adopted in Dallas tow years ago.
“What they are doing, however,
is smothering, with a pillow they think as silent as their choir
cassocks, the word of the review board buy short-circuiting the next
round of the independent audit of the 195 dioceses those if they are
in compliance with their own mandate.
“What they are doing is
aborting the further study of the causes of the sex abuse scandal
proposed by the National Review Board in its Web. 27 report…”59
April 24, 2004
I received a brochure from
“Call to Action-New England’s 10th annual Spring
Conference” on Saturday, April 24, 2004. The theme: Justice and
Action in the Church and in the World with Plenary Speaker- Thomas
P. Doyle, O.P., J.C.D. speaking on “‘Catholic’ Justice: Yesterday,
Today and Tomorrow. This was taking place in Marlborough, MA. 60
This is the Father Doyle that
spoke so strongly about the danger of the priest sex abuse scandal
while working in the Vatican Embassy in Washington, D.C. in 1984.
The evening news carried the
story of Bishop Gregory (President of U.S. Bishops’ Conference)
saying at the Rectory’s Dinner at North America College: “Everyone
is great and getting better in the American Catholic Church.” Oh?
April 25, 2004
It was a day where Mrs. Gail
Robinson, who has worked for me at the rectory and “walked” with me
since 1993 came out with: “The February article about you in the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette about you was devastating.”
Again, where did that come from
since there was nothing to reflect to have such a conversation?
April 29, 2004
“Alleged victim draws fire” by
Kathleen A. Shaw appeared in the Worcester Telegram & Gazette.
Shaw writes: “Worcester-Timothy
P. Staney, who is suing the Roman Catholic Diocese of Worcester and
the Rev. Jean-Paul Gagnon, alleging he was sexually abused by the
priest, was sanctioned yesterday by Judge Jeffrey A. Locke for
posting a psychotically report form the former House of Affirmation
on his Web sit.
“Joanne L. Goulka of Stoneham,
lawyer for the diocese, told Judge Locke that the report, which
involved Rev. Gagnon and the former House of Affirmation in
Whitinsville, was to be kept private by agreement with the court.
“The judge denied her request
that Mr. Staney be required to provide the names and addresses of
anyone who had visited his Web site and information regarding other
Web sites where the report might have been linked.
“Mr. Staney has been ordered to
pay a monetary penalty to be determined by the court. Ms. Goulka was
asked by the judge to submit an appropriate figure. Mr. Staney,
formerly of Worcester, has since moved to Florida and was not in
court yesterday. His Web site, which contained personal information
about himself and his suit, has since been dismantled and is no
longer in operation.
“Mr. Goulka told the judge she
feared that potential jurors would have read the report and it would
result in prejudicial prevail publicity.
“The judge called posting thee
report by a party to the suit ‘a cheap shot on his part.’ He ordered
Mr. Staney to ‘cease and desist.’
“Lawyer Daniel J. Shea of
Houston, who represents Mr. Staney, said he had not prior knowledge
that Mr. Staney intended to post the material. He said some material
form that report first appeared in a news story in June 2003 in the
Woonsocket Call, in Rhode Island. A reporter for that newspaper
alerted Mr. Stony that the report was found in the public case file
at Worcester Superior court, Mr. Shea said…”61
Another story at this time
worth watching is Attorney Shea of Houston working in Bishop
Reilly’s Diocese of Worcester- the agenda here is time.
April 30, 2004
“Former priest sues archbishop
over abuse allegations” by Religious News Service of New Orleans
appears in this day’s National Catholic Reporter.
The story states: “A former New
Orleans Catholic priest took the rare step April 19 of suing the
archbishop, saying Archbishop Alfred Hughes humiliated him when the
church announced that the many may have sexually molested a child
while serving as a priest at a Metariie, La., and parish some 30
“Denying the abuse ever
occurred, Bernard Schmaltz sued Hughes for defamation and invasion
“Schmaltz also said Hughes
broadcast the allegation against Schmaltz to ‘deflect attention’
from his own ‘deplorable’ conduct as an auxiliary bishop in the
early 1990s in Boston, the epicenter of the Catholic sexual abuse
crisis in the Untied States.
“Bishops who for years quietly
transferred molester-priest to new parishes now ‘are knowingly
throwing innocent priests to the wolves to cover up their actions,’
Schmaltz said in a statement.
“The New Orleans archdiocese
says it handled the complaint against Schmaltz responsibly,
balancing the interests of Schmaltz, his accuser and the church.
“The archdiocese’s spokesman,
Fr. William Maestri, also rejected the contention that Hughes turned
the complaint against Schmaltz into an ‘overreaction’ for
“The lawsuit, filed in New
Orleans Parish Civil District Court, stems form the events of Jan
23, when the archdiocese convened an unusual Saturday night news
conference to announce that a priest, Fr Michael Fraser, and a
former priest, Schmaltz had been named in new sexual abuse
This brings to mind what Bishop
Rueger did to me in April of 1993 at my parish telling the
Confirmation candidates at Mass that they “didn’t have to listen to
Fr. Kardas.” How many areas of a law suit be developed from that
remark and situation especially knowing more of the story about
May 1, 2004
I was doing research on my
story by any source that was available either by reading articles in
present printed stories and library research, developed the skill of
finding article on the internet on sources that were available,
doing interviews and listening to media reports.
What I found interesting was
that “Father Peacock” would not share any religious article or
professional magazines with me. He would mention something in a
source that I knew he received but never would share it with me. So,
I would go to the library or go on the internet-a few weeks later-to
find the work.
I, even, re-read the 3
depositions that I received from Attorney Carey in Boston in
February. I wondered and read McCormick’s, Joslyn and Reidy and
wondered. These people were giving a story that had nothing to do
with abuse. My question was: What was really going on? McCormick was
fabricating issues that never did take place. One, especially, being
the age of 12 that I abused her? First, I never abused her or
anyone. Second, as I mentioned previously, that McCormick was 12 and
I was living in Michigan, going to school.
I never had this information
until I asked for them. Never mind that Weber deposition was never
seen. I don’t believe my civil attorney never had a copy-never
ordered one-to question or update me on her deposition.
The Sentinel & Enterprise
had a frond page story and picture of Father Donald Ouellette
“Fitchburg pastor sentenced: Priest get five years-Lawyer: Pastor
gave $252K to former teen parishioners.”
The story reads: “Worcester-A
judge sentenced a Fitchburg pastor to five hers in jail Wednesday
after saying he did not believe the priest’s explanation for
stealing more than $250,000 from the Immaculate Conception Church.
“The Rev. Donald Ouellette, 49,
did not speak at his sentencing hearing, but he wrote in an
eight-sentence letter (May 5, 2004: While serving as Pastor of
Immaculate Conception Parish in Fitchburg, I wrote checks to myself.
These checks were all from Immaculate Conception Parish accounts.
The toll sum was $252,000.00. All the checks were payable to me and
were cashed by me. I gave this money to Daniel St. Francis of
Whitinsville as directed by him. I apologize to the parishioners of
Immaculate Conception Parish whose trust in me I have destroyed. I
apologize to the Bishop, diocesan community, the public at large and
to all others whose lives have been affected. I have take out a life
insurance policy for two hundred fifty thousand dollars
[$250,000.00] to repay the monies. Sincerely, Rev. Donald C.
Ouellette). It was ‘directed’ to give the stolen money to a
“‘He had given all of this
money to a man named Daniel St. Francis,’ said Michael McEvilly of
Leominster, the Catholic priest’s lawyer, who apologized to
Immaculate Conception parishioners on behalf of his client.
“McEvilly told Superior Court Judge Peter Agnes
that St. Francis repeatedly fabricated reasons to get more money
from the priest, convincing Ouellette at one point that he was in
the custody of the U.S. Marshals service as part of the witness
“Agnes said the priest’s
accounts was incomplete and ‘doesn’t have the ring of truth.’
“ I have yet to be provided
with a reason or explanation for the conduct, one that makes any
sense to the court,’ he said.
“Agnes ordered Ouellette to
serve three consecutive two-and-a-half year sentences in the House
of Correction, but suspended the last sentence for 10 years of
“McEvilly said after the
hearing that Ouellette may not have to serve all five years because
he will be eligible for parole after half the sentence.
“He said St. Francis met
Ouellette when he was a teenage parishioner at St. Patrick’s Church
“ ‘He was a parishioner,’
McEvilly told the Sentinel & Enterprise. ‘He knew him when he was
there. He said (St. Francis) called him in dire straits.’
“Ouellette, a former religious
brother and teacher became a diocesan priest in 1990 and was an
assigned to St. Patrick’s in the early 1990s…” (A picture of “The
Rev. Rocco Piccolomini and Monsignor Thomas Sullivan were included-
a status pose.)63
Boy! Was this a clear case of
“blackmail” on St. Francis against Father Ouellette?
May 6, 2004
I have become a fan of watching
“Survivor” on CBS. This particular series was in Panama. I wondered
when the group voted who out at the end of each program. It had me
thinking how the Worcester Chancery Gang voted on me being a pastor.
I was gone. This was how I was handled by Worcester: Ted, the Team
voted you off. Oh? But, my sequence would be a follow-up show: Diary
of a Poster Boy Priest-The Duck Bumped the Goose. This was mainly to
that I was a “recovered alcoholic.” Where the Bishop was an “active
alcoholic” and allowed to drive.
The main, other issue was the
difficulty of living in a “gay culture and atmosphere of the
Catholic priesthood.” No one in the regular parish wanted to think
such an issue existed. Yet, living in such an atmosphere is being
the odd-person-in and something wrong with me being “different.” It
was something that I used to hear when I began college and the
seminarians (major seminary) were called “fruits.”
Something I didn’t realize when
first ordained: How certain women would be attached to a “gay
priest” to a point of overdoing their admiration. The observation
didn’t have me realize at first, but these women knew they were
“safe” with such a priest. It was a learning experience in me
maintaining my celibacy and vocation. I did not have any such issue
because mainly I was so involved in my ministry that I was working
the assigned programs. I do mention this, not because of any
jealousy, but a very peculiar observation at first on my part. There
were a number of older priest leaving and getting married when I was
first ordained. Other priest just disappeared from their assignments
and no one, it seemed, asked any questions-some only talked
baseball. There was some form of a “secret code” in conversations
but being newly ordained in the early 70s had me very naïve on these
matters. It took me a while to learn otherwise.
Whenever the issue of
homosexuality in the priesthood was mentioned was a delicate topic
when speaking to Stan Giza in 1993. At that time, I was trying to
find-out what the allegations and situation in the Diocese was
stirring of the other "real" story... There was the factor of my
bishop “covering-up” his issues and myself being labeled by Fr. Tom
Lynch as: Worcester’s Poster Boy.
I did not realize when I first
entered college-seminary where we were called by the Preparatory
(high school) called us “fruits.” What I
realized was that I was “wired” differently than a lot of
classmates. It continued upon ordination in the Worcester Diocese.
Then working in my ministry as a parish priest had me not adaptive
to the “political picture” and noticing that there was the area of
“unmentionable topics” that were never mentioned at the rectory
table or general priest meetings. I thought that it would be a cake
walk after the seminary experience. I was wrong. While I was in my
last couple years in the seminary before ordination, I was more at
my assigned parish doing “pastoral ministry” than sitting in the Sem.
Building. However, I noticed after ordination and being assigned to
my first parish, it was a “game” that I kept separated by hitting
the streets-being with parishioners-which came back to “bite” me.
What was interesting watching how being a newly ordained priest had
a social status with it. There was this cultural higher station
enjoyed by being a priest. I believed that I was ordained to do a
certain ministry by my vocation as other baptized people in the
Church had by their calling.
May 7, 2004
The Worcester Telegram &
Gazette gives us this day “2 Boston area priests defrocked:
Shanley (73), Paquin (61) removed after clergy sexual abuse
Theo Emery of The Associated
Press reports: “Boston-Paul Shanley, a key figure in the clergy
sexual abuse scandal in the Boston Archdiocese, has been defrocked,
along with another Boston-area priest imprisoned for raping a
12-year-old boy, the church announced yesterday.
“In a May 3 letter obtained by
The Associated Press, Archbishop Sean O’Malley told Shanle he was
being removed from his duties as a priest, and that Pope John Paul
II made the decision on Feb. 19.
“The letter informed Shanley
that he will no longer be eligible for financial support or benefits
form the archdiocese and that his stipend and medical benefits will
be eliminated at the end of the month.
“The archdiocese released a
statement yesterday afternoon confirming Shanley’s dismissal, and
announced that Ronald H. Paquin-who is in prison for raping a
12-year-old altar boy while he was a priest in Haverhill-was also
removed from the priesthood, effective yesterday.
“Paquin, 61, pleaded guilty in
2002 to three counts of rape and abuse of a child under 16 and was
sentenced to 12 to 15 years in prison. He was also named in 24 civil
lawsuits alleging he sexual abused other children…”64
May 8, 2004
This day we get from the local
Worcester Telegram & Gazette “Donation spurs ethics complain:
Conte’s gift to church questioned.”
Kathleen A. Shaw writes:
“Worcester-Mary T. Jean of the Worcester Voice said she has filed a
complaint with the State Ethics Commission against District attorney
John J. Conte after he gave a $500 contribution from campaign funds
to the Bishop’s Fund of the Diocese of Worcester.
“Mrs. Jean, a Leominster
resident who advocates for victims of clergy sexual abuse in the
Worcester Diocese and operates a Web site at
www.worcester-voice.com based her complaint on two issues. She
said Mr. Conte has failed to properly investigate the Diocese of
Worcester and its handling of clergy abuse complaints, and she said
he ahs a pattern of giving money to the Catholic Church and Catholic
organizations but to other religious denominations.
“Both Mrs. Jean and Mr. Conte
“A check of Mr. Conte’s
rampaging finance expenditure records, which are open to public
inspection, showed that he made a $500 donation to the Bishop’s Fund
on April 14. He gave the same amount each of the past two years,
since the clergy abuse scandal became an issue in the Worcester
“The records shoed that in the
past six months, he also gave money to secular charitable
organizations such as the Boys & Girls Club of Worcester, the
American Red Cross, the United Way of Central Massachusetts and the
Joe DiMaggio Little League.
“Mr. Conte took strong
exception to Mrs. Jean’s complaint and said he has been giving to
the Bishop’s Fund for more than 35 years…”65
Getting interesting in
May 9, 2004
I have been getting into some
interesting discussion of late with especially some priest. One
priest almost flipped his wig: The (American) Bishops can’t open
their months on the Iraq War because they would they are attacked
with the sex abuse crisis with priest. I felt as such times that I
was living in a “circular-firing squad.”
I, also, felt that my writing
of my book would essentially be a book of 656 pages. It keeps
developing in more than I initially thought it would be. I had
“Father Peacock” flip at me that my work is going to be 7 volumes. I
respond to him, now, with: No! It will be 656 pages with footnotes.
He just shuts-up with such a comment from me. I say nothing more.
Another thought of late was
that my reflection on how Bishop Reilly could have sent me on a
“sabbatical or something” and put me into in a Father Inzarello
category than under the Bishop Harrington umbrella. I would then
have a financial package of “retirement” scale of a difference of
$800 a month. Additionally, he never responded to my “list of stolen
items” from my residence in St. Edward’s Rectory.
I was feeling as being done
with system: Diocese and Doctor. It was a dark-night other soul
sequence of time with my vocation. I had to reach inside myself and
reach for “AA tools” that I learned besides my spiritual life.
May 10, 2004
Kathleen A. Shaw reports in the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette “Bishop McManus eager to get
“Providence-Auxiliary Bishop Robert J. McManus walked out to the
front of the chancery building on Friday and encountered a young
woman who asked when he was leaving. ‘Today’s my last day,’ he told
her...’Bishop Reilly told me the two dioceses are similar,’ he said.
The new shop-like Bishop Reilly, providence native-admitted he has
been to Worcester only twice, but he is eager to meet the people and
get started. He said he has already received a warm welcome form
Auxiliary Bishop George E. Rueger and the chancery staff.
“Bishop McManus said he has
been busy winding up business in Providence and that Worcester
officials have been very good about driving down Route 146 to meet
“He planned to begin thee move
to the Worcester bishop’s residence on High Ridge Road Saturday.
Bishop Reilly and Monsignor Thomas Sullivan, diocesan chancellor,
have moved to St. Paul’s rectory.
“Bishop McManus, 52, will be
installed as fifth Bishop of Worcester at 2 p.m. Friday at St.
Paul’s Cathedral. The event is by invitation only. Renovations to
St. Paul's by Bishop Reilly reduced the seating.
“‘There are a hundred people
with tickets who will be standing,’ Bishop McManus said
May 11, 2004
Dianne Williamson writes
“Priest’s motivation is a puzzle: Parishioners remain forgiving of
theft” in the Worcester Telegram & Gazette.
She states” “One thing we can
say about the Catholic Church-it has always taken seriously its
mission to help the less fortunate.
“But what can we say about the
Rev. Donald C. Ouellette?
“For starters, Rev. Ouellette
must have been guzzling Communion wine if he expected the judge in
his larceny case to believe that he stole $254,834 from his church
to help out a Whitinsville man who needed it to ‘pay bills.’
“And the Robin Hood syndrome
certainly doesn’t apply here, as Rev. Ouellette stole from the poor
and gave to a gambler.
“Is this simply an inexplicable
case of good man ding a bad thing? Some of the priest’s former
parishioners seem to think so…
“If he didn’t tell the truth in
curt, then he never will,’ Mrs. Babineau (Parishioner of Immaculate
Conception, Fitchburg) said. “I think the whole story will remain a
mystery. But we’ll keep him in our prayers. We’re a parish of
faithful people, and we try not to hang on to negative feelings.”67
May 13, 2004
“Catholic bishops, pane at odds
over future audits” by Richard N. Ostling of The Associated Press in
the Worcester Telegram & Gazette writes: “Morris Plains,
N.J.-A key panel of lay Roman Catholics is angrily accusing American
bishops of backsliding on a central plank of neither reform program
aimed at stopping clergy sexual abuse.
“But some church leaders are
fighting back, saying that the National Review Board is overstepping
“‘There can be no more
foot-dragging by the hierarchy,’ Anne Burke, interim chair-woman of
the review board, said Tuesday night at an appearance in northern
New Jersey. The first leader of the board, former Oklahoma Gov.
Frank Keating, quit last year after he also accused some bishops of
“This is a ‘defining moment’
for the church, said Burke, an Illinois Appellate justice speaking
to members of Voice of the Faithful, a lay reform lobby group.
“The flash point in the dispute
between the board and certain bishops is a section of the prelates’
2002 sex abuse policy which-as part of its monitoring
provisions-calls for audits of each diocese to ensure they are
complying with the policy.
“Results of the first such
audit for 2003 were issued in January and the review board insists
the policy requires that further audits must be done annually…”68
May 14, 2004
This day, Bishop McManus was
installed at age of 52 as the new bishop of Worcester Diocese. I was
noticing myself especially in the afternoon as moving in a squirrel
cage. I was not able to find anything I wanted to do and felt as
though I accomplished nothing this day. I was here and my diocese
was participating in an installation of my bishop. I did feel the
isolation. But, I took a moment and realized that it was history on
my part if I thought I would ever be in a procession with fellow
priest in St. Paul’s Cathedral or any where else. I should not even
think of it because it is a done fact with my priesthood.
May 16, 2004
I had lunch with” Father
Peacock.” This time around he goes with: “I know your life is not
complete. You’re retired.” This was said in a derogatory mode. Then
he had to add that he could retire now. He said he had enough money
to do it immediately.
Thank you, Father. He somewhat
knows my financial situation. Therefore, he seems to me to be “Peacocking.”
May 18, 2004
“Former pastor arraigned”
appeared on page B2 this day in the Worcester Telegram & Gazette.
Kathleen A. Shaw writes:
“Uxbridge-The Rev. Jean-Paul Gagnon, former pastor of St. Gustine
parish in Millville, was arraigned yesterday in District Court on
one charge of indecent assault and battery on a person over 14.
“Rev. Gagnon pleaded guilty and
Judge Austin T. Philbin continued his case until June 30, releasing
him on personal recognizance.
“According to District Attorney
John J. Conte, the alleged incident occurred Oct. 11, 2002, in
Sutton. The victim, who is an adult, has not been named, but the
district attorney said he was active in St. Augustine parish. The
incident on which the charge is based occurred while Rev. Gagnon was
assigned to the parish… “Rev. Gagnon was represented by
Edward P. Ryan Jr. of Fitchburg. Mr. Ryan is also representing Rev.
Gagnon in a civil suit pending in Worcester Superior Curt alleging
he sexually abused Timothy P. Staney, formerly of Worcester and not
a Florida resident, when Mr. Staney was a minor.”69
May 19, 2004
I receive a “congratulations”
card form Bishop McManus. It read: “Deary Father Kardas, On May 23,
2004, you will observe the thirty-fourth anniversary of your
ordination to the priesthood. Please know that I join you in prayer
and that I asked the Lord Jesus to bless you with peace this day and
always. With every best wish, I remain sincerely yours in Christ,
Most Revered Robert J. McManus-Bishop of Worcester.”70
The top of the inside quoted 1
Thessalonians 3:9: HOW CAN WE THANK GOD ENOUGH FOR YOU, FOR ALL THE
JOY WE FEEL BEFORE GOD ON YOUR ACCOUNT?
When I received the envelope, I
checked the back of the envelope which had a green return address.
This was a regular mailing. If it was in black print, then it was
personally from the bishop. Not this where it may have been signed
by a “machine” from daily operations.
I wonder if a “coded” message
may have been: Seeing that we have to maintain a monthly stipend and
(limited) priestly benefits, I send you this card. Let’s not forget
that I have heard nothing in three years from the bishop besides
this type of card. Just a reminder on Worcester’s part.
Because of such outreach I
should have written back: First thing I do each morning I awake, I
think of your Bishop. Oh? (Getting into the negative stinken-thinking,)
May 20, 2004
What I heard was that the
American Bishops diverted from the sex abuse commission the
established due to rumor that Rome put pressure on them no to listen
to a lay commission. So, the question gets begged was how fearful
was Rome to being challenged about 1. Gays in ministry 2. Commission
expected to touch on issues such as celibacy and gay priest. This
question was not even allowed to be asked. 3. was the Church too
democratic? This was the end of the lay commission in principle.
Back to business as usual in the chanceries and Rome.
I noticed, again, that I had my
good times to write and not good times. What I developed was that
during the day I did research and usually had quality time after
supper and get a good three hour work period into the writing.
Yet, there are some days that I
get nothing done on either research or writing.
I came across this Proverb in
my daily Divine Office: Whoever pursues righteousness and kindness
will find life and honor. (Prov. 21:21)
May 23, 2004
I celebrated my 34th
Anniversary of Ordination with Mass in my room on my desk-daily
routine. Nothing else happened for such a day in my daily routine.
Oh! I received my monthly “insult” from the diocese in the mail. I
check each statement because they take deductions without any
explanations. It keeps getting smaller. Whatever the media reports
about priest on Leave of Absence with Rome is stating the obligation
of dioceses towards their priest.
May 27, 2004
I had a classmate from college
call me saying that I should call the Worcester Chancery and say
that I want a settlement. I had to remind him that I was told in ’98
by Fr. Gamache that the Church was not doing say settlements or
anything with priest. The institutional Church was doing anything
for anyone but the institution.
May 28, 2004
In the weekly “The Word from
Rome” by John L. Allen, Jr., he writes: “An update about the long
awaited document of homosexuality to Catholic seminaries, being
prepared under the aegis of the Congregation for Catholic Education.
In various drafts, the idea of
a document on this subject has been around for years. In April 2003,
however, a special closed-door Vatican summit on pedophilia seemed
to arrest its momentum. During that session, scientific experts on
sexual abuse told Vatican officials that homosexuality does not
‘cause abuse. They said it is a risk factor associated with clerical
sexual abuse, but so are many other things-such as being ordained
less than five years.
“Source told NCR at the
time that this statement impressed a number of senior Vatican
officials. One Latin American cardinal said at the time, ‘It’s clear
to me that a man’s bio-genetic makeup shouldn’t be our interest so
much as his behavior.’
“In fact, however, the document
is far from dead. ‘The Holy Father wants it, so thee will have to be
a document,’ as senior Vatican official told NCR in late May.
This official offered no prediction, however, as to where the
document might appear.
“As to content, the official
said the document would to some extent repeat the norms contained in
a 1961 instruction of the Congregation for religious, titled
Religiosorum institution, which stated: ‘Those affected by the
perverse inclination to homosexuality or pederasty should be
excluded from religious vows and ordination.’
“One key is what exactly the
‘homosexuality’ means. At one pole, a simple same-sex attraction
experienced years ago and never acted upon might make someone’s
‘homosexual.’ The other pole might restrict the definition of
‘homosexuality’ to active and on-going sexual behavior. Most people
would probably reject the former as overly strict, and the latter as
overly loose. The vision, the, is where to fall in between.
“The senior Vatican official
told NCR the document would likely not settle this question.
“ ‘It’s not reasonable to
expect the Holy See to get into those details,’ the official said.
‘That’s something that almost has to be determined one case-by-case
“It seems therefore probable
that bishops will retain some flexibility in deciding how to apply
whatever standards are set out in the document. Dioceses that have a
strict policy against the admission of homosexuals will continue,
but those who emphasize a candidate’s capacity for celibacy, rather
than sexual orientation in se, could argue that such a
candidate is not ‘homosexual’ in the sense intended under the norms.
“It’s possible; therefore, that
the thunderclap the document will cause in the press will not be
matched by changed realities on the ground.”71
I heard about this document
coming out of Rome on gays in the seminary. I realized that Attorney
Carey and Doctor Zeman, indirectly telling to “Get out.” They were
not Catholic but were privy to information and observations that I
was not picking-up with the different issues thrown at me.
This whole issue of
homosexuality in the seminary was addressed by an archbishop in Rome
that each priest allegated would have his situation review “case-by
–case.” My immediate thought was: Your Excellency! My bishop told me
I was guilt till proven innocent-already.
Now, we get back to the daily
check of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette for “The Clergy
Kathleen A. Shaw writes
“Activists want to see bishop.” She states: “Worcester-Two area
advocates for victims of clergy sexual abuse yesterday
unsuccessfully attempted to meet with Bishop Robert J. McManus to
discuss a new program called ‘restorative justice’ that they believe
might help the healing of both victims and abusers.
“Mary T. Jean of Leominster,
director of the Worcester Voice and Daniel Dick of Worcester,
victims advocate for Voice of the Faithful, went to the chancery to
meet with the bishop but were told no meeting was scheduled. Mrs.
Jean said they were told by the Rev. Rocco Piccolomini, the bishop’s
secretary, that Bishop McManus was ‘not available to us.’
“Mrs. Jean said she called Rev.
Piccolomini earlier this week and told him they would arrive at the
Elm Street chancery at 11 a.m. yesterday. She announced her
intention to drop in, even thought she received o response from the
bishop to her letter asking for a meeting.
“Bishop McManus said recently
he will meet with various groups that want to see him once he
settles in and gets to know the diocese.
“Raymond L. Delisle, spokesman
for the Diocese of Worcester, said the bishop has been unable to
meet with them, although he intends to in the future, because his
schedule is full. As newly installed bishop, he has board meetings,
Confirmation ceremonies through next month, meeting with
representatives of the various diocesan departments and ministries,
and graduation ceremonies…”72
It is interesting how Jean and
some think things operate. We, priest, even know there are channels
that are followed with in the Church-bishop etc.
I was reflecting the today on
my trip to Europe in the 70s for three weeks. The trip was one
“hazy” experience. I go back and re-read my notes that I made on the
trip and try to picture it. It is not a pleasant, clear reflection.
June 1, 2004
I have had, a number of nights
when I was unable to sleep, the radio on to Joey Reynolds' Radio
Show on WROR-AM from New York City. He had his program on weeknights
from 1:00-5:00 a.m. He had one segment by saying that he is an
alcoholic and been sober for 26 years. He spoke at length of his
issue with alcohol and how he depth with his self-esteem, ambitions
and relationships. He is an interesting guy to listen concerning
this topic. He does have a message to give.
June 6, 2004
I realized that I was writing
four stories: My own, Harrington’s, Rueger’s, the hierarchical
I had refined my thinking and
mentioned this to Dr. Zeman in my last appointment: 1. Abby Weber
was rock throwing but did not show-up for her deposition which would
have been under oath.2. Closure- Attorney Goulka with Attorney
Carey-consultation 3. How about me having witnesses to speak on my
behalf-Alice Gusha in PA. 4. Kevin Moylan-No show for appointed
deposition on part of Weber. 5. McCormick-visit with daughter at St.
Edward’s Rectory 6. Rueger-Scheduled for next day deposition
cancelled 7. Bishop Harrington’s deposition to follow-cancelled 8.
Coffee with McLains': “Your case is too hot.” 9. I had no money so I
had to take a loan of $22,000 from diocese. 10. Attorney Carey has
no copy of my deposition on record.
Therefore, after I have had a
final brief discussion with my civil later and attempting to
understand what happened from a civil-legal dimension, this is what
I think happened: Abbey Webber, Kevin Moylan were scheduled for
depositions. According to Carey, they never showed-up. Carey meets
with Attorney Goulka for “closure.” I never was asked for a list of
witnesses to speak on my behalf and have they deposed-no money
issue. Alice Gusha, who was married and living in PA sent me a note
and wanted to testify on my behalf about Weber and McCormick. I
never was able to give any other information about Weber and
McCormick then did I know them or did I ever abuse them. I answered
emphatically “No!” I was told that by Carey that Rueger was to be
deposed the next day with Bishop Harrington to follow. These were
cancelled. I never did find out who cancelled them. Yet, there was
some type of talk in Worcester that my “case was too hot.” I had no
money in that I had at take a loan for $22,000 from the diocese.
When I asked for copies of depositions from my lawyer, I received
the answer that he only had 3 and did not have a copy of my
deposition-never ordered one. Therefore, my case was hatched,
matched and dispatched. It was all handled; it seems, with
Attorney’s Goulka for the Worcester Diocese and Carey, representing
me. I recall Carey saying: Your case is all settled. What was
settled, I asked? No comment on Carey’s part. I know now that it was
over with in the civil matter to feed the Worcester Gang in
There definitely was the issue
with me that I was not asking the right questions. It’s as though
when I write this now, it is water over the dam syndrome.
Dr. Zeman said to me that I had
a hard pill to swallow with all of this. Justice?
June 7, 2004
I was thinking of late how I
had to write another work of fiction on my life as a Vatican priest
coming to living in a rectory-St. George’s- with Monsignor Manning
and the Father Rueger-not a bishop at that time. I would entitle my
work: Rectory Life. The dinner bell would be a whole
June 10, 2004
I was able to get my
appointments with Dr. Zeman to be every four months. I would save
myself $20 per trip to Hartford.
This meeting with Dr. Zeman had
me talk about the issue that the two girls claimed they were 12
years old. I wasn’t in New England when these girls were that age.
Another issue was their claim of being part of the youth group was
that to be a member of the parish youth group one had to be in high
school. Dr. Zeman had his eyes directed down on the floor sayings:
“It is very significant.”
June 13, 2004
This day we get from the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette “New priests determined to help:
Graduates of seminary approach crisis in church with faith” by
Helena Payne of The Associated Press.
She writes: “Boston-the latest
crop of ordained priests will serve in a Roman Catholic church still
reeling from a widespread clergy sex-abuse scandal and burdened by
financial obligations. But this group is determining to help the
church move beyond the crisis.
“‘I was disappointed in the
priest that tragically failed the people and I was disappointed
somewhat in the leadership that was shown, but I never lost my faith
in God and I have to wavered in my faith in the church,’ said Rev.
George Hines, who attended St. John’s Seminary in Boston and was
recently ordained with the six other priest assigned to the Boston
“Those just joining the
priesthood face a church struggling with dwindling enrollments and
shrinking contributions. The Boston Archdiocese is in the process of
closing 65 parishes, which Archbishop Sean P. O’Malley has said is
necessary because of declining Mass attendance, aging buildings and
a shortage of priests.
“That’ al against the backdrop
of the clergy sex-abuse scandal that erupted in January 2002 with
the release of court documents in the case of the Rev. John J.
Geoghan, who was moved from parish to parish despite evidence he had
This article showed a picture
of a recently ordained priest moving out of St. John’s Seminary in
Boston. What I not vied was this newly ordained priest had a
full-collar with sweater where the party-policy must be that you
always wear the Roman Collar for everything I life. One must realize
the difference of my ordination in 1970 and culture of the day in
the Catholic Church-having all the answers to questions not even
asked approach. The Catholic Catechism is the shield to put in front
of oneself when you leave “The Green Zone-Rectory.” The Green Zone
is heard because of the Iraq War-II of area in Baghdad where the
U.S. troops and civil workers live.
June 14, 2004
The People’s Forum, this day
has “Readers offer comments on bishops’ pronouncements, gay
marriage.” There were four letters printed. But the one that caught
my eye was the one from Peter A. Lewandowski of Worcester.
He wrote: “It's good to see
that our new bishop didn’t waste any time and got right to work. His
first order of business was to affirm church teachings regarding
homosexuality and to point at the misrepresentations made by City
Clark David J. Rushford. Perhaps now is the time to deal with the
gay activities clergy in our diocese who distort church teaching and
openly promote the gay lifestyle and agenda. A good place to start
would be with the list of clergy who signed the letter asking the
public to defend gay right (Telegram & Gazette, May 14).”74
If I correct, this is the
brother of Father Richard Lewandowski of Fitchburg. There is more of
a story here for a reporter to follow-up with a story. I believe
Peter is the younger brother of Father “Rich.”
The atmosphere of the day was
an anti-clerical prejudices that were deep and under impact of
secularization. There was a widespread indifference to institutional
June 15, 2004
A classmate of mine told me
that he had a cousin who was a teacher in the Boston Archdiocesan
Catholic School who told him: Your age group was hit hard
(allegations). Before, they (Boston Archdiocese) used to send priest
to the Cape on 6A treatment center for rehabilitation. This was a
very interesting comment from a layman in the Boston area.
June 18, 2004
The National Catholic
Reporter prints a review of Priests: A Calling in Crisis
by Andrew M. Greeley. This book is reviewed by Paul Philibert
(Visiting professor at the Aquinas Institute of Theology in St.
Louis.). The article is entitled “Debunking stereotypes about
Philibert writes: “American
Catholics appears to be no better at taking prophets seriously than
were the Israelites of the sixth century B.C. The Bible’s prophets
complained that their divinely inspired warning fell upon dead ears.
While the religious research of contemporary sociologists is not
divinely inspirited, it may fly into the category of ‘signs of the
times.” In any case, despite the encouragement of Gaudium et Spes
to take empirical research seriously, research findings generally
fail to move bishops and church administrators into action.
“In 1985 Dean Hoge accurately
predicted that within 15 years the younger clergy would embrace a
dominantly institution-centered ecclesiology while the growing corps
of lay ministers would be more collaborative and innovative. By the
late 1980s, Richard Schoenberg had clearly identified the steady
increase in the Catholic population and the roughly 40 percent
declines in priests between 1966 and 2005. In 1990, David Hygren and
Miriam Ukeritis, in their comprehensive study of American religious,
warned that there existed a 10-yer window of opportunity for
institutional transformation before religious orders and
congregations risked paralysis and death unless they clarified their
contribution to the life of the church. All three of these
predictions which, which initially met with widespread denial, have
been realized almost exactly as predicted.
Andrew Greeley’s Priests: a
Calling in Crisis is about the impact of the clerical sexual
abuse crisis of 2002 and ‘how it fits the stereotype that emerged at
the time.’ It is the prophetic outcry of a public intellectual who
want to weigh in on the significance of the scandal with empirically
based interpretations of its impact for the future. He begins by
debunking experts frequently cited by the national press for their
interpretations of the sexual abuse scandals. With respects to
claims that priests are less sexually mature than the general
population (Eugene Kennedy), that the sexual revolution has
dramatically changed the condition of celibacy for priests and that
only about 2 percent of priests are ‘successfully celibate’ (Richard
Sipe), or that the Jesuits in the United States are in serious and
possibly terminal cries (Peter McDonough and Eugene C. Bianchi),
Greeley explains the methodological insufficiency of each of them:
‘the rules of the games say that you don’t make estimates unless you
have representative samples.’…
“After all his efforts to
brainstorm possible solutions, the author concludes with words that
sound much like analogy. They are, I think, a good way for me to
conclude as well: ‘In the short run I anticipate a reaction to 2002
like that to the birth-control encyclical-a decline in church
attendance and a decline in financial contributions but no mass
exodus form Catholicism. (I don’t think so. This priest issue
doesn’t affect parishioners in the “me-myself-and I” syndrome.)
Catholics, even every angry Catholics still like being Catholic...’
(The Gas Station Model becomes a Super Gas Station-don’t have to
even leave your car.)
Greeleyesque remarks is a reminder of why it’s worth listening to
what he has to say. “75
When I was reading this book
and how critical Greeley was of other writers not have substantial
data in making insights, I immediately had the thought how Monsignor
Sullivan-Chancellor of the Worcester Diocese-made the remark that
99% of allegations are true. You have to know Sullivan and his style
of ministry and thinking how figures don’t le but figures do.
Sullivan was shooting from the hip in his remark. But, I guess he
would have justified his insight because Bishop Rueger was the only
one in the Worcester Diocese that was proven to be “immaculate.”
In addition was part of that Worcester Chancery
Gang that operated in the management by confusion arena. Then they
seem to state: “Case closed.”
The culture is so
egocentrically that the American Catholic seen is no different:
Every man (person) for himself and watch where the money is that
June 18, 2004-this
day- has the Catholic Free Press, page one story: “Sex abuse policy
audit approved: Bishops also ask for study.”
The Catholic News
Service reports: “Denver (CNS)-The U.S. bishops have approved
on-site audit this year of all U.S. dioceses and Eastern-rite
eparchies to monitor compliance with child sex abuse prevention
“The vote was 207-14
in favor with one abstention, according to a news release issued
Tuesday in Denver by the communications department of the U.S.
Conference of Catholic Bishops.
“The approval came
after controversy as to whether some bishops wanted to postpone the
“The vote was taken
during the bishops’ June 14-19 closed-door spring meeting, held this
year in the Denver suburb of Englewood.
“The hierarchy also
directed its all-lay National Review Board to prepare, in
conjunction with the bishops’ Ad Hoc Committee on Sexual Abuse,
proposals for a study on the causes and context of the clergy sex
abuse crisis. The study is called for by the bishops’ policies
contained in the 2002 ‘Charter for the Protection of Children and
Young People,’ but the financing has to be approved by the
June 19, 2004
I had to hear from “Father
Peacock” comment of the annual Presbyter Meeting at Cape Cod. He
said he was told it was a waste of time. He didn’t attend because he
did not want to waste parish money of $500 for the conference. He
said the presentation was by the laity. Here is a classic act of
This priest angles everything.
One has to listen carefully to see how deceiving he is. This priest
is a classic “sociopath.” The best thing to do for me is to get my
distance from him-avoidance.
June 23, 2004
I was feeling the “isolation”
issue the last few days. So, when I received my monthly from the
diocese, there was another deduction “FP” for an addition $15. No
notice, nothing but the deduction.
I figured after some reflection
that “FP” stood for “Fall Plan-Health”
June 26, 2004
I realized that I addressed the
issue of my loneliness for some time now. I moved myself beyond
waiting for anyone to “call me” or anything for that matter. I
proceeded cautiously; I did my 3 mile daily walk thinking about the
different home I waked past in how they celebrated family and group
gatherings. I realized each house was foddering and not my
situation. I had to do my situating as only my situation and not
another one. I had a thought at times as a pretext that the
Worcester Chancery Gang was out to get me even now. In my walk, I
would think of the weekend Masses at the parish where I was never
such because I worried what if the “Gone Squad” would send some out
to get me because “Ted must be drinking.” In addition when I would
walk on Saturday afternoons, I felt the void of not being with my
people at St. Edward’s celebrating the Eucharist (Mass). A similar
feeling prevailed on Sunday mornings.
I realize it has been over 10
years since I was removed from my ministry. I mention this because
it was in my blood as my vocation of being a priest. Oh! I was told
by a number of people that I had to put “closure” and “move on.” I
have done that in many ways. But, the Mass and the parish were in my
total make-up as being a person that was ordained. It had nothing to
do with status. It was me. I kept my daily Mass and Divine Office
obligation in tact. In addition, I was doing my 50 minute Nordic
Tracks, then 3 mile walk with a 30 minute floor- roller routine.
June 28, 2004
(Jesuit publication) prints “rights of Accused Priest: toward a
revision of the Dallas charter and the ‘Essential Norms’ by
(Cardinal) Avery Dulles, S.J. This was a lecture he gave to the
Thomas More Society in Fort Lauderdale, Fla., on May 27, 2004.
Somewhat after a few comments
he states: “Although the charter was modified as a result of
consultation with Vatican officials, the revised norms are still
subject to criticism. Croups of priest still protest that they are
not accorded the base requirements of dues process. (Where are these
priests?) Continued discussion may be helpful because the Holy See
granted recognition to the ‘Essential Norms’ only for a period of
two years form their promulgation (Dec. 12,2002). If the norms are
extended, they will probably be first revised. With regards to the
rights of accused priests, the following 15 principles would seem to
be pertinent for any re-evaluation of the “Essential Norms.’ “77
He lists these 15 principles
with an explanation. The principles: Presumption of Innocence,
Definitions of Sexual Abuse, Proportionality, Retroactivity, Statue
of Limitations (Persecution),Oversight and Therapy, Confidentiality,
Settlements, Remuneration of Accused Priests, Access to trail,
Virtual Laicization, Laicization, Prospect of Reinstatement,
Offenses Beyond the Scope of the Essential Norms, Universal
Legislation and Equitable Treatment.
The National Review Board
obviously learned to paint by the numbers since my situation in
1993. I keep thinking how Msgr. Pedone as Canon Lawyer for the
Diocese of Worcester had never advised my bishop of anything as
these principles suggest or inform the hierarchy-never mind the
public or media.
Let’s not forget-some may be
very tired of hearing- that Bishop Harrington kept telling me that I
was “guilty till proven innocent- we’ll contact you.” (I was thrown
In addition, I was told by
another priest that my case was considered under Bishop Harrington.
But, I have to remind him and others that I was forced to resign
under Bishop Reilly. So, why am I not treated with what those that
Reilly forced-out? Is there an issue of “punishment “in addition to
being removed from the ministry? Yet, if I don’t remain “silent,”
will I lose the little benefits and salary I have been given? The
questions keep coming?
I realized that what the
Worcester Chancery did to me was that they had no procedure in place
for anything but a “mad-man” bishop proclaiming: “Ted! You’re guilty
till proven innocent.” Then, I was shunned and kept in isolation. As
time went on, the hierarchy “painted-by-the- numbers” in handling
priest cases. So, when Avery Dulles gave his talk in Florida on May
27th, it made no difference for me. There was the phrase
used for the hierarchy that was the end for me: Each case is judged
differently. What chance did I have with a Bishop Harrington, who
would do anything to cover-up for himself and his Chancery Staff and
God knows civil officials because he was “The Bishop.”
June 29, 2004
Kathleen A. Shaw reports
“Priest, bishops are named in lawsuit” of the publication of this
days Worcester Telegram & Gazette.
She states: “Worcester-Daniel
W. Cronin, now a resident of Los Angeles, filed suit in Worcester
Superior Court alleging he was sexually abused by the Rev. Brendan
E. O’Donoghue when he was an 8-yer old altar boy at St. Peter
“The suit, which was filed May
13, also names the late Cardinal John J. Wright, first Worcester
bishop, and the estate of the late Bishop Bernard J. Flanagan for
failing to properly supervise Rev. O’Donoghue.
“Auxiliary Bishop George E.
Rueger is also named in the suit, but only in his capacity as
executor of Bishop Flanagan’s estate, there are no allegations of
wrong doing on his part.
“James Gavin Reardon Jr.,
lawyer for the Catholic Diocese of Worcester, said yesterday the
diocese has not been served and he ahs not seen the suit. Should the
diocese get notice of the suit, an appropriate response will be
“Mr. Reardon said that based on
the naming of Cardinal Wright and Bishop Flanagan, it looks like the
allegations are ‘historic’ and go back many years.
“Mr. Cronin, represented by
lawyer John J. St Andre of Framingham, said in court documents he
was molested at the altar of St. Peter Church in Worcester, and at
the home of Rev. O’Donoghue’s mother in Worcester.
“Mr. Cronin says in the suit
that he has trusted Rev. O’Donoghue ‘as a priest and friend.’
“The suit says as a result of
this molestation he ahs suffered emotionally for more than 40 years
and has depression, difficulties with trust and intimacy, difficulty
in developing relationships with women, and difficulty with
substance abuse and religion…”78
Anytime I read O’Donoghue
names, I wonder what this guy “had” on the whole Worcester Chancery
Gang from the 60s until this time-2004? He was the priest-if one
recalls- “bumped” me out of St. Matthews Parish, Southboro as pastor
instead of St. Edwards, Westminster. He “retires” and allowed to
live at the Southgate-Priest Retirement location which is very
O”Donoghue is one of those
priests-if you track his record of allegations- was moved because of
“pastoral issues.” He had many, many assignments in the Worcester
Diocese. As I wonder: What did he have on Harrington and the
Chancery Gang that they didn’t want him to “sing like a bird”?
But Harrington and Rueger with
Pedone make me “The Poster Boy.”
The fact has been realized with
all of this- there is nothing I can do but write this work.
Somewhere, there will be a priest that we will hear about that will
challenge the allegations from the hierarchical perspective and
canon law. This priest will have to know the right canon lawyers and
June 30, 2004
I heard on the radio a report
that had me get a weak feeling that I had to sit down. The report
had Archbishop O’Malley criticizing Rome on how slow they were
processing cases to dismiss priest that were allegated.
Then I thought how when I had
Fr. Henry Bowen as my Canon Lawyer-whom I fired by not representing
me-saying: “Your case is more serious than Fr. Ron Provost (Allegated
classmate).” I had no idea about anything concerning my situation
from Bowen and he was to be my advocate. He was not doing any such
thing. He was history on the advice of my civil attorney, doctor and
my gut feeling.
I made a serious error in
getting Bowen to be my Canon Lawyer after Fr. Lynch died. I should
have see “red flags” in that Bowen was from the Worcester Diocese.
He had been with Bishop Harrington for years, pastor and had
obviously his priesthood to be concerned about especially a
retirement. I go back to the meeting that I had with Carey and Bowen
in Carey’s Office in Boston. Carey was telling me when we were
leaving that Bowen was not defending me. Carey picked this up in our
only meeting with us three parties. I did not notice it. I guess I
was hoping that this nightmare would finally be over with. I was
very wrong with Bowen. It didn’t take long for me to “fire” Bowen.
What a situation in that Bowen’s brother-John-was a member of St.
Edward’s Parish in Westminster. Father Bowen, an
elder-statesman-priest in the Worcester Diocese and not really
defending me with canonical matters.
July 2, 2004
I had in my hand a copy of my
diocesan newspaper from my mail box. I was squarely looking at it
and carried that feeling through the day. My mind was racing. I wan
not sure what was going to happen next. My mind was racing with many
thoughts of what do I do if the diocese announces to me that I was
being removed as a priest. What was I to do? I have noting in work
related market. I sacrificed my entire life and I worked 25 hours a
day in ministry. Having to face holiday weekends as July 4th
and “family gathering” with no place to go was difficult. One thing
of late was that “loneliness” was not a factor of late. It seemed
that my research and writing had supplemented any thought of
“loneliness.” I made my writing a project that was very time
The front page of the Catholic
Free Press prints “Vatican steps up abuse cases.” One had to
understand that I hear nothing. So, it this title directed at me or
is to satisfy the media and certain elements of the public and
This story reads: “Vatican
Thavis (CNS)-Two U.S. canon lawyers are expected to arrive this fall
for work at the Vatican’s doctrinal congregation, part of an effort
to speed up processing of sex abuse cases, church officials said in
“The move responds to concern
by both U.S. bishops and Vatican officials that more manpower is
needed to break through the logjam of abuse cases at the Vatican.
Since new norms went into
effect last year, hundreds of cases have arrived at the doctrinal
congregation, which has oversight responsibility for all priestly
sex abuse cases involving minors/ the congregation has added some
staff, but the workload has been described by some as overwhelming.
“The resolution is that it may
take months to remove even an acknowledged abuser from the
priesthood, and longer if an extensive investigation or church trail
Does anyone wonder that if this
issue has Rome “overwhelmed” to deal with that there is something
below the surface than an “allegation”?
Then one may turn this same
issue on page 3 of sex abuse with “Overcoming animosities is the aim
of national review board chairwoman” written by Agosino Bono of the
Catholic News Spirit.
The article states: “Washington
(CNS)-The outgoing interim chairwoman of the bishops’ National
Review Bard said that she expects more collaboration between the lay
board and the bishops now that the board has demonstrated its
“Another aid to cooperation is
that the board has shown the high quality of its work in helping the
bishop implement policies to prevent clergy sex abuse of minors,
said Justice Anne M. Burke.
“Increased collaboration should
overcome antagonisms wit some bishop, she said.
“‘The animosities shouldn’t
have happened. We are trying to overcome that now,’ she said…
“Because the board was
appointed by the president of the U.S. Conference of Catholic
Bishops,’ we worked hard at autonomy’ from the hierarch to establish
credibility, she said.
“Initially, the board needs a
wall between it and the hierarchy ‘to avoid the view that we are a
rubber stamp for the bishops,’ said Burk.
“‘This put us in an adversary
position with some bishops,’ she said without mentioning names.
“‘The bishops gave up control
of some aspects of this (sex abuse) crisis to us. Some bishops
didn’t seem to realize this,’ she said.
“ ‘The board will remain
independent be more collaborative,’ she said…”
I know hearing from a few
priests that the issue lay people and yet women as chairperson were
hot issues with very negative comments. These few guys I heard were
even saying what Rome was very unhappy with this set-up-as they had
a hot-line to Rome. There was another trip-up concept-collaboration.
These same priests would never have it or even want to hear this
approach to ministry.
July 3, 2004
One bit of personal business I
was reflecting upon was the gossip circle that existed between
priests. It was not different than other most other groups. But,
this was an area that I was very uncomfortable with in that it
seemed it was talk of who had what on whom. Church people seemed to
want to know everyone else’s business. It was a very prevalent
atmosphere-gossip wagging. Stories were resurrected from day one in
the priesthood by other “brother” priest. The example here was that
the word was out that Bishop McManus was an Opus Dei member when he
celebrated a special Mass at St. Paul’s Cathedral in Worcester.
July 9, 2004
I sat and addressed what was
going through with emotions of anger and fear of a roller-coaster
dimension. Lately, I was reading that the Doctrine of Faith in Rome
with Cardinal Ratzinger would be processing with American Canonist
the sex abuse cases. I have heard nothing of my situation. I waited
with a regular schedule that had me programmed to go to two meetings
of AA a week and attend Dr. Zeman on a quarterly bases. I did find
daily and weekly projects for people I knew to earn a few extra
dollars. I did “handy-man” jobs that was more surprising in how much
one is able to find to do.
Was it possible that my case is
what I was doing presently-living in my cave and finding “handy-man
jobs.” The only other issue was that annually I would receive a
card-note from the bishop of ordination "congratulations."
I realized that it was a lost
issue with my priesthood being anything but what I was experiencing.
I learned that the Church system took anything I said as a “lie.” I
never expected plenty of omissions, exasperations, unjustified
options, lost documents, unclear explanations, gray areas and
The Church system
with the present American Hierarchy just chewing-up any hope I had
of being able to standup for justice in my case. What I notice in
the new appointments of bishops was that they were “company men”
that personified the “hatchet” approach.
July 11, 2004
I wrote a list of reflections
in a barnstorming style of my feelings at this present time-half
empty glass. The list: Sense of inferiority, drive to excellence, I
was sabotaged, fear of death with shivers, shocked and trilled,
secretly writing my book, full-scale war was going on, in my head,
never driven and yet was ruined by others, things tasted wonderful,
sweet and airy, combined religion and energy, things happen now in a
moment, reality did the trick, the strange barrier of hoping g that
instantly this would go away., invisible chains would fall away, old
feeling of inferiority and discomfort, proceed with caution, time is
moving, moving is time, deep seated insecurity, old feeling s of
self-doubt, charm and wit, help eventually will turn-up and mean
I felt as though I was
operating in the shadow of my life. I gave my life and now a
persecuted nature overcomes me with fear and distrust. I remained
loyal, tire to the Church teachings. I never spoke or wrote about
theocracy. I have even thought of late that I would need a public
What brought all of this about?
It was all the other cases that I read and heard about had my
attention. I felt I was living in the shell game trying to find the
pea. I only wanted some sense of Christian justice. I was in a
seem-retirement with no adjustments in 11 years. It was a time of
“The Good, the Bad and the Ugly.” Makes you wonder?
July 15, 2004
I was crunching the numbers of
late of my $3,000 “stolen items” list: Full replacement values-same
items with no depreciation. Cash award would be what this list was
worth? Question of 5 or 6 % a year accumulation because I was
deprived of use of my poverty that was rightly mine. Compounded
$3,000 X 5%= $150. Then multiply by 5% consubstantially X 1.05=
Whole new amount. Compounded original X .5 is whole new amount. Add
interest with total and then add interest. Take the balance and add
in lasts years’ interest. Effecting interest (APR) after 10 years.
Actually interest is being compounded. Quit a summary of what I was
told by Bishop Reilly that it was no problem and he would look into
it. I never heard about it again.
July 16, 2004
We have the National
Catholic Reporter gives us “Investigation clears bishop of sex
abuse charges” by Ed Griffin-Nolan.
Griffin-Nolan writes: “An
investigation into allegations of homosexual conduct and sexual
abuse by Albany Bishop Howard Hubbard has found no evidence to
support charges of homosexual activity and sexual abuse three
decades ago. The investigation conducted by a teamed by former U.S.
Attorney Mary Jo White, included a polygraph test which the bishop
passed, and more than 300 interviews over the course of four months.
the polygraph test indicate that Hubbard was being truthful when he
insisted that he had honored his vow of celibacy and had never had
sex ‘of any kind’ with another person.
“The extraordinary report was
delivered June 24 to the Sexual Misconduct Review Board of the
diocese, which hired White in February after Andrew Albany of
California claimed that his brother, Thomas had had an ongoing
sexual relationship with the bishop. Thomas Zalay died in 1968 in a
house fire, which fire officials believe he intentionally set.
Hubbard denied the affair, saying he had no memory of ever meeting
“Zalay’ accusations were fooled
tow day later by charges from Anthony Romney, a 40 year-old former
prostitute from Schenectady, that Hubbard had paid him for sex in an
Albany park when Bonneau was a teen. Investigators found no credible
evidence to support Bonneau’s claim, and suggested that an unnamed
gay priest who was know to refer to himself as ‘the bishop’ might
have been Bonneau’s racial client.
“A third accusation, that
Hubbard was part of a clique of gay priests in Albany and had sexual
relationships with four other priests, was also shot down. All four
priests and the bishop were give lie detector test by the former
chief polygraph expert at the FBI and their denials were deemed
truthful. As charges multiplied, the investigation morphed and let
to the bizarre scene of two bishops. Hubbard and Matthew Clark of
Rochester, each being hooked up to polygraph machines and being
asked, among other things, if they had ever had sex with each other.
“The investigators fund that
the source of the anonymous letter charging that Hubbard led a
secret double life was Fr. John Minkler, a military chaplain at the
VA hospital in Albany who had long sought damage Hubbard’s
I used to hear stories about
Hubbard and Clark in clergy meeting in the Worcester Dioceses and
wondered about the priest telling the stories. I wondered if this
was one of those “techniques” to keep the spotlight somewhere else
July 17, 2004
I notice that in my writing that the controversy
about the priest abuse issue had surrounded me, as often the case
with Church politics seemed to be more intensely followed. I wrote
form a fairly narrow bond of ecclesial and political insight. I
lived in a created atmosphere that was a vacuum from people. The
Church that I lived in the 60s and 70s was a time of hope. Now, it
was a time of re-trenching back into the castle: 1. Bureaucracy vs.
real sense of community 2. Disconnection between faith and living
life 3. Catholic liturgy rejected exaggeration in ritualism 4.
Excessive preoccupation with economic diversions 5. Translation
concession of the mission 6.lack of an overall coordinated pastoral
mission. It was the: “Super Gas Station Model with a drive-through”
and not a faith community.
July 18, 2004
I recall thinking about that
last time I spoke with John Bish when he said to me: “the diocese is
taking good care of you.” It sounded like Rueger or Reilly taking to
him in one of Bish’s-get information with the big ones-approach. I
would like the opportunity to tell Rueger or Reilly: I would like to
take good care of you like you did for me.
I came across a Dilbert
cartoon by Scott Adams: “I want you (Dilbert) to negotiate the sale
of our voice activated hassock huskiness. You’re not allowed to be
open, but expect plenty of omissions, misdirection’s,
exaggerations, unjustified optimism, lost documents, unclear
expiations, gray areas and tactical ignorance. Oh, and say that we
have other offers.
It was such a scenario that I
was experiencing with the hierarchy and their operative with my case
to save themselves-Worcester’s Poster Boy.
July 20, 2004
“Bishop want seminaries to
screen gays” by The Associated Press appeared this day in the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette.
The report states: “Boston-A
former Boston priest says the church must improve its screening
process for accepting seminarians to keep homosexuals from being
ordained into the priesthood.
“ ‘We must be very careful of
who we accept in the seminary and who we ordain as priest,’ Bishop
John M D’Arcy, now of the Fort Wayne-South Bend Diocese in Indiana,
said Sunday. ‘It’s time to ordain men of quality, not to just look
“D’Arcy, who was in Boston to
attend Mass at Our Lady of the Presentation Church, the Brighton
neighborhood parish when he grew up, said he hopes the U.S.
Conference of Catholic Bishops will discuss screening policies for
the seminary when it meet this fall, and will take, and will take a
firm stance against homosexual men serving as priests.
“The Rev. Christopher J.
Coyne, spokesman for the Boston Archdiocese, said that although
there has been some discussion among member of the archdiocese and
the Vatican about the possibility of banning homosexuals from the
priesthood, no decisions have been made.
“ ‘The main issue is celibacy,’
Coyne said, adding that D’Arcy concerns about gay priests are not
necessarily shared by others.
“Coye said that only 20 percent
of the applicants for priesthood in the Archdiocese of Boston are
accepted by the church.
“ ‘I don’t see the need here in
Boston,’ he said of a possible overhaul of the screening process. ‘I
can say the process in Boston is a good one.’…”82
When I read or her as such I
wonder if the “system” is-days of old- pulling the wool over our
eyes or having things being “whiter than snow.” Let’s be real. This
“system” has show itself to be the only place in the world where
anything said by anyone against you-you’re gone.
July 21, 2004
I obtained a copy of the The
Changing Face of the Priesthood by Fr. Donald Cozzens. I went on
the Internet to find reviews and other comments about this work.
One of the first articles I
read was in the Tablet (international English Catholic
publication) carried “This strange culture: by Paul Wilkes. “Cases
of clerical sexual abuse are one indication that the Catholic Church
need to examine closely the clerical culture of today. A process of
pastoral theology in the United States has done just that in a new
book. The distinguished visiting professor at the University of
North Carolina at Wilmington in the United States applauds it.
Wilkes writes: “When a book
published in America with the apparently innocuous title The
Changing Face of the Priesthood because the subject of long
articles in two major secular publications-the Cleveland Plain
Dealer and the Boston Globe-something is obviously up.
The book is written by a seminary rector, Fr. Donald Cozzens of St.
Mary’s in Cleveland, with impeccable credentials-a parish priest,
professor of pastoral theology, vicar for priest. His slender
148-page volume, published by Liturgical Press, face squarely the
hard questions about the quantity, quality and sexual orientation of
American priests and seminarians. The book has also struck a chord
with lay Catholics.
“Fro Fr. Cozzens’ Cride
Coeur is a reasoned, calmly-written yet impassioned pleas that
the Church and the priesthood he so loves should face up to
realities. The clerical culture now endemic in Vatican and too many
chancery circles is damaging to those few who are now coming forward
to serve, the many who would do so under more reasonable
circumstances, and the millions who look to the Church as a source
of guidance, inspiration and Christ-like example.
“Fr. Cozzen’s book is not the
first warning that all is far from well among our priest. In 1987,
Fr. Richard McBride, the theologian and writer from Notre Dame
University in Indiana, asked a series of questions in the journal
Commonweal which sent a shock-wave through the Church. He asked
if the Church was avoiding what seemed mounting evidence that not
only were men of lesser abilities entering seminaries, but that a
growing percentage of priests and bishops were of homosexual
persuasion and that this preponderance of gay clerics was beginning
to have a damaging, disorienting effect.
“In 1989, Fr. Andrew
Greeley, the novelist and social scientist, wrote about ‘lavender
rectories’ in an article in the American weekly the National
Catholic Reporter of Kansa City which outraged some and made
others nod in agreement. The priesthood was becoming more and more
gay, Greeley maintained, and was no longer representative of the
Church at large. The general quality of priests, seminarians and
members of the hierarchy was also called into question.
“When Fr. Cozzens
broke fresh ground in this new book is that he goes beyond the
immediate issues of the quality, quantity and sexual orientation of
seminarians and priest to the question which he believes to be at
the heart of the matter: what is it in the church culture that
encourages such men to become priest and discourages so many other?
Is there a basis’s for increasingly disaffect laity? And what gives
the book and immediacy and unique status is the Cozzens is the
July 23, 2004
I felt “blackmailed” by the two
girls that allegated me with the diocese. The Worcester Diocese
mustered and dazzled, shifted assortment of “Reasons” for getting
me. At one time or another, they added their own story to make me
that “Worcester Poster Boy” especially when the Harrington
drunk-driving accident and teen driving victim was when they threw
everything at me to make me “guilty till proven innocent.”
What I was especially living
under was the beginning of hierarchy being called forward on sex
abuse crisis. I tried to have anyone listen to me of what it was
like living in the seminary and ministry ordained form the 60s with
a very predominant gay culture and work atmosphere. So many priests
walked-out. There were all types of reasons given as celibacy,
Second Vatican Council liberalism etc. It was predominantly a
homosexual world that was not normal. God, I did try to make it work
for me to be the best with the talents and gifts that I had. Yet,
“The System” made me their Poster Boy.
I recall that Rueger, in one of
those famous “hot house interrogations” saying that I immature. I
was doing things to go with a new spirit of a Church system of
Vatican II by “opening the windows (fresh air: but not on the altar
saying Mass. One example was me getting a motorcycle (trail bike)
to ride with some of the guys that I meet in the parish. I carried
the open Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintained. It was a
values work. It opened eyes. The same period of time, our country
had the Vietnam War of the 70s and watching, being with clergy that
were silent especially in St. George’s Rectory with Monsignor
Manning and Father Rueger-before he became auxiliary bishop.
I was writing this not to blame
my subsequent alcoholism on specific events. Instead, a story
emerged which shaped the character of my personhood dealing with my
July 28, 2004
I was thinking the last few
days of how long now I have been on Administrative Leave (Leave of
Absence) is 11 years with no ministry-being put on the shelf.
Because I realized that I was in a time element where there was only
a morality on sexuality-everything else is free game-if the “boys of
power and authority” deem it so.
What was a know fact, that a
priest “can’t sue his bishop.” So, if a priest says or does anything
with a civil matter or the media, he is “defrocked.” It is an
interesting state to be in. I, always, was optimistic on my part of
going to have an opportunity to tell me story and change the
situation. So, if you’re put on a shelf, it becomes impossible to
tell one’s version.
July 29, 2004
Father Gamache told me how
Bishop Reilly told him that Father Walsh was blackmailed by the guy
who made him sign a paper that Walsh molested this guy.
The discussion continued on
where Fr. Gamache made a statement to me that surprised me: “If I am
alienated, I have the money to fight it.” Sol many priest were being
allegated that it was a certain different priest, it seemed, each
week. Gamache’s statement was the quote of the year for me to hear.
I raised the issue with him in
how was Fr. Brendon O’Donoghue being on “active duty” and allegated
a number of times and living in Shrewsbury (Southgate) priest
retirement home. This location was the top of living conditions. I
remarked: I’m near poverty-stipend below the poverty level-living in
a studio apartment. Gamache makes a shuttle dig towards me in saying
that I was not Irish.
Another interesting fact was me
hearing Fr. Gamache telling me that according to Bishop Rueger told
him that Father Davenport needed a liver. Gamache felt that Rueger
was hinting to him to donate a liver for Davenport. This had Gamache
flippant with him saying that he wondered if Davenport had something
on Rueger or the Chancery Gang to make such a statement with
emphasis directed at him. Gamache wondered to me by saying that he
wondered what Davenport “had” on Rueger and The Chancery Gang.
I responded that what little I
knew about Rueger after living in the same rectory for a number of
years that Rueger may have been pulling Gamache’s buttons. However,
I said that Rueger never says anything without a string attached to
something around the corner. He has been known to be “lose lips”
with his talking. But has his techniques that become more
interesting operating with his role as auxiliary bishop. I wanted to
ask Gamache if Rueger was still acting like “Carol Channings” when
he says Mass and preaches.
August 1, 2004
Poor Father Gamache was
flippant at lunch. He started by telling me that the “Polish priest
in Clinton told the Deacon that he was not needed anymore.” I
watched Gamache’s forehead-under his wig- quivering and facial red
increased as he was talking. Let’s not forget that he is the
personification of “resurging clericalism” and the new deaconate of
the Second Vatican Council re-institution.
But, what we have here is
Gamache’s obsession with his “boys” becoming “little priests.” This
is something one has to see. It is almost an obsession. What we have
to wonder about is the one’s that do the “discernment” for
candidates? I know by saying this is the question: Would I have been
ordained? But, one has to see what the Diocese of Worcester is using
for their discernment process.
The resorted Deaconate of the
Catholic Church is not a sanctuary ministry-polishing candle sticks.
Many priests may think so because some only do that-say Mass and off
to the golf course was a big thing I heard when I was first ordained
in 1970. The deaconate is a ministry service. The documents I have
read and re-read. So, when I see and hear what is being directed to
the deacons is a very limited aspect of who they are and duties. I
mention this because Gamache has the model of Deacons preaching and
doing Baptisms-Communion Services when Father is gone on his
“days-off” which a trained layperson may carry-out in a parish.
I wonder how the reinforcement
of “The Boys in the Band” is resurging. I know whey there is no
adult education programs in parishes that would address pertinent
issues of the day especially caring-out ones Baptismal
obligations-everyone which would include the clerical state as well
as the layperson-men and women.
So, watching Father Gamache
acting-out his way with teaching the Deacons-Dogmatic Theology-and
his choice of a Deacons makes one watch with suspicion what is
really happening to the ministry-again.
Another interesting occurrence
this day was I was asked by a high school teacher: How is your book
doing? Are we going to see you on the Opra Show to be interviewed by
her? This teacher asked me: Are you able to write? Who wrote my
weekly Sunday homilies (sermons), funeral and wedding homilies and
other lectures? I responded: “Yes! I just write loving hand and the
do type my printed text-I preach after that with an outline which is
from the heart.” There was silent on the teacher’s part.
August 3, 2004
Shifting this day from Cozzen’s
book, I find on page 1 of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette
“Shepherd Hill teacher arraigned: Sexual relations with male student
John Dignam of the Telegram and
Gazette Staff writes: “Dudley-A high school English teach4r who
allegedly had a sexual relationship with a 16-year –old male student
was arraigned yesterday in Dudley District Court.
“Amber Jennings, 30, of 110
South Shore Drive, Sturbridge, a teacher at Shepherd Hill regional
High School, was charged with inducing a minor under 18 ‘to have
unlawful sexual intercourse’ and disseminating obscene matter to the
“Judge Neil F. Snider entered a
not guilty plea on behalf of Ms Jennings. She was released on $1,000
personal recognizance and granted a continuance to Oct. 26. Ms.
Jennings stood beside her lawyer, Peter L. Ettenberg, as Judge
Snider outlined the conditions of her release.
“School Superintendent Sean M.
Gilrein said yesterday that Ms. Jennings status has not change and
that as of yesterday she was scheduled to report with all high
school teacher Aug.. 30 for the start of the school year. Student
report Aug. 31.
“ ‘These are very serious
allegations, and we’ll continue to work with the investigating
authorities to gather information as evidence is brought forward,’
Mr. Gilrein said. ‘The school district will take appropriate
administrative action to ensure the welfare of our students and a
positive learning environment for everyone.’
“The release on personal
recognizance was granted on a joint request by the district
attorney’s office and Mr. Ettenberg; the judge’s order that Ms.
Jennings not has any contact with or come within 1—years of the
alleged victim was also requested by both sides.
“Ms. Jennings and Mr. Ettenberg
declined to comment after the arraignment.
“A spokesman for Worcester
District Attorney John J. Conte said the allegations involved a
16-year-old male student, According to the police complaint, Ms.
Jennings had a sexual relationship with the student from about Oct.
1, 2003, through July 7. Police seized a computer and a digital zoom
camera as part of the investigation, according to the complaint…”84
Such a story on the front page
of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette had me wonder what people
would be saying now because I hear constantly that this paper only
reports priest stories. However, I wonder if the pattern hold with
priest stories in that we have the initial story and then hear
nothing more pattern-guilty till proven innocent?
I noticed that I had a prepared
statement practically memorized when I am asked: What do you do with
your day? I had my primary physician, Dr. Daniel Veno, who was a
former Catholic than joined a Christian Fundamentalist Church, ask
me this question: What do you do daily? Answer: I start my day at
5:00 a.m. with Divine Office, daily Mass (Eucharist) and rosary.
Then I spend time doing research and writing of my journal-book.
August 4, 2004
I have re-read Discipleship
and other works of Dietrich Bonhoeffer. It was material I had
studied in the seminary and have been re-reading this to add to my
I realized that in my
undertakings that I was living in the moment-one day at a time for a
direction. I has a passion for religion and searching to continue to
find answer to modern issues by research and reading to try to
answer issues in my mind and what discussions I may have I have a
peace of mind, friends and a feeling of given to others in present
life style. Many misfortunes are being reframed by me. I have to
admit difficulty, but not glossing over it. Bonhoeffer wrote “If you
admit that life is difficult, it becomes sorry.” I do elevate myself
over sadness and gander. I’m successful by digging into my tool
chest of talents and interests, figuring out where I fitted in. I
connect with others who can assists and whom I can assist. I have
been embracing continuous learning. Look at all expectations, I
recall reading. I asked many times of myself: What does God want me
to do” I was listening to my conscious
“Springfield Diocese accused of
cover-up” is reported in the “Digest” section of this day’s issue of
the Worcester Telegram & Gazette.
It reports: “Springfield-Man
saying he was molested by two priests as a teen has filed a civil
suit against the Springfield Diocese claiming that church leaders
destroyed personnel files and tried to cover up clergy sex abuse.
“The man filed his lawsuit a
week ago encamped Superior Court under the pseudonym John Doe. In
it, he claims he over heard retired Springfield Bishop Thomas Dupre,
then a priest say, say at a rectory meeting in1977 or 1978 that
‘priest feels previously maintained by Bishop Weldon had been
“Bishop Weldon retired as head
of the Roman Catholic diocese in 1977 and died in 1982.
“The man says he was abused for
two years, starting in1976, in the Bondsville section of Palmer, by
two priests who have since died. He claims the abuse began when he
was 15 and continued until he was 17.
“The man, now 43, told The
Republican in Springfield that he was serving refreshments to the
priests gathered at the rectory when he overheard Dupre.
“According to John Doe, the
Rev. Sylvio Lesque, pastor of St. Anne Parish in Three Rivers,
attended the meeting. But Levesque told the newspaper that he
couldn’t recall any discussion of destroyed files and didn’t
remember Dupre attending any of the regional meetings in Bondsville.”85
What had my eye on this story
was Three Rivers was where the Giza’s lived. They never mentioned
anything to me about this whenever I visited them. It was the
“unholy silence” of people that was interesting about the priest sex
abuse scandal. It was never mentioned which says a lot- the stories
were something that most people would read through in that most
cases were the money route or agendas against the Catholic Church.
I made it an effort to go back
on the Internet and see another review from the Tablet
on The Changing Face of the Priesthood.
This article I found was by
(Farther) Donald Cozzens. The Tablet writes: “When the
rector of St. Mary Seminary in Cleveland, Ohio, wrote a book which
highlighted the prevalence of homosexual orientation among
seminarians, he was criticized for disloyalty. Here he defends his
decision to expose the current crises in the Catholic priesthood.
“In the introduction to my
book, The Changing Face of the Priesthood, I acknowledged
that I was trying to write from my centre about what matter most to
me-the priesthood. Since the book’s publication, there have been six
printing to day totaling 35,000 copies. It is being read and
discussed in countries as far away as Papua New Guinea. In the
United States, the print and electronic media have paid considerable
attention to it. Many of the reviews in national publications have
been positive. It seems I have touched a nerve in writing what I
considered to be but one priest’ reflection on the priesthood’s
crisis of soul.
“I found myself moving into
dangerous waters, addressing issues and concerns that were painful
to write about and painful to read-yet issues and concerns
absolutely necessary to be written about. I wasn’t sure I had
anything new to say about the tragic issue of clergy misconduct with
minors. But I knew that we Catholics as a Church had only dealt with
the pastoral response to victims, families and perpetrators, and
after not well at all. We had yet to look at the underlying systemic
factors that contributed to, perhaps even fostered, the inexplicable
behavior of some priests, religious and bishops.
“The disproportionate number of
gay priests and seminarians had been pointed out at least a decade
ago by seasoned church observers. While not anew issue, it deserves
our attention, for it has serious implications for formation which
many, if not most, seminary faculties are reluctant to tackle. The
disproportionate number of homosexually oriented priests and
seminarians may well be a significant facto in the drastic reduction
in the number of candidates for our seminaries. It is right to
tackle these questions and it is especially appropriate for seminary
personnel to tackle their implications…”86
This was an issue when I was in
college-seminary. I recall my cousin, John J. Bish coming to the
college section of the seminary as a student while I was in the
major seminary. He words still resound: “What did you do to me to
suggest that I attend this college where the whole place is gay.” My
answer was: It was something he would be able to afford to pay for
college-at the time- and his discernment of becoming a priest.
I even recall that when I first
spoke with the Giza’s when I was first removed from the parish
saying: I don’t know what is going on but it will take at least 10
years-knowing the Church- before we get to see what is really
going on. Well, Cozzens and others are publicly issuing the
predominate fact of homosexuality issue in the priesthood. This,
then, I believe, has phenomenal affect on how one has to operate in
doing ministry. I had to admit that I did not have the skills of
“office politics” to begin my ministry being newly ordained. Adding
to that, it was customary to have dinner with the pastor and
resident priest followed by watching the news in the pastor’s suit.
This was expected to be done daily. When I tried to divert from this
procedure, I was transferred from the “Monsignors” assignment. It
was something else now that I was moved from it and able to become
Pastor on a one-man assignment. I think “the system” wanted me more
out-of-the-way than anything else. Why? I believe they knew that I
was not “wired” to most of the diocesan “brother’ priest. Therefore,
out of sight, out of mind.
August 5, 2004
I was thinking of dedicating
this book of mine to the “Twilight Zone with had Rod Sterling
saying: “Enter now…in the twilight zone.” The reason for such
thought was how Bishop Harrington recreated The Worcester Diocese
into a “Twilight Zone” of confusion, despair, guilt, doubt and other
I realize these are strong
words that I use here to attempt to describe the diocese. But, one
had to be here to see what this was occurring and one had to live
here to experience the overall atmosphere.
This was one of the hard
“pearls of wisdom” that one observes and wonders if such a situation
would ever be possible with a Church of Vatican II direction. I had
to realize whatever theories I had be educated with, human beings
were still human beings with authority and power.
What is occurring is society
has and always had and will continue to have scams going on.
Situations and reporting don’t tell the whole story.
August 8, 2004
I was at Barnes & Nobel,
Leominster and bumped into Martin and Kathy Niemi of Westminster. We
had a coffee and talked about what they were doing. Martin mentioned
how he was talking with Farther Kilcoyne this day (Sunday) and he
asked Kilcoyne about me. He said that Kilcoyne said that “He needs
his privacy.” Boy! It is an interesting statement to be telling
someone. Kilcoyne hasn’t spoken to me for a number of years. What I
picked-up from this was that the “System” with Rueger and a number
of priests were telling people this same statement: Father Kardas
needs his privacy. My interpretation: We (“System”) need to keep him
at bay and away. It is an interesting coded language that I didn’t
realize was being used to push-me out and make sure of it.
Martin Niemi said that he was
going to invite me over for a cook-out. I never heard from him.
Martin had the gift of double-talk.
August 10, 2004
In my meditation time during my
daily 3 mile walk, I realized that I was fighting the secular
reaction to the sex abuse crisis and the issue of the heterosexual
and homosexual sub-culture of the Church and the general society. It
was the ping-pong culture and was moving back and forth.
Another analogy was the
packaged picture where one paints by the numbers. It is of late that
I see how the organized system has answers or scenarios already in
place by “higher clergy” and the hierarchy-“highest order of clergy”
(Greeley)-to re-establish an absolute authority.
I, now, realized that when I
was newly ordained and worked in ministry with young people-who were
always around on trips and activities-was going to be used in a
totally different manner by the legal systems of the Church and
State. And when I tried to explain, I was prejudged. It now realized
that I had been in the wrong place, wrong time scenario.
August 11, 2004
I went back to another review
of The Changing Face of the Priesthood: A Reflection on the
Priest’s Crisis of Soul with Rovert J. Egan writing in
He says: “Donald B. Cozzens has
published one of the most honest and thoughtful reflections on the
state of the Roman Catholic priesthood in the United States that
have appeared so far. Cozzens is president-rector and professor of
pastoral theology at Saint Mary Seminary and graduate School of
Theology in Cleveland. Although brief, The Changing Face of the
Priesthood distills over thirty years of the author’s experience
as a priest, college teacher, spiritual director for priests, vicar
for clergy and religious and administrator and superior of a
“The most serious problem
facing us today in arriving at a more adequate understanding of the
priesthood, theologically and practically, is a widespread
inhibition of speech within the Catholic community. For various
reasons, to the great detriment of the church, its credibility, and
its mission, too many have felt reluctant or unable to say what they
see and what they think. Cozzens’ most important virtue is his
courage to say what his experience has taught him. For this alone,
his book deserves a wide and respectful readership.
“Cozzens sets aside, for the
most part, exegetical and systematic the theological questions, as
well as the subject of priests in religious orders and
congregations. He wants to make a contribution primarily from the
perspective of psychology and pastoral theology, and he is thinking
here mainly about diocesan priests. Within these limits Cozzens
accomplishes a great deal…”87
August 12, 2004
I was on the Internet and came
across an article by Jimmy Breslin of Newday.com on July 18,
2004 that had I stop for a moment to read and include in this
It was a “commentary” entitled
“A greater sin is the molesting of the money.” This was eye-opening
and surprising in that I have beensayi8ng for some time that the
only thing one can do wrong in the priesthood is “sex.” But, the
massaging of money is an issue of unmentionable quantity.
Breslin writes: “The priest,
Joseph Baker, said they were having a thought time. He was standing
outside the church of St. John the Martyr’s rectory which is on 71st
Street, around the corner from the church.
“ ‘It’s not as though as the
other,’ I said. By that, I meant the molesting charges that persist
and that are al over the church, from Manhattan to Portland, Ore.
“The anguish this time was
caused by St. John the Martyr’s pastor, Msgr. John G. Woolsey, 66,
who is accused of taking an 88-yer-old parish woman, Rose Cale, for
a half million dollars before she died last years. While at first it
seemed, as we said, much less distressing, than sexual charges, this
thought exchanged where a second look showed that money rules as
“What is unchanged is the woman
with a walker coming out of the church on Friday after saying her
prayers. She would give her name. She said she loved her pastor and
religion. It is an indescribable burden to assist in her eternal
hopes. To fail her by design is to risk you’re sour.
“People want the sex scandals
hidden behind the thickest drapers and all involved moved away. But
when somebody steals cash money, that ancient cry rings forth” ‘Stop
Interesting reading and knowing
that the organized element of the Hierarchical Church is slowly
realizing that the “People of God” need to realize they are
collaborators of all aspects of the Church. The days of “pay and
obey” is long over. Yet, there is a way to go for clerical and lay
people of work the money and planning issue in the open.
August 13, 2004
I noticed my name is removed
for the Diocesan Directory that was published at this time for
2004-2005. This is the first time this has been done. But I also
noticed that other priest on “Administrative Leave” were removed.
However, Father’s Bagley and Brendon O’Donoghue where listed as
“retired priest.” Amazing of watching how the system operates. It
begs the question: What did these two priests have on certain people
in that Worcester (Chancery) Gang? Was there one law for one group
and another for others? It was a time that I was seeing how the
Church operated in the shadow. Who is the victim? Father Lynch told
me in 1993 that the good and bad were being caught-up in the dragnet
going through the water. Through all of this, loneliness prevailed
and continued with me but with not the same sting that I experienced
earlier on in 1993.
I never was told anything about
this matter. Even more, I haven’t been speaking to for over two
years-last time with Bishop Reilly which was a “case” in itself. Was
it time for a civil matter? Was this another attempt to of the “
Well, here is an interesting
situation where the church hierarchy wins-whatever some people may
Arthur Jones is NCR
editor at large and gives us this piece “Priests say dismissal
lacked due process: Military chaplains lose post when archbishop
He writes this: “Two military
chaplains who are critical of church leaders for tolerating clergy
sex abuse lost their ‘ecclesial endorsement,’ apparently without
recourse to any form of due process and consequently lost their jobs
in the military.
“The endorsements for Air Force
Col. Thomas P. Doyle, A Dominican and Navy Capt. Eugene Goulka, a
monsignor, were withdrawn during the past year by Archbishop Edwin
F. O’Brien of the Archdiocese for the Military Services. Endorsement
by a religious institution is the method by which the Department of
Defense accepts a chaplain for duty.
“Both priests said they did not
receive a hearing. No avenues of due process were opened to pursue
the archbishop’s complaints against them, they neither told NCR
nor were they provided with the opportunity to explain or defend
“Both Doyle and Goulka, outside
their duties as military chaplains, have been critical of the U.S.
bishops’ addling of clerical sexual abuse matters.
“Fro nearly 20 years, Doyle has
publicly defended the rights of clerical sexual abuse victims and
criticized the U.S. bishops’ cover-up of a sexual abuse. Houlka, in
an Aug. 27, 2001, article in America magazine, ‘Home Alone in
the Priesthood,’ discussed sexual abuse by military chaplains and
the loneliness celibacy creates. (This is the first time that I am
aware of this article on Gomulka.)
“O’Brien did not cite their
activities around the sex abuse crisis as reason for dismissal.
“Doyle was told Sept. 17, 2003,
that his endorsement was being withdrawn because of a memorandum he
has sent as a canon lawyer to two other chaplains. The memorandum
gave an opinion on canon law as it applied to an instruction by
O’Brien to all chaplains regarding the provision of daily Mass and a
reserved space for the Blessed Sacrament. (This gets interesting to
follow when authority uses this argument.)
“Gomulka was told by O’Brien
last March 26 that his endorsement was being withdrawn because ‘it
has come to my attention via reliable sources that you intend to
retire form the Navy chaplaincy soon and thereafter attempt to enter
into marriage. I am so sufficiently certain of this information that
I must revoke immediately your endorsement (You’re fired.)
“Gomulka told NCR he had
neither made a firm decision to retire from the Navy nr to enter
into marriage. O’Brien, he said, offered no sources for his
information and no proof that retirement or marriage was Gomuka’s
I knew about Doyle story in the
80s. But, I did not know about Gomulka.
So this raises the question:
Why have any Canon Law? Better yet: How do such rumors as Gomulka
have about him get to the head of his specific ministry? Similar to
my situation, if the Church authorities want to get you, they will
do anything they want to do and call it “nothing” but your gone-
Worcester’s Poster Boy.
August 15, 2004
I had another one of those
notorious lunches with “Father Peacock,” This time he went on a
rampage of AA groups. He said: “Those people are sick and
disturbed.” He knew that I attended two meeting each week in Rindge
and periodically Jaffrey on Fridays. I reacted with a strong
rebuttal: These people going to AA meetings are good people. They
know they have an issue to deal with. How many people that go to his
Church on Sunday Mass know this fact?
August 18, 2004
My mind was "squirrelly” this
day. I was reflecting on reading in July of “cases” in Rome, Father
Al calling me saying he had heard noting of 7 months with his new
bishop in Hartford. In addition, where I was not listed in the
Diocesan Directory of this year had me getting back-on that roller
August 20, 2004
The Catholic Free Press
prints “Rulings uphold charitable immunity protection” reported by
He writes: “Springfield-A
Hampden County Superior Court justice has ruled in a civil suit
brought against the Diocese of Worcester that the diocese is
protected by the charitable immunity doctrine and cannot be liable
for damages of more than $20,000.
“The ruling handed down by
Justice John A. Agostini, is specific to the case brought by Jane
Martin against Father Robert E. Kelley and the Romans Catholic
Bishop of Worcester, a Corporation Sole.
“It came on pretrial motions
asking that portions of an affidavit submitted by Ms. Martin’s
counsel be stricken and seeking a summary judgment on the liability
to which the diocese could be subjected. The motions were presented
by Atty. James G. Reardon Jr. and Atty. Joanne Goulka on behalf of
the Worcester Diocese.
“Mr. Reardon said Justice A.
Agostini’s decision is not binding on other cases being brought
against the diocese is based on identical or similar issues. He sad
there are more than a dozen such cases against the diocese, all of
which have been placed under the supervision of Judge Jeffrey
Locker. He said Judge Locker has asked the diocese to file an
omnibus summary judgment motion in those cases. He said the diocese
filed its motion for summary judgment in the case brought by Ms.
Martin at the request of the court…”90
What is interesting to watch in
such a case is that there are many other cases in the diocese-other
diocese as well-that are seeking “big” money. So, Worcester Diocese
does a “checkmate” approach.
August 21, 2004
I had been thinking how I
responded to Dr. Zeman’s question of my priesthood being a vocation.
I knew he had difficulty understanding me by his facial expression.
I basically said my work is a total priesthood and that is a
vocation. It is not just a job, it is who I am. I live the values of
my eyes in my heart.
August 24, 2004
Kathleen A. Shaw in the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette writes “Church paper spurs battle:
Texas Abuse case lawyers seek to include document.”
She states: Is the 1962 Vatican
document called Crimen Solicitations a blueprint for the cover-up of
clergy abuse within the Catholic Church, or it merely an internal
policy manual for handling certain kind of abuses within the
sacrament of confession? (Boy! Are we digging into areas that have
no relevance for anything approach? I know that the Church operates
in coded language. But this implication by Shaw is off-target.)
Layers on both sides of the
issue are battling this issue out in the contact of several civil
lawsuits filed by alleged clergy abuse victims around the country.
“The issue moves to Washington,
D.C. today as the rev. John P. Beal, a canon layer who said he has
studied the Vatican document, is scheduled to be deposed this
morning I connection with a Texas civil suits involving the Rev.
Thomas H. Teczar of Dudley, Mass., a priest of the Diocese of
“A move to get the document
admitted in Massachusetts failed recently when a Springfield judge
ruled the document was irrelevant to a civil lawsuit alleging clergy
“The Texas suit is one of
several pending lawsuits in the United States in which lawyers for
alleged victims of clergy sexual abuse are attempting to get the
document authenticated and entered as evidence that would show a
worldwide conspiracy by the Catholic Church to cover up sexual abuse
“The Fort Worth, Texas and
Worcester diocese are arguing, however, that the document is
irrelevant to these cases and doesn’t constitute a conspiracy. Rev.
Beal agrees, and in an affidavit submitted in the Texas case said
the document is ‘no innovation.’
“Layers Tahira Han Merrit of
Dallas and Daniel J. Shea (Here he is!) of Houston, who represent
John Doe I and John Doe II in the suit, ordered the deposition to
question Rev. Beal on the document because he was he has studied it
and may be able to provide some salient information.
“James Gavin Reardon Jr.,
lawyer for the Diocese of Worcester, said the diocese will not
oppose the deposition, but said he was told the Texas judge put
restrictions on the ‘range of questions’ Ms Khan Merrit and Mr. Shea
will be allowed to asked Rev. Beal…”91
Boy! What gets interesting in
this is how Atty. Dan Shea appears on the screen. What really
happened with Shea and then Monsignor Dan Reilly (Bishop of
Worcester) in Providence, R.I. that Shea was a ordained a
“transitional Deacon” and never continued on to be ordained a
priest? Would one think that Shea had an “agenda” in the name of
justice? What has to be realized if it wasn’t Dan Shea going after
such a document interpretation, it would have been someone else. We
are talking about big money in suits.
August 25, 2004
I was reflecting how I was
living in the 70s which was when I began drinking. I recall in the
later 70s how I was hearing and dealing with “people, places and
things use. One thing of this time was that you would hear from “old
timers” that you drank and no excuse for that fact. I used to hear
if a person was blaming anyone for their drinking that it was
“cut-off” by someone saying Tell us about you’re drinking. We don’t
want to hear anything else.
I wanted to say but no one
would hear me-which took some time to realize that it was me and
only me. But I wanted to say” 1. I was considered a traitor to the
Polish cause being assigned to a territorial parish-there were more
Polish people at this parish than ¾ of the Polish Parishes in the
Worcester Diocese. 2. There was a homosexual sub-culture existing in
the priesthood at this time. 3. Rectory life was one an aristocratic
life style. Ex.: Dinner with a bell at the table for the maid to be
called. In addition the housekeeper was the Pastor’s “spy.” 4.
Ministry of compassion was alive in my heart but had to be something
else at times. 4. I had a motorcycle (trail bike) that made people
get their “Shoes tight” issue.
I developed to see issues in 3
or 4 different ways because of such experiences.
August 26, 2004
I was speaking with one of my
friends from Michigan-Sandy Peters. He was layman teaching for a
period of time but at this time was involved in being a stock
broker. He was really quiet when I spoke of the sub-culture issue
that I was living with in the rectory. He told me that there was
very little new on abuse in the Detroit Archdiocese. This was an
interesting perspective because I read periodically the Detrain
secular pear on the Internet. There was news of sexual abuse by
priest ands there was in Massachusetts. I mentioned that to him. He
was quiet. I did say that there is a “blizzard” of information that
I have accumulated for a book and it has taken a time to sort-out.
It was better to speak about
baseball-Red Sox- and the New England Patriots.
August 30, 2004
I was reading Doonesbury’s
cartoon where we have B.D. (character) being described: He is slowly
coming to terms with the different ness of being disabled. It’s been
hard for him, but he’s trying to improve his attitude. B.D. states
that he is “Rich! Why, yes. Yes I am so
This may be a summary somewhat
of what I was experiencing of late. I realized that I was richer
than I ever thought I would be. Why? I have some aspect of my
dignity reaming in my personhood and being a priest.
September 1, 2004
I had an interesting coffee
conversation with a lawyer friend of mine. He made a number of
interesting remarks on his part about gay priest. It was obviously
on his mind for this coffee because he wanted it known: Doesn’t care
about a priest is, as long as he is able to receive the sacraments.
He made it a point by saying: I want and only want and look at the
priest to give me the sacraments- gas station Catholic and don’t
He, actually, was somewhat
defensive in saying that he doesn’t care if a “sub-culture of
priest” exist. He may be categorized as being a sacramental Catholic
and didn’t want to be drawn into anything else. I wonder about such
people in that they may be professional and run a conservative
agenda of their way or the highway because they have made it in
their minds as being professional They don’t want to be challenged
by the Christians Gospels or any other issue of faith and morals
and their block of thinking.
I was surprised that how he
even ran the conversation about Bishop Rueger alleged victim: This
guy was proven a nut. I did say to him if he noticed how the
Worcester Chancery and certain others circle around Rueger when he
was accused. I, also, was thinking but did not say how this same
Worcester Chancery group did not go after any other people that
claimed to be victims. He did end the conversation by saying that so
many kids were hurt.
What I was surprised in part of
the conversation was how this lawyer made a remark about me writing
my journal and addressing or even mentioning anything as a gay
sub-culture in the priesthood. He became somewhat strong in saying
if I went in that direction that many people that “loved” me would
be totally turned away from me. What was more baffling was I have
been very careful about talking such an issue that the media has
highlighted very much of late. I began to wonder what other clergy
he may have been speaking with about the “crisis” situation. It had
me more than wondering. Here was another case of “Hardening of the
I was thinking at this point in
our conversation if his two boys ever thought about becoming priest
or that he ever talked to them about such a vocation. I didn’t go
Another guy I knew from St.
Edward’s told me that with an abuse crisis yet unresolved, the
church leaders presume preaching sexual morality to a perplexed
September 3, 2004
A very interesting essay
appeared in this days issue of National Catholic Reporter
entitled “Priests and the crisis of hope within the church” by (Fr.)
Timothy Radcliffe. This paper begins with the explanation: “This
is an excerpt from the first of two talks Timothy Radcliffe
delivered to the National Federation of Priests’ Councils in
Atlanta, Ga. The complete text of both lectures appeasers in the May
27 issue of Origins, a collection of documents and speeches
published weekly by Catholic News Service and the U.S. Conference of
“I have been asked to speak
with you about how we may be the bearers of good news. And this
implies we are ourselves touched by a certain joy. If you are grim
and sad, then who is going to believe that the Gospel is good news?
Nietzsche said that the disciples of Jesus should look a bit more
Radcliffe’s statements are
printed in this essay. He presents another aspect that is most
This same issue carried parts
of (Fr.) Richard McBrien by: “The following is a combined edited
version of three successive columns written by Fr. Richard McBrien…
“The May 27 issue of Origin
contains two talks on the priesthood by Fr. Timothy Radcliffe,
former master general of the Dominican order, given in April at the
annual convention of the National Federation of Priests’ Councils.
“Although I have never had the
pleasure of meeting Radcliffe, he has an enviable reputation inside
and outside the worldwide Dominican community. May regard him as man
of extraordinary spiritual dept-a compliment that is too often
cheapened by overuse and indiscriminate application…
“Perhaps it is because of
Radcliffe’s reputation that I found myself somewhat disappointed
with the talks, notwithstanding their many splendid insights and the
obviously healthy spirit and thoughtful tone that permeate them.
“The first presentation,
‘Priests and the Crisis of Hope Within the Church,’ identifies three
cause of demoralization among priests first, the distance between
the teaching church and the experience of most ordinary Christians
with whom the priest lives; second, the ‘acute polarization’ that
exists within the Catholic church; and tired, the negative effects
of the sexual abuse scandals.
“The problem with this (his)
analysis is that it begs some underlying questions.
“First, why does a distance
exist between the official teaching of the church and so many
‘ordinary Christians,’ and why do so many priests agree with their
parishioners on the matter?
“Second, what is the cause of
the polarization that currently divides the Catholic Church and
creates the kind of demoralization, at both clerical and lay levels,
of which Radcliffe speaks.”
“And third, why did we have a
sexual abuse scandal” Was it simply a matter of ‘a few bad apples’
in the priesthood (the same defense offered in response to charges
of prisoner abuse in Iraq), or is there an overarching systemic
problem as well...
The subtitle of this article
is: “Analysis of priests’ demoralization skirts underlying questions
about hierarchical power” with a summary of quote of McBrien’s in
the middle of this page: “Polarization occurs in the absence of
dialogue but dialogue presupposes some measure of equality.”93
Bingo! I never experienced any
dialogue or respect of any equality with the Harrington and Rueger
type. Rueger may have had some with certain group of priest in the
diocese. I was never part of anything of that. Harrington and even
Reilly used the authority vertical approach and only that approach.
The Catholic Free Press had a
front page story “Pope meets with N.E. bishops-Church can heal from
abuse wounds by John Thavis.
He writes: “Vatican City
(CNS)-Addressing bishops for Worcester, Boston and other New England
dioceses, Pope John Paul II said he was confident that the church in
the United States could heal the wounds caused by the sex abuse
“While the cases of priestly
abuse have ‘cast a shadow’ on the church they must never be allowed
to weaken Catholics’ public witness of faith and hope, the people
“At the same time, the pontiff offered special
words of encouragement to the many good priests he said have
‘suffered deeply because of much-publicized failings of some of the
“The pope made the comments in
a text that he read in part to some 25 bishops, including
Worcester’s Bishop McManus and retired Bishop Reilly during a
meeting at his summer residence outside Rome. The pope had been
meeting individually all week with the prelates, who were on their
‘ad lamina’ visits to the Vatican…”94
There were no new insights to
offer because it seemed that it was business as usual with the
September 6, 2004
I was going through my personal
library and came accords the book Power and Authority in the
Catholic Church: Cardinal Cody in Chicago by Charles Dahin &
Robert Librelandi, 1981, University of Notre Dame Press.
The Forward states: Ecclesia
simper reformed est. S., he (the author) asks: “Do the day-to-day
administration and decision making procedure of the Catholic Church
offer Christian virtues? How wide is the gap between gospel ideal
and the administration routine used to implement them? To what
extent do contemporary institutional forms blur Christ’s message of
the Gospel message? The bad news, born by the investigation is that
the Church has capitulated to secular norms of administration…Worst
of all, so few of them realize they are enmeshed in a dubious web of
myth and ideology that continues to legitimate monarchical
domination of priest and people by priest. (pg. viii)…
“Richard A. Schaenberr (p. x):
One may be given to cautious optimism by these slim pieces of
evidence (results of author’s evidence) because they raise some
doubts that the whole church is hopes sly wired in its own
institutional contradictions. In any case, there are sure to get
worse before the get better. (p. x) The youth drama taking place in
Chicago…The clergy as a body is losing energy and idealism,
procedures usually associated with youthful members. The analysis
shows that as the average age of American Catholic priest continues
to rise (by the end of the century, 40 percent of the active
diocesan clergy will be over 55, in contrast to 1970 of about 23
percent was noted 59. The theology will also grow relatively more
conservative. (pg. xiii). Priests, religious and laity should learn
the political skills necessary to apply due pressure, persuasive and
priorities in order to achieve their cherished goals. They must
learn the lessons of defeat, compromise, frustration and the habits
of victory. But, they must learn the pattern of
apathy, cynicism and retreat. Above all, the
laity should awake to the reformist potential of its own economic
This is interesting seeing this
in the newspaper “New fund honors Rueger.”
Here is what the Worcester
Telegram & Gazette printed: Worcester-Auxiliary Bishop George E.
Rueger will be honored Sept 26 at the 110th anniversary
celebration of St. Vincent de Paul Society with inauguration of the
Bishop Rueger Fund for the Poor. The fund is being
established in Bishop Rueger’s honor because of his work in ‘being a
champion of the poor’ (Rueger never did anything but school work0
and guiding the society in this Vincentian work.
“The event will begin with a
Mass of Thanksgiving at 5 p.m. at St. Paul Cathedral, High Street. A
cocktail four and dinner will follow at the Beechwood Hotel.
“Frances E. Pike, society
executive director said, ‘He has over the past many years shown us
by his example and witness that justice and charity are pillars of
the life of faith.’ The fund, administered by the Society of Vincent
de Paul, will contribute to needy families or a special cause each
Rueger made a few priest poor.
Therefore, a fund developed for others was being established?
Frances Pike was a member of
St. George’s Parish when I was an Associate with Rueger in
residence. Pike was everywhere Rueger would be in the “coffee shop”
on Sunday mornings. One had to see the act Pile and Rueger portrayed
even with her husband standing next to her.
So, some people in the
Worcester Chancery needed to make a “fund” to exemplify Rueger of
“He has over the past many years shown us by his example and witness
that justice and charity are pillars of the life of faith.”
I wonder if Fran Pike was on
Mars or some other place but earth. If on earth, it must have been
in a far, far distant land.
September 7, 2004
I was reading on the Internet
of a priest in Australia of a Vicentian priest that reports a
“complaint” was made by a parishioner stating the priest was unfit
for ministry with children. The priest was history. There was no
September 9, 2004
I was reading Goodbye, Good
Men: How Liberal Brought Corruption into the Catholic Church by
Michael S. Rose (2002). I read about half of this book in my first
sitting because I had to get it back to the library. Amazed somewhat
that it about the 1990’s mentioning the struggle orthodox priest
Thinking about my conversation
of few days ago with my lawyer friend with a footnote of Chapter 4:
“The Gay Subculture: One law first alone won financial settlement
for its clients against at least 45 priest and 5 brothers from
religious orders, according to the lead attorney I those cases,
Roderick MacLeish, Jr. ‘Scores of priests involved in Sex Abuse
Cases’ in The Boston Globe, June 31, 2002 (p. 250-251).
This concept was more out there
than I thought it was. The lawyer friend was reacting to me about
this “gay subculture” button than I thought about.
September 10, 2004
The Worcester Telegram &
Gazette printed “Settlement reached in Kelly suit: Abuse was
alleged at St. Cecilia’s (Leominster).”
Gary V. Murray wrote:
“Worcester-The Worcester Diocese has reached an out-of-court
settlement with an Idaho woman who filed a civil lawsuit two years
ago alleging she was sexual abused as a child by the Rev. Robert E.
“Terms of the recently
settlement were not disclosed by a lawyer for the diocese, who said
yesterday the settlement was one of seven reached in the last
several months between the diocese and plaintiffs in clergy sexual
“The woman, Denise Hanrahan,
was one of two remaining plaintiffs in a suit files in 2002 in
Middlesex Superior Court transferred last month to Worcester
Superior Court. Ms. Hanrahan alleged that she was sexually abused by
Rev. Kelley between1976 and 1983, when the Catholic priest was
assigned to St. Cecilia’s Parish in Leominster.
“The abuse allegedly occurred
at various locations, including the church rectory and in New
Hampshire, according to the lawsuit…”96
September 12, 2004
“The People’s Forum”
(Letters-To-The-Editor) enclosed this letter from Herbert J. answers
of Douglas entitled “St. John’s Church has many burden.”
He writes: “My original idea
for this letter was to answer a question posed by former President
Ronald Reagan, for whom I voted twice. ‘Are you better off today
than you were four years ago?’ with a resounding, ‘no.’
“But the ceiling collapsed in
our place of worship, and two things came to mind more important
than any election: Thanks God no one was in church at the time, and
how many crosses are the good people of St. John’s expected to
“It has been more than two
years since our pastor was put on leave. We had nightly vigils and
written many letters to our bishop asking him to hear the Rev.
Joseph Coonan’s’ side other accusations.
“I hope the damage to St.
John’s Church is repairable and completed swiftly and safely, but
more important, I pray for the parish of St. John’s and the many
burdens placed upon it.”
What this guy doesn’t get:
There was a dragnet going through the water and it scooped the good
and the bad.
September 13, 2004
The door bell rings at 4:45
p.m. with a gray Ford parked across the street. My first thought was
the time I had the State Police Detectives questioning me about the
Molly Bish situation.
It was a state police office in
civilian cloths asking if I was Thaddeus J. Kardas. He had a summons
from the Grand Jury of Molly Bish. It stated that I was to appear at
the Worcester Superior Court for Sept 24th at 9:00 a.m.
I invited this State Police
Officer in to get always from the door mainly so that the neighbors
would not have any conversation. I told him that I was priest. He
said: “Oh! I didn’t know.” He explained the procedure and how I had
to call a Mr. Greco to confirm the appointment.
It kicked everything up, again.
My finger became cold and I weakness overcame me with a weakness
where I had to sit down. I wondered what to do to slow down the
mental engine that was racing.
I wondered if I was going to
have to tell my story. Would they ask questions as: Was Molly a free
spirit teenager? Did I say: Watch out for her? Was I going to be
asked what happened at the Easter Dinner when John, Magi, Mickey
Bish were at the dinner table and Molly walked out to the family car
and drove away? Molly was only 15 years old.
My emotions began to start-up
to what I experienced during the 1993 period of time. I had nothing
to hide. I lived in keeping everything out in the open so that
information was there and nothing hidden or deceitful. I would not
withhold any information in any questions that I might have been
asked. But the anxiety issue did go through me for a few hours. I
did notice that my back became tense and I began the back pains
which I had experienced at the parish with the Easter holidays and
those notorious “interrogations’ with the Worcester Chancery Gang.
I noticed that I reverted to an
orderly day to finish a number of projects I had in writing and
September 15, 2004
I read on the Internet of
Catholic News Service description of an effective “Servant Leader.”
It mentions that such a leader knows what’s best towards faith in
people: 1. Give resources 2. Give them a sense of direction 3. Give
them a sense of ownership 4. Just have tremendous faith that they
can figure it out.
It was my approach of what I
did in the parish and ministry as a priest. It was encouraging that
at one time, I was hitting these buttons.
Keble-Ross died this month of
September. I reflected how the five stage she identified in “Death
and Dying” were also adapted to the struggle with grief. It was a
process. The stages she identified: Denial, Anger, Bargaining,
Depression and Acceptance were part of the pop-culture lexicon as
well as academic theories. It was something that I reviewed
September 18, 2004
It rained very heavy all day
since around midnight until approximately. 2:00 p.m., that was the
reminisce of Hurricane-Ivan. This past week was somewhat of an
emotional roller coaster, It was the issue of September 24
attendance at the Grand Jury.
I set myself to get back to
writing. When I get in the writing jag, my mind becomes evolved in
my journal and memoirs by getting specific in writing and overall
involvement. My disposition, I felt, was becoming positive. I
recalled the mantra of …and Sunday is coming!
I felt better by going forward
with my afternoon 3 mile walk to clears my head. I followed up with
do my floor exercise after the walk. I became stronger in attitude.
I noticed in reading Those
Honored Dead: How the story of Gettysburg Shaped American Memory
Those Honored Dead: How the story of Gettysburg Shaped American
Memory by Thomas A. Desjardin (2003).
One section, I re-read: “There
is no ‘what really happened at Gettysburg?’ Only a mountain of
varying, often contractor accounts that are seldom in accord, all
tainted in some way or other by memory, bias, politics, ego , or a
host of there factors. (John Badge Bacheden-Kept story alive.)
This brought to mind this whole
sex abuse crisis that we have and are experiencing for over a
We read in the Worcester
Telegram & Gazette “Rev. Holley stays in prison: New Mexico
board denies parole for Worcester priest” by Kathleen A. Shaw.
She writes: “Worcester-The Rev.
David A. Holley, a priest of the Worcester Diocese serving a hail
term in New Mexico after pleading guilty to sexually abusing and
raping eight boys there, has been denied parole and will remain
“Ella Frank, executive director
of the New Mexico’s parole board, said the three people how heard
Rev. Holly plea for release all voted to keep him in prison in Los
Lunas, N.M., where he as served 11 years of a 35-to275-years jail
“The decision was not to be
released until Monday, but the parole board decided instead to
release its findings Thursday.
“At a parole hearing Tuesday,
three of Rev. Holley’s New Mexico victims testified against
releasing the priest. The national leadership of Survivors Network
of Those Abused by Priests and its former New England leader, Phil
Saviano-an alleged victim of Rev. Holley in the Worcester
Diocese-sent a letter to the parole board asking that he not be
September 19, 2004
I noticed or better felt my
back and shoulders were getting tighter and feeling picky. It was I
needed a rub-down. I knew why. The Grand Jury appearance on Friday-
September 20, 2004
“Diocese want Rev. Holley out:
Persona letters detailing priest’s situation obtained by T &G”
reported by Kathleen A. Shaw stating: “Worcester-Bishop Bernard J.
Flanagan in 1971 decided that one reason the Rev. David A Holley
should go into the care of Servants of the Paraclete in New Mexico
or some other location operated by the order was because they would
be able to find a placement for him after he completed treatment,
the bishop said in a letter written at the time.
“Rev. Holley, denied parole
last week, is now serving a 55-to 275-year prison sentence in New
Mexico for sexually abusing and raping eight boys here.
“Although Rev. Holley was taken
in as a priest of the Worcester Diocese in1962 and incardinated
in1967 (Joke in the diocese: What the world refuses, Worcester uses)
which means he became a priest of the diocese, he proved to be
problematic because of his history of sexually molesting boys,
Bishop Flanagan and Auxiliary Bishop Timothy J. Harrington clearly
did not want him back in the diocese although no move was made to
remove him permanently from the priesthood, the letter show.
“His relationship with the
Worcester Diocese is detailed in the series of personal letters
obtained by the Telegram & Gazette.
“Bishop Flanagan in a March 15,
1971, letter to Rev. Holley, who was then in Pittsburgh, said he
discussed the situation with Bishop Harrington and they agreed to
suggest that Rev. Holley go to ‘one of the houses of the Paraclete
Fathers-either Via Coeli in New Mexico or one of their other
hospices. They now have some professionally directed programs of
therapy so that you could continue whatever treatment is
When I read this, it was
something I never heard about or existed. It was one of those issues
that no one, I guess, ever talked about. There was priest talk about
“Dry-Out Murphy’s” which was for priest with alcohol problems.
September 21, 2004
I was talking with another
priest who told me that he attended an interesting panel discussion
if sex abuse by priest at Holy Cross College. He told me to go on
the Internet and check “Google” about this. I did.
It was conducted on March 31
and appeared in the Worcester Telegram & Gazette of March 21st
on page B3.
The announcement read: “Worcester-The college
of the Holy Cross will hold a free panel discussion on ‘Aftermath:
The Abuse Crisis and the ministry of Priests’ at 7 p.m. March 31 in
the Rehm Library at the college. The discussion is open to the
“The Rev. William Mendel,
interim pastor of Nativity Church of Merrimack, the Rev. Kenneth
Brown, pastor of St. Margaret of Scotland I St. Louis, and the Rev.
William Campbell, campus minister at Holy Cross, will discuss how
abuse by fellow priests has affected their work and life as priests
and how they see their own future in the aftermath of the
The priest that gave me this
clipping from the paper said he sat through it and was not impressed
because he heard the panel dealing with their issues more from a
personal nature and agendas. This would make sense but he felt it
was not constructive with a very small audience in attendance. He
described the group in the seats as Personalities-P8s.
September 22, 2004
I had coffee with “Father
Peacock.” He explained how he had a minor procedure this past week
that put him under with anesthesia. He explained how he was told to
count back from5 and got to 4 and he was out. He said: “That’s how
it all ends.” I was surprised to her this from a priest to say it is
He didn’t explain or want to
talk about what the procedure was all about or anything. I wondered
about this guy’s technique he uses as a divergence. He told me he
had to have another procedure in December.
This was where I became
wondering if he was playing the “sick note” for ministry dogging. He
did tell me his gallbladder was OK. I wondered why he even gave me
such a quick answer of the procedure and would be continued in
December. What was happening? Now, this is where I get interesting:
What is really happening, if anything at al? I have known this guy
for over 20 years. He is an expert on keeping a spotlight on
something else than what is at stake.
September 24, 2004
I was called as a witness for
the Molly Bish’s Grand Jury in Worcester Superior Court. I had a
tuff night of sleeping. My back was sore because I know of stress
and anxiety. Bit, I ended with an attitude of answer the questions
with a dignified manner and as best as I am able to answer any
issues asked of me.
I was in the Grand Jury Room
for 5 minutes. Before I was called, the assistant DA let me read my
questions and answers that I had done with the two State Police
Detectives in my place. When he came back for me to enter, he asked
for the sheet which I had folded and had in sport jacket pocket. It
was interesting in that he wanted to know where it was. I thought it
was for my records. It was not. One item of this copy of my
deposition of three pages that I read was John Bish introduced me
into the data base. He took the deposition back. This deposition was
from February 22, 2002 with State Police detectives Stephen E. Kelly
and Heather DiPasquali.
What was peculiar in that there
had to be approx. 25 to 30 people on this Grand Jury seated in 3
rows of chairs in a semi-circle? I was directed to a docket that was
an open space with only two-by-fours in a skeleton structure. I was
giving the oath by a stenographer.
I was asked what relationship
did I have with Molly Bish? What type of work I did-Roman Catholic
priest of Worcester Diocese. What kind of car did me drive-Green
Toyota 1997 Camry? How often at the Bish home-Holiday and few other
times. Did I see the Bish children alone-No. Were the parents of
Molly, John and Magi responsible parents-Yes. It was asked by the
Assistant DA if there were any questions from the Grand Jury. There
was none. Then I was asked the 5 minutes of questions. Told “Thank
you” and out I went.
I observed that there was one
woman in the middle of Grand Jury members that was taking notes on a
stenographer notebook. A couple people were reading their
The assistant DA walked out
behind me and escorted me into the hall way. He spoke with me that
they were sorry if this had any concern on my part and that was not
why I was called. He said: I’m sorry we had to do this with you.
But, you were in the data base. There was no real reason for you to
be here. I am sorry to have put you through this. They had to follow
this procedure. It is over for you. You don’t have to deal with
this, again. You have other issue to deal with. Thank you. Bye.
This had me wondering
in why he came out to speak privately in the hallway and manner he
My lawyer friend called me to
see how I was and word of encouragement on my answering machine.
The Assistant DA’s question was
nothing more than identity and where was I that day. This was when I
realized that I was considered a suspect. I was drained when I
walked out of the Superior Court building.
I received a check of $10.21
September 27, 2004
I attended the Big E in West
Springfield with “Father Peacock.” He was nervously asking me after
I explained how writing my daily journal was very helpful in seeing
certain patterns of reflections and actions on my part. He asked me:
“Am I in the journal, today, with this trip.” I said: No! My writing
is about the hierarchy and other issues of the abuse of authority as
must forget me with “We will call you.” He followed up with another
question: How do you remember all this you say about the Civil War
book, Those Honored Dead. I answered that by writing daily it
sharpens me recall and what I read.
One of the things I noticed was
how jumpy he was and it was affecting his driving. I wondered if
maybe he read about Bishop Dupre’s trips to NH and taking ‘youths”
to Canada. “Father Peacock” used to take a couple youth in the
Retreat House in Canada near the ski resort. This story about the
bishop has been around for a whole week and repeated by the media a
number of times.
He changed the
topic-control/fear technique- by telling me: Attorney Garabidian has
just five over a batch of allegations to the Archdiocese of Boston.
I said nothing. I used the silence technique.
September 29, 2004
I was watching the evening news
on Channel 5-Boston with an attorney saying that it takes 30 years
for someone to come forward on abuse issues. My fear buckets started
filling-up on hearing this story. Was this what the Assistant DA
meant last Friday that I had other issues to deal with?
Adam Gorlick of The Associated
Press reported in the Worcester Telegram & Gazette front page
“Bishop indicted for rapes: Springfield DA says trail cannot be
“Springfield-District Attorney William Bennett said yesterday he
will not prosecute former Springfield Bishop Thomas Dupre for child
rape charges because the statute of limitations has expired.
“In a grand jury indictment
unsealed yesterday, Dupre was charged with molesting tow boys in the
1970s, becoming the first Roman Catholic bishop to face criminal
charges in the sex abuse scandal in the American church.
“However, the grand jury
returned indictment related directly only to child abuse and not to
other possible charge, such s witness tampering and obstruction of
justice. Without those indictments, Bennett said he was precluded
from pursing the case because the statue of limitations at time of
the alleged crimes was six years.
“‘Even with probable cause,
there was a strong possibility that prosecution of such allegations
could be barred by the statue of limitations,’ Bennet said.
“However, Bennett said he will
turn information over to authorities in New Hampshire, New York and
Canada, where some of the abuse allegedly took place. Bennett said
statue of limitation laws in those jurisdictions may not apply to
Nothing was ever reported on
this in the local media and seemed to drop-off the screen. There
seems to be an issue with the media-saturation of a story- and then
Another front page article in
the same paper “Offender priest got outsources Masses: Bishop
Forwarded special requests.”
Kathleen A. Shaw writes this
article: “Worcester-Bishop Bernard J. Flanagan outsourced to the
Rev. David A. Holley Masses that Catholics of the Worcester Diocese
sought for special intentions while the priest was undergoing
treatment in New Mexico for sexually abusing and raping eight boys
The information about the
Masses was in an affidavit that Rev. Holley, a priest of the
Worcester Diocese, signed under oath in 1993 as part of a civil
lawsuit brought in New Mexico by his victims in that state. The
eight men alleged they were sexually abused by Rev. Holey in the
Alamagordo area after he was sent to a now-defunct treatment center
operated by the Servants of the Paraclete, a male religious order.
“‘People in the Worcester
Diocese would send in donations-usually $3 to $5- for Masses to be
said for a love one,’ Rev. Holley said in the affidavit. ‘However,
Worcester is a small diocese, and the priests there could not
accommodate all the Mass intentions.
“‘Therefore, Bishop Flanagan
sent the donations and prayer requests to me in New Mexico with
instructions that I, as a priest of the Worcester Diocese pray for
the Worcester parishioners by saying Masses for them in New Mexico
to fulfill their spiritual intentions,’ he said.
“Rev. Holley said that while in
New Mexico he regularly said these Masses ‘pursuant to Bishop
Flanagan’s instructions’ in the Paraclete chapel in Albuquerque.
Bishop Flanagan, who died in 1998, also sent Rev. Holley the Mass
stipends-the offerings Catholics make for an Mss-and the Mass
“Raymond L. Delisle, spokesman
for the diocese, said he could not speak for what may have happened
back then but that he does to believe the diocese is currently
When I read this and with
Delisle’s comment, it was a situation that Bishop Flanagan did for
his priest. It most likely was the $3-Low Mass stipend. One has to
know that a priest is able to accept one stipend per day for Mass he
is offering. This guy was not going far on the $3 or $5 a day. If
anything, Bishop Flanagan was using his brotherly outreach to a
“brother priest” which was even part of Church Canon Law of a bishop
with his priest. Holley must have had “facilities” (permission) to
say Mass even with the situation being what it was at that time.
If anything, it makes Bishop
Flanagan look compassionate even to such a person that was allegated.
However, the local media would turn that around in a moments notice.
September 30, 2004
I was thinking that wouldn’t it
be something to get Penguin Press to publish my work? The penguin
was representing the old structure of Church with the religious
sisters. They deserve a lot more respect for what they experienced
and contributed for the Church for so many years.
I had to hear “Father Peacock”
tell me that priest in the “active ministry” or “on the job” with
this: “We are only protecting ourselves and doing the minimum.” This
was his mantra since I knew him. I knew him only doing enough to be
recognized by the bishop to become a Monsignor. It was a classic
study to watch his techniques and approaches at meetings and in
October 1, 2004
I noticed in my writing and
refection that I was thinking the way that I should have answered
certain questions and situations now that they have occurred. I
guess this is one of the benefits or rewards of journaling. One
learns as one evolves in anything one undertakes. This is a good
example. The best response of late, I noticed, in me has been to
keep quiet. Let others talk. I choose my responses with a lot more
clarifications and thought. I even have developed the answers of
only a “Yes” or a “No.” Then wait for a response, saying nothing
What I have found reading John
L. Allen, Jr. of the National Catholic Reporter has been that
the atmosphere in the Church and especially Rome has repeatedly
stressed that a bishop is supreme in his diocese, making it almost
impossible to compel a bishop to follow anything simply but only by
Pope’s direction. Here is the case of top-management in this day and
age of the Church. It is a model that is very new in the history of
the Catholic Church.
The Catholic Free Press
carried two stories in this week stories of the atmosphere of the
The first article “Catholics
engaging I personal attacks, says archbishop” reported: “St. Paul,
Minn. (CNS)-The ‘fusillade of personal attacks’ in the current
presidential campaign is infection the debate over issues among
Catholics, said Archbishop Harry J. Flynn of St. Paul-Minneapolis.
‘One wonders why the Christian values of charity toward one another
and the American value of fair play have been abandoned,’ he wrote
in a Sept 23 column in The Catholic Spirit, his archdiocesan
“ ‘This uncharitable, biased
and reckless substitute for what formerly was fair-minded commentary
and fact-based dialogue has found its venomous way into our Catholic
family,’ he wrote…”103
The other article, in this same
issue, was “Theologian says be careful not judge politicians.”
John Thavis writes: “Rome
(CNS)-It is generally very difficult for theologians to impute
sinful behavior to politicians based on their position on abortion,
and even more difficult when it comes to voters sad a respected
Redemptions Father Brian
Johnston, an Australian moral theologian, said that in the current
U.S. debate over politics and abortion, church authorities should be
careful not to prejudge the consciences of whole categories of
“The circumstances of the
abortion-politics issue are often so complex that ultimately it’s
the individual Catholic who must weigh all the factors and ‘take
personal responsibility for his own seeking the truth,’ Father
Johnston said in an interview Sept 23…”104
October 2, 2004
I had lunch with “Father
Peacock” which was a shift on his locked-pattern to call me. He
began by giving me a sullen dig on my priesthood. He said that if
they called back priest that left the ministry, ordain Deacon and
there would be no shortage of priest. But, he had to finish by
expressing with: “Except those who can’t be called back, like you!”
He said this with such an angry facial expression. He tried to put
me into place I was wondering what was this all about. Was it
jealousy of the type of person that I am or what?
This had me wondering if there
was something other major happening to him. He never mentioned
anything more of his exploratory procedures that he had gone through
Then he told me how he was
taking a Deacon candidate for a retreat with him to Canada. He had
to stress that no on knew that he was doing this. What I realized
was that he does this ‘brain controlling” technique with one person
at a time approach. It is frightening to watch how he operated. I
know he tired to do something similar to me some years back. I
fought him off by showing him I was my own person even being on
When I hear him going on a
“roll” of something, I think how lucky I am able to go back to my
place and breathe: Give me a break. This was not possible living in
a rectory surrounding.
I was watching how the “wax was
getting harder” with certain clerics that I knew.
I watched an interview with Joe Califano
(Secretary of Transportation) where he said that it took him 4 ½
years to write his memoirs.
It was good to her this because
I have been struggling to write my text. I never realized how much
material overall I had accumulated in this task. I also learned to
type my original daily journal on the computer. Previously, I would
long hand write my daily journals. Then I would transfer and type my
work on the Word program –computer. I have learned as I went along
with this writing. Only this task of immediate computer impute has
saved substantial time.
October 3, 2004
I had been having sleeping
issues of late. I would wake-up at 3:00 a.m. after 5 hours sleep. I
would room along and began getting-up at 4:00 a.m. I knew my mind
had me currying about being rejected and dumped overall by the
diocese. In addition, when I went to lunch once a week with “Father
Peacock” and letting him rent space in my head.
I figured that I would give
myself a gift for 60th birthday and clean this out. An
example of late was how I carried “Father Peacock” remarks for three
days at least. I noticed that I would express a “Poker face”
expression when he was ramping. But, there must have been times when
my facial expression would show: Give me a break. Who do you think
you are kidding expression? I noticed that was when I would get a
I realize that II didn’t need
to put-up with this. My only contact overall with Church-Worcester
Diocese was at a price. I was gradually realizing this was enough. I
was thinking and operation other ways.
October 7, 2004
I received a birthday card from
Mrs. Joanne Curtin: “Dear Father, Add up all the nice things you’ve
done, and all the people like me who think so much of you…and you’re
one of the wealthiest people I know! Happy Birthday”105
I received this card and even
saved it for my file for one of those times when I get the regular
aspect of life when there is “gloom-and-dome” realizing the I am
“one of the wealthiest people”
I have a core of friends and
acquaintances where I have to realize makes me being fortunate in
I celebrated my 60th
birthday and said my daily Mass “In Thanksgiving” because my overall
health is good and with the circumstances, things are not that bad.
Yes, they could be better. I still have been able to maintain some
sense of dignity by realizing that my priesthood has a cost of
October 7, 2004
I celebrated my 60th
birthday this day. I’m glad to be alive and grateful for all the
people in my life. This is a true blessing and gift.
October 8, 2004
My issue of the National
Catholic Reporter arrived and I read John L. Allen, Jr. “Word
from Rome” column.
He writes: “American bishops
form the New York area is in Rome this week for their ad lumina
visit to the pope and officials of the Roman Curia. I sat down with
Bishop Howard Hubbard of Albany at the North American College Oct.
6. Hubbard told me that so far, the sexual abuse crisis has loomed
large in conversations with Vatican officials. ‘We were mainly the
ones raising the issue.’ Hubbard said. “We wanted to be sure that
they understand the challenges we face with the media, the legal
system, public elations, and the mood of our people.’
“From the Vatican side, he said
two concerns have surfaced: priestly morale and questions of
procedure for priests charged with abuse.
“‘The encouraged us to take
special opportunities to affirms and support our priests, to bond
with them in these difficult days.’ Hubbard said.
“Hubbard said the Vatican is
concerned that a priest’s due process rights be honored, and that
when a priest is removed form ministry the diocese help him make the
transition. This was a major recommendation form a panel of sex
abuse experts convened at the Vatican in April 2003, who argued that
abandoning a priest after removal from ministry may place him at
greater risk of re-offense by exacerbating his economic and
“In many cases, Hubbard said,
removed priest are old enough to be eligible for retirement
benefits. In other cases, he said, dioceses have invoked the old
category of ‘disabled by canonical impediment’ to keep a priest on
she payroll. Hubbard added that no diocese is giving these men
non-ministerial assignments, which, he said would both violate the
U.S. bishops’ charter and potentially expose the diocese to
additional legal liability.
Hubbard himself has faced
accusations of sexual abuse in Albany, though by most accounts he
has been cleared. In February, a man claimed that 30 years ago
Hubbard abused his brother, who later committed suicide. A second
man claimed Hubbard paid him for sex in the 1970s. Hubbard asked a
former federal prosecutor to investigate after the logical
prosecutor declined and the investigation found ‘nothing to
substantiate’ wrongdoing. The retired prosecutor, Mary Jo White,
U.S. attorney in Manhattan until 2002, said a lie detector test
affirmed the 65-year-old Hubbard’ statement that he never violated
his vow of celibacy…”106
I received in the mail my
weekly copy of the Catholic Free Press which carried a supplement.
The front page of this issue
had the story “Diocese adopts Code of Conduct.”
The reporter Tanya Connor
wrote: “Sexual conduct, harassment, boundaries and conflicts of
interest are issues addressed by a new diocesan law which goes into
“The new law is called the
‘Code of Ministerial Conduct for the Diocese of Worcester.’ It was
developed ‘to articulate the expectations that we have of all who
serve in church ministry,’ Bishop McManus said in a letter in the
“The code applies to all full
time and part-time employees of the diocese when they are on duty,
whether or not they have any contact with minors (persons under the
age of 18), according to Patricia Engdahl, director of the diocesan
Office for Healing and Prevention, which is responsible for
implementing the code. She said the code also applies to all
volunteers who have regular contact with minors.
“The code of conduct is part of
the Worcester Diocese’s response to a mandate issued to Catholic
dioceses and eparchies around the nation in 202 by the United States
Conference of Catholic Bishops in their ‘Charter for the Protection
of Children and Young People.’
“Article 6 in the Charter says:
‘While the Priestley’s commitment to the virtue of chastity and the
gift of celibacy is well known, thee will be clear and
well-published diocesan/eparchial standards of ministerial behavior
and appropriate boundaries for clergy and for any other church
personal in positions of trust who have regular contact with
children and young people.’
“A decree printed with the new
code mentioned both the national Charter and the ‘Policy on the
Sexual Abuse of Minors’ which Bishop Reilly decreed on May 30, 2002
as particular law for the Worcester Diocese. Particular law is a law
made for a particular territory or group of the faithful. The decree
says the new code is also particular law for the Worcester Diocese
and is to take effect Oct. 12…”107
The supplement in this issue of
the Catholic Free Press “Code of Ministerial Conduct- the Diocese of
Worcester (October 2004)” was a 4 page document.108
I guess to make the “Decree-In
the Name of God” official; you had the present bishop of Worcester’s
signature with the Chancellor-Thomas Sullivan. This must be church
procedure for “decrees” which we never were taught in the seminary.
For that matter, why would we have been taught this because I was in
school that prepared priest for pastoral work and not chancery work.
October 10, 2004
Kathleen A. Shaw wrote about
the “Code” on page B1 of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette
with “Diocese code targets abuse.”
Shaw writes: “The Diocese
forecaster, who has face more than a dozen lawsuits in recent years
alleging sexual abuse by priests, Friday, issued a formal Code of
Ministerial Conduct for all diocesan workers and volunteers who work
with children and teenagers.
“Singed by Bishop Robert J.
McManus and Monsignor Thomas J. Sullivan, chancellor, the code takes
effect Tuesday and is official diocesan law.
“Bishop Robert J. McManus
published she code Friday in Catholic Free Press and it is posted on
the diocesan Web site at
www.worcesterdiocese.org. The bishop sent letters about it to
all parishes. Copies of the code are being forwarded to the parishes
and will be available at the Diocesan Ministries Convention on Oct.
15 and 16 at the Worcester Centrum Centr
“While the code will become law
for the diocese Tuesday, a permanent Code of ministerial Conduct
will be adopted within one year.
“The code states that bishops,
clergy and deacons, because of the work they do and because of their
positions, are held ‘to higher standards of behavior’ than other
church workers. Clergy must adhere to the code and must avoid ‘even
the appearance of impropriety both inside and outside the scope of
“Other ‘don’t’: (Seven listed)
Physical touching is out, except for a handshake or a high-five.
Etc. etc. and etc…”
I wonder how Jesus would have
handled such “don’t” even in this day and age?
What will be interesting now is
how this (“Code”) will be handled by the bishop and certain
individuals in the Worcester Diocese.
October 13, 2004
Kathleen A. Shaw keeps it going
with “Diocese’s new code met with relief” in these days Worcester
Telegram & Gazette.
She writes: “Worcester-A lot of
work during the past years went into developing the new Code of
Ministerial Conduct for clergy and lay workers in the Diocese of
Worcester, according to Patricia O’Leary Engdahl, who heads the
Office of Healing and Prevention.
“The code officially became
church law yesterday which will be in effect for a year. The code
was issued as an official decree, ‘In the Name of God,’ by Bishop
Robert H. McManus and is legally binding, according to diocesan law.
“The standards set forth in the
document are geared not only to protect children from sexual abuse,
but also discuss sexual harassment and business practices.
“For instance, clergy and
church workers cannot accept substantial gifts or favors, nor can
they solicit personal loans or request financial help from parish
members, vendors, parish organizations or employees.
“They are barred from speaking
in sexually explicit way to minors, showing them sexually explicit
materials, or providing alcohol or illegal drugs. Church workers
should not take minors on overnight trips alone, or allow minors,
friends or relatives to live in the rectories.
“Diocesan officials reported to
the bishops’ National Review Board that 45 credible allegations
against clergy were made from 1960 to 2003…
“The code may be new for the
Worcester diocese, but many dioceses throughout the country now have
such codes, she said. A code of conduct has been mandated under the
Charter or the Protection of Children, adopted by the U.S.
Conference of Catholic Bishops in 2002…”110
October 15, 2004
I had birthday lunch with a
couple parishioners. They told me that I was going to get an
invitation to stop in St. Edwards for a tour to see the new choir
loft. I was surprised because the Music Director, one of the two,
said, while walking away: “don’t forget to stop in and see the choir
I was going to mention with
these two women how interesting it is that Fr. Kilcoyne said of late
a number of times: “The book has been closed on Father Kardas.” This
was in relation to him telling of late a number of parishioners who
asked how I was doing that: “Father Kardas needed his privacy.”
What was most interesting in
these last expression-needs his privacy- is that I heard this being
said by Rueger to people that knew me. Here it was against in such a
general fashion of concern? What I sensed was that certain
individuals use such a phrase to rid such people. Or it is that Fr.
Kardas might tell a story that certain clerics do not want others to
hear? It is interesting of the context that it is used. I was
reminded that I used this expression in the early stages of when I
was removed from the parish duties. I did use it. However, the
contexts that I was speaking was that I was concerned how the
Worcester Chancery Gang would use or misuse such to state that I was
“undermining the bishop” which is grounds of dismissal and other
sanctions that may be formulated by my bishop.
Kilcoyne was playing a very
interesting clerical-political game. I was not part of his group in
the diocese. I recall how that last time we spoke with me going back
to my car and his snapping at me: “Get your case normalized.”
My attitude was that the pastor
was known to be telling people I knew: “The book has been closed on
him (TJK).” I bet certain ones in the diocese need to have such a
phrase circulating because I was not wired as they were.
This “case is closed” made me
do a “brainstorming” technique of taking a legal pad to write some
reflections. This sounded somewhat like the Survivor program on
CBS-Thursday evening with the ending comment by the host: Ted! The
tribe has spoken. The host extinguishes the individual’s torch.
However, the list I
formulated: 1. Attorney Carey, my civil lawyer, said to me “You can
open your case anytime you want.” 2. When the two girls were 12, I
was not in New England, 3. Interrogations used on me were “Abu Graib-Iraq
style 4. “Guilty till proven innocent.” (Harrington) 5. “Odd”
comment by Rueger in the Worcester Telegram & Gazette. 6. One
of alleged victims- no deposition? 7. Newspaper- Chancery helped you
out comment. Oh? 8. Rueger- For a number of years doing breath
smelling technique. 9 PP- Permanent Pastor-my status 10, Defamation
of Character- embellishment.11 Worcester’s Sex Ring?
Then I continued on with
another “brainstorming” list of living in the church system that I
was living in from the 1970s: I was not caught-up in self-pity or
poor me. I had to deal with a very settle jealousy because I had to
do a “tour” on the DEF (Diocesan Expansion Fund-Loans) of the
Worcester Diocese. There was a substantial amount of intensity with
me evolving with doing a “model parish” with the R.C.I.A. I had to
watch the “diversion” technique by a number of my “brothers” and
parishioners operating- they want the spotlight in another place
than what they are targeting. Learning that who are your friends
and who you hang-out with tells me more-watch when other people want
to know that about you. There was so much self-revealing in how I
conducted myself. Things were “blowing” in the wind. Being “cute” is
a personality character to be especially watched-nothing for
nothing. Watch how certain people are so possessiveness of their own
“turf.” Watch the use of power and authority.
Self-serving-egocentrically. Telling them what the want to hear
approach and get lost. Public lily “open” means be very careful of
later ramifications. Charm of chauvinism but may be covering-up for
something else. Image of “Authority and Power” is show by peacock
personalities. Dealing with “The Boys in the Band” in concert.
Mother-logy-Priest with their mothers and devotion to the Blessed
Virgin Mary. LAZY-do only what has to be done for the priest role.
Backbiting, jealousy, ego-control to be recognized by the hierarchy
to become a “Monsignor.” Secrecy of the hierarchical system of
absolute authority is classic here. (Just brainstorming.)
One wonders after seeing such a
list if I was speaking of a civil organization as the Rotary or
Elks. I am not speaking of membership and being an active member of
them. I am speaking of the Roman Catholic Church-American style. It
has a long history of surviving and been around with many other
questionable operations previously and I’m sure will continue-power
and authority issues.
“The Word from Rome” this week
in the National Catholic Reporter by John L. Allen, Jr.
contributes: “‘this is the season for the opening of the academic
year income, with the annual round of lectures at the pontifical
universities. One of the most interesting this year toil place at
the Opus Dei-run University of the Holy Cross Oct. 11, where Msgr.
Joaquin Llobell of the Faculty of Canon Law delivered the lecture
‘The Judicial Defense of Rights in the Church: Can the Procession be
“Llobell is known as one of the
premier canonists in Rome, with a particular interest in questions
of procedural justice under the Code of Canon Law. The topic
of true process for accused parties undue the penal sections of the
code, long a rather obscure topic for canonists has burst into
prominence under the weight of the sex abuse scandals especially in
the United States.
“Given that the American sex
abuse norms, which some canonists have criticized precisely on due
process grounds, come up for the re-approval by Rome in March 2005,
Llobell’s presentation opens a window onto how the issues look form
“Llobell cites certain key
elements of due process in penal matters:
The presumption of innocence;
The independence of the tribunal with regard to the
authority that created it;
The public character of the evidence supporting an
The right of the accused to produce evidence in his
defense on a basis of equality with the accuser;
The right to have all judicial measures explained; The
right to a double level of jurisdiction as a means of appeal
“It’s worth noting
that critics of the American norms have at one point or another
questioned whether each one of these elements is adequate protection
under the American system.
“Llobell argues that
neglect of dues process risk grave consequences for the Church…”111
Every one of these
points of due process where lacking in my situation. I was told by
Bishop Harrington that I was “guilty till proven innocent” and from
their on nothing was explained to me even though I had a canon
lawyer as Father Lynch said to me: “There is a drag net going
through the water and good and bad are being caught-up in it.”111
The 5 key elements of
due process were never allowed in my story. I repeated previously
what Bishop Harrington told me: “You’re guilty till proven
innocent.” This was my whole case and it was closed. So who I
believe that I was going to have a fair hearing of some nature? It
never happened. I sit in my cave being a priest. It is a priesthood
of nothingness-name only.
October 18, 2004
Father Richard P. McBrien
writes a weekly column and this one caught my eye “The Legion of
Christ.” This group I have read about for some time of Father
Marcial Marciel Degollado, founder of the Legion of Christ. What I
have watched is their connection in Rome and where they run schools
as Washington D.C with some very interesting parents sending
students to their school.
McBrien writes: “There
have been several books published on the sexual-abuse scandal in the
Roman Catholic priesthood since the original burst of reports I the
media merely three years ago, beginning with the dramatic disclosers
in The Boston Globe in January 2002.
“One book stand alone,
however, in assigning ultimate blame to the Vatican itself and to
the current pontificate: Vows of Silence: The Abuse of Power in the
Papacy of John Paul II, by Jason Berry and Gerald Renner (Free
“Berry is the author
of five previous books, one of which. Lead Us Not Into Temptation:
Catholic priests and the Sexual Abuse of Children (1992) were among
the first to call attention to the growing, but still largely
ignored, sexual-abuse problem. Renner was for many years the staff
specialist on religion for The Hartford Courant.
“The Berry-Renner Book
focuses on two key figures as its framework of analyzing the crisis.
One serves as hero of the story: Thomas Doyle, a Dominican priest
who once served in the Apostolic Delegation in Washington, D.C. and
who has been one of the most dedicated defenders and supporters of
victims and survivors of sexual abuse and of their families.
“The other serves as
the goat of the story: Father Marcial Maciel Degollado, founder of
the Legion of Christ, which is one of the so-called new movements in
the Catholic Church that have received special attention and favor
during this pontificate.
“Building upon their
copyrighted articles published in The Hartford Courant in 1007,
Berry and Renner detail the charge that Father Marciel was himself
guilty of sexual abuse in the past by quoting nine victims of his
unwanted attentions, all ex-Legionaries. The Legion has denied the
allegations but the complaints have never been adjudicated by the
encouragement of the papal ambassador to Mexico, a canonical case
was filed with the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith in
1998, accusing Father Maciel of ‘absolving the sins’ of his victims
I confession-an ecclesiastical crime that has no statue of
limitations. In late 1999, however, Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger,
prefect of the Congregation, halted the proceeding without
“Had Father Marciel
been a priest in the United States and accused of sexual abuse by
nine former students, he would have been immediately removed from
ministry under the U.S. bishops’ 2002 charter for the protection of
“Within the Legion and
the Vatican, however, the founder’s status remains secure.
Legionaries take vows never to speak ill of him or their other
superiors and to report any member who does. Moreover, the pope
personally appointed him as a representative to the Synod for the
Americas in 1997 and praise him in 2001 at a sixtieth anniversary
celebration of the Legion’s founding…”112
I read something as
such and should never been surprised of a Harrington, Rueger, and
October 20, 2004
“Diocese urged to negotiate to
settle claims: Lawyer calls current offers ‘un-Christian’ appears
this day in the Worcester Telegram & Gazette with Kathleen A.
Shaw writes: “Worcester-Boston
layer Carmen L. Durso yesterday called on the Diocese of Worcester
to bypass the court system and enter into direct negotiations to
settle the pending lawsuits alleging clergy sexual abuses.
“Lawyers representing the
diocese are offering as little as $3,000 or $7,500 income of these
cases, said Mr. Durso, who represents 10 alleged clergy abuse
victims in the Worcester diocese. He called the offers ‘insulting,
demeaning and un-Christian.’
“Mr. Durso said the diocese is
adhering to the state’s charitable immunity cap on settlements while
other dioceses, including Boston, have waived or modified it to
properly compensate victims.
“James Gavin Reardon Jr.,
lawyer for the diocese, said the lawyers for plaintiffs are
‘entitled to their opinion’ but he said they and their clients chose
to file civil suits and the need to be resolved through the legal
“Mr. Reardon said several suits
have been settled and others should be moving to trial by June. He
said the cases are moving forward in a professional manner. Some
plaintiffs have chosen to settle their suits for the amounts offered
while others have not, he added. ‘It’s their rights,’ he said.
“ ‘I don’t see that as
realistic,’ Mr. Reardon said of the lawyers’ request that direct
negotiations open with the diocese. ‘These civil sits need to be
resolved,’ he added.
“A graduate of the College of
the Holy Cross, Mr. Durso referred to a Catholic doctrine of
restorative justice that teaches that a Christian who has wronged
another person has a responsibility to make adequate compensation.
“Mr. Durso, joined by layers
Daniel J. Shea of Houston (Here’s Shea) and Nancy Lyons of Boston
during a press conference, said his research shows Worcester is
making the lowest settlement offers of any diocese in the United
States and the world…”113
October 22, 2004
The National Catholic
Reporter printed “First church trails for priests set for New
This becomes interest to report
because “trails” have been going on for over a decade. However, the
media reports such a story. One has to consider the date of 2002 in
which one reads “since the sex abuse controversy broke nationwide in
The article states: “New
Orleans-The Vatican has ordered church trails in the cases of three
New Orleans priest accused of sexual abusing minors and said that
Archbishop Alfred Hughes will handle a fourth case administratively.
The trials will be the first to be held locally since the sexual
abuse controversy broke nationwide in 2002/
“After first refusing to name
the priest, who will be tried, claiming that disclosure could
compromise the rights of the accused and the complainant
archdiocesan spokesman Fr. William Maestri reversed himself and
released the name Oct. 12.
Fr. Michael Fraser, Gerald
Kinane and Bernard Schmaltz are expected to undergo secret church
trails in coming months to determine the validity of charges that
they molested boys while acting as priests…114
Was my case handling
“administratively” by Harrington and Reilly with Auxiliary Bishop
Rueger the “Clerk-of-the-Court”? Pedone must have been the “High
Attorney”? The point of interest: “You’re guilty till proven
I heard an interview with John
L. Allen, Jr. of the National Catholic Reporter saying that
the American Catholic Church is planted in Rome’ thinking as
radically individualistic, pragmatic and capitalist. I think
American as having Calvinistic mentality but American Catholic in
USA culture of Rome thinking in the image the people have a rigid
hierarchy and ultra centralized in Rome.
October 29, 2004
I saw an ad on TV which showed
a group starring at a piece of paper on the ground saying: How
awful! A guy come along and picks the paper of the group and drops
it into the waste deposal and conatus on without a word. It then
shows on the screen: Do something about it.
This I was saving to use with
“Father Peacock” when he starts his winning. But, maybe not. It
won’t make much difference with this guy. This was something about
my make-up: Do something about it if you are in the position to
correct or add to a particular situation or process.
Catholic Reporter prints “Key changes in bishop’s abuse policy
review board” that was written by Joe Feuerherd of the NCR
His article says:
“More than tow years after the U.S. bishops appointed a lay-run
board to oversee implementation of their child-protection plans and
investigate the causes of the clergy sex abuse crisis, it is
transition time. Key member are leaving the panel, which since its
inception has tried to balance its need for information and
cooperation form bishops wit its desire to be independent.
“On Oct. 15, Bishop Wilton
Gregory, president of the u.s. Conference of Catholic Bishops, name
five new members to the National Review Board and elevated a current
member, Duquesne University Law School Dean Nicholas Cafardi, as
chairman of the 14-member panel. Among the five departing members is
Anne Burke, the Illinois Court of Appeal Justice who stepped in as
interim chair after the forced departure of former Oklahoma Gov.
Frank Keating. Others leaving the board include former White House
chief of staff Leon Panetta, E.W. Scripps Co. chairman William
Burleigh and Washington attorney Robert Bennett, who is credited
with shepherding to completion the “Bennett Report” on the causes
and context of the crisis.
“What makes the personnel
changes significant ‘is not just the fact that we have five new
board members, but that the most visible and seemingly active board
members are stepping down,’ said victims' advocate David Clohessy,
executive director of SNAP, the Survivors Network of those Abused by
Priests. ‘Our worry is that it seems to take some time before [board
members] become sufficiently skeptical of the bishops. It’s not so
much a learning curve. As it is a skepticism curve…”115
What I heard form a few clergy
on this issue was that Rome was not pleased at all with a “lay
membership” committee. Besides Rome, the priests making that
statement are pastors that do not have “Parish Councils” or very
selective few lay people on any of their parish projects-forget
committees. I’m speaking 2004 Worcester Diocese.
What I thought about again, was
how the hierarchical system was walking this whole procedure with
the overall aspect of never having to have to do such a procedure
with clergy and themselves. Actually, it was the
I was reading an issue of
Pipeline which is a monthly publication of NH Area 43 Assembly
of AA. This issue front page article “Fear, Too, Will Pass.”
It reads: “I wondered, ‘Will I
have enough money s that I can great and pay my rent when I am too
old to work? Will they give me my Social Security? How will I ever
manage in my old age?’
Those worrisome questions began
to assail me when I was not long out of my twenties and brand-new in
AA. (There were those who used to warn me before AA. of dealing with
authority. But in those days I had a surefire way of dealing with
them: I took another drink.)
“Occasionally, I would get up
the nerve to mention one of those worries at my home group. How
tolerant and how patient AA people are! Nobody said boo to me.
Instead, they attracted me back to the present by their power of
example. They assured me that today was the day to do as much as I
possibly could for my recovery’s sake. Tomorrow, when it came, would
take care of itself.
“By their acceptance of my fear
of tomorrow and by their gentleness, the group was also helping me
to get over my fear of people.
“There is a promise contained
in the sixth chapter of Alcoholic Anonymous that says, ‘Fear of
people and of economic insecurity will leave us.’ (Yes, I had this
to some degree. However, I was thinking that I was practical with a
degree of anonymity of being who I was and the circumstances of this
day and age and society we live in.-TJK) I knew nothing about it in
my early years. Nonetheless, the spirit of AA people promoted the
promise of every meeting; their willingness to talk to me on the
phone was a constant reaffirming of the promise; and the fellowship
they offered even at ‘after-coffee coffee’ kept chipping away at the
wall of isolation I had been building most of my life…”116
It was such readings and
hearing such stories that I continued to have an AA program of two
meetings a week with one on the 12 Steps and the other was a
Fear prevailed in me before and
in some sense still does with my thinking that one does not know
what tomorrow will bring. Nevertheless, I maintained a better spirit
with AA, even though I maintained my anonymity overall. AA has been
a tremendous aid in my spiritual and religious undertakings being a
November 4, 2004
I was re-reading my writings
from 1998 to 2004 and noticed that I wrote with more explanation
than of later times. I did notice that of late that the articles I
are in my work that had given more explanation to so many factors
that I had no knowledge of the bigger picture: Ex,: Bishop Reilly
didn’t remove some priest until there was a second allegation?
Certain terms I noticed terms
and concepts used by the hierarchy and civil lawyers that gave some
understanding what the legal and canonical procedures used against
me and others.
November 5, 2004
I had been of late been able to
describe what my experience of being in the seminary for eight years
and 23 years in active ministry of what I felt, experienced and
tried to survive: You have to live in the Catholic Church atmosphere
of the 1960s to the present time to even sense of what it was like
to be priest. It was a different mindset from the theoretical-book
knowledge-to the practical rectory living and parish work with a
pastor and you were the “curate” (altar boy or junior). There was
the certain “gossip group” of priest that were “kicking” to separate
groups. There was also the wonderment of who the other guy you were
working or classmate with as priest heading with his vocation. They,
meanwhile, were watching me. One thing that was a silent code
between my classmates of newly ordained would be leaving the
priesthood. It was a time that the numbers of priests leaving to get
married or just cashing-in and departing which was at some
interesting numbers by the general population of priest.
There was never any talk that
there was a gay element in the priesthood and never mentioned of the
significant proportion being in that orientation. The only thing
that I had my eyes open to this was the feminist of certain priest
with characteristics that were different when you became more
acquainted. Gay priesthood was never mentioned in my circle of
classmates or parishioners because it was an issue that no one
wanted to hears. When you spoke to a Catholic and the vocation of
the priesthood is understood as a calling to be another Christ. I
understood that with this, you were asked to sacrifice. Who doesn’t
sacrifice in any vocation or profession I life? The Catholic
priesthood during the years I mentioned with the Vietnam War had a
safe haven and a path that had respect and comfortable pew in the
society that we live. Then there is the issue of “power and
authority” of either a hierarchical or servant orientation. There
was a change with the Second Vatican Council but back I the rectory
it was the old guard keeping the fortress mentality of distinction
of clericalism and the layperson as the People of God. There was a
tension that was so shuttle that you never were sure where you were
going to get reprimanded by the pastor or some parishioner saying
they are leaving the parish because of “you Father.” It was a time
at first at ordination that the birth control debate was in full
bloom in conflict with “conscience formation.” Oh! The beginning of
my priesthood and for a number of years, I was “Massed-to-Death.” It
was saying three or four Masses a weekend and the priest was the
only one to give Communion during Mass. So, if you were not saying
Mass, you had to be in the sacristy waiting to run out on the altar
at Communion time to distribute the Eucharist. It was as though I
was on a spin-wheel constantly going and not watching and sensing
November 6, 2004
I was somewhat wondering what
was happening with the latest “chatter” in the media and otherwise:
The priesthood is a gay profession. I heard this from a relative and
reading a review in the National Catholic Reporter by Paul
Philibert, a Dominican priest and visiting professor at Aquinas
Institute of theology in St. Louis. In this review by Philibert of
Fr. Andrew M. Greeley’s book of 2004, Priests: a Calling in
Crisis was somewhat interesting. I was surprised to
read-unmentionable topic. I went on the Internet and entered the
Search Engine- Google. I typed in the title of this book “Priests: A
calling In Crisis.” Well, it had 6,370 sources to click-on. I
purchased this book for my personal library.
This review had the title:
“Debunking stereo types about priestly if” which I re-read with eyes
opened. Philibert writes about Greeley covers the “impact of the
clerical crisis of 2002” in this book.
He begins by referring to a
number of sociological studies since 1985 and two other studies and
says: “All three of these predications (sociological studies), which
initially meat with widespread denial, have been realized almost
exact as predicated.”
Here Philibert goes at
Greeley’s latest bood Priests. He describes: “It is the
prophetic outcry of a public intellectual who want to weigh in o the
significance of the scandal with empirically base interpretations of
its impact for the future.” Greeley debunks a number of points of
Eugene Kennedy, Richard Sipe and Peter McDonough and Eugene C.
Bianchi. Greeley goes out of his way to diminish the mythological
insufficiency of each of them: “The rules of the game say that you
don’t make estimates unless you have representative samples.”
The review goes on to say that
Greeley is doing due to the impact of the clergy crisis of 2002
(This has been going on for me since 1993). This review goes on to
explain the chapter on “Sexual Orientation and Celibacy” in which
there are two surveys done by the research division of the Los
Angles Times, sampling 2,064 priests in 1993 and 1, 854 priests
I heard about this book of
Greeley on a Boston talk radio show while I was driving on morning.
I listened in that it was said that most priest will not truthfully
answer any questioner honestly. So, these Los Angles Times
surveys of 1993 and 2002 have data that one immediately question
because of the people (priest) addressed and the climate of the
Now, what becomes interesting
in this was that I did not hear the beginning of the program and who
was making the statement. I for one did hear from four priests tell
me that they never answer any surveys or questioners-no matter what.
I am one that will ask a person when they say something of issue:
What was your source? What contents was this said in? When was it
Back to the review by Philibert
in he writes that one of the most important sections of the
Priests is that it addresses the laity’s negative evaluation
clergy performance and that celibacy has nothing to do with the
present crisis. A number of the reviews on the Internet wish to
disagree with this answer in that it is major part of the crisis.
Another issue by Philibert
writing: “Greeley is uniformly harsh in his judgment of the newest
cohort of priests for what he see as their inflexibility and smug
resistance to theological ideas and pastoral experience.” I have
heard and see this during my time. But, it is the same with
laypeople in general of the generation of late-black and white
answers to issues.
Philibert concludes his review:
“After all his (Greeley) efforts to brainstorm possible solutions,
the author concluded with words that sound much like an eulogy, that
is, I think, a good way for me to conclude as well: ‘In the short
run I anticipate a practice to 2002 like that to the birth-control
encyclical-a decline in church attendance and a decline in financial
contributions but o mass exodus from Catholicism. Catholics, very
angry Catholics, still like being Catholic.’ “
There was all of this in the
1980s and didn’t need a new “crisis” to form a new prediction.
November 7, 2004
I noticed when someone asks me
what I have been doing. I respond that I have been writing my three
volume autobiography. Coded language: Get lost. A lot of people are
ding psychobabble. There is this questioning of the day that out due
the psychobabbles. It is as though one has to do a Catch-22 sequence
and use silence or one word/phrase as the golden rule.
I noticed this day that when I
began my computer that I was experiencing an anxiety reaction that
was similar to July 2004 reading how Archbishop O’Malley was seeking
a trail of priest in Rome on sexual abuse. It upset my stomach them
and I likewise was reacting. This has not happened for a long period
of time that I was feeling as such. This may be partially due to the
fact that I was focused on the “power and authority” umbrella.
November 8, 2004
I received a (form) letter from
Bishop McManus informing me that Father George Ridick has been
appointed to be the Bishop’s Liaison to Priests on Leave due to
Allegations of Sexual Misconduct.117
Enclosed was a one page
“position description” with responsibilities. My eyes opened when I
read “Maintain regular*: Depending on risk-assessment, some of
these priests may be in need of more frequent contact (i.e., monthly
and or in person). All priests should be visited in persona on at
least a periodic basis.”118
We shall see. I never
been contacted or visited by anyone since I was sent to Hartford for
November 12, 2004
I was having trouble with my
computer and telephone for the last few days. I was squirrelly in
getting anything accomplished on my writing because the telephone
issue was erratic. It did slow me down in waiting for the telephone
I had one of those peculiar
experiences this day having lunch with “Father Peacock.” We were
sitting and talking and suddenly the thought ran through my head: Oh
God! This guy was lobbying (hoping) to become the liaison for priest
on Leave of Absence due to sexual abuse in the Worcester Diocese.
He had been toying me along for
information of what was happening to me. He was so coy in seeking
any type of information. He was “helpful” in giving me an Ordo
(Priest Mass/Divine Office Guide) annually. He kept weekly contact
by having lunch or coffee on Sundays according to his pace; take me
for a ride to pick-up items at the Trappist Monastery in Spencer,
All this time, he was doing
errands for himself but “reaching out” to a fellow priest. Whenever,
we were at lunch he made sure he took the slip for his deduction and
records. He would say very little of what was happening in the
diocese or develop a conversation of doctrine or pastoral matters.
He, always, had a line of “Oh! I threw that into the waster basket.”
Whenever I asked him for a certain publication that I knew he
received. He didn’t want to be bothered to share anything he read or
obtained. This was a masked language in that he was going to talk
about whatever topic he wanted to do. Also, I would never call him
because he had no answering machine and whenever he did answer; his
voice was so harsh in relating: How dare you call.
Than there was the famous and
notorious “last supper” on this Friday noontime. This was just
before he was leaving for Canada for another one of those three
weeks of “away.” He made a number of derogatory remarks towards me.
One was: “We don’t need guys like you-in the priesthood!” Then I did
not hear from him since this time.
I knew since this Friday lunch
that he knew about Fr. George Ridick’a appointment to the Laison to
Priest on Leave of Absence. He was “unofficially lobbying” for this
position because most likely it would have attached in the future a
“Monsignor” recognition. “Father Peacock” only did anything special
if he would be recognized for such a position: Teaching the Deacons
certain dogma classes, being a Dean for the area that we were parish
assigned, work on the Marriage Tribunal as a “judge” and trying to
be “priest executor” for guys in their time of death. This guy only
did things that would make such a contribution that the bishop would
recognize after a certain period of time what his craving of
becoming a “Monsignor.” It was something to watch such a character
operating-positioning and making no mistakes with the Chancery
policies-certain one and not all- that he thought would get him to
“Father Peacock” was showing
his strips of paranoia, obsession, controlling personality besides
being self-destructive and cruel. I did realize how self-absorbed in
his own agenda and priorities with very little difference for anyone
else. There was, besides such mentioned an attitude of a lack of
complacency dominated by being self-absorbed and arrogant. It was
practically my only contact with the official church. Yet, I paid a
price for this. I was realizing more than ever than I didn’t even
need this. The price, on my part, was taking away from who I was as
I recall hearing a story from a
classmate of mine who was from PA coal mine region. He would talk
how theme that worked the mines would have a canary in cage in front
of them while working extracting coal. If the canary died, the
message was: Run like crazy for the exits-poison gas. I believe that
was what happened for me at my “last supper” with “Father Peacock.”
The canary died. I ran.
November 13, 2004
“Voice of Faithful meet” appear
on p. A5 of this issue of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette.
Kathleen A. Shaw writes:
“Worcester-Hundreds of Catholics from throughout New England began
descending on the city last night in preparation for a conference
today to discuss the current state of the Roman Catholic Church, as
Voice of the Faithful is bringing people together to examine the
road to renewal and reform in the church.
“Voice of the Faithful, a
national organization of laity and clergy that formed as the full
force of the sexual abuse scandal hit in 2002, is holding what it
calls a major conference on ‘It’s Not History, It’s Time for
Renewal’ from 8:45 a.m. to 5 p.m. today at the DCU Center.
“Voice of the Faithful
leadership said that despite the comment last February by Bishop
Wilton D. Gregory, outgoing president of the U.S. Catholic Bishops,
that the scandal was now ‘history,’ the crisis is far from being
I sent a copy of the letter as
guideline to Dr. Zeman with a note that we may talk about this on my
next appointment- Dec. 9th.
The phrase “someone to help”
was only words. It was the Chancery system in typical form and was
only words. If they showed me any concern, I would be very skeptical
of what were they really trying to do.
November 14, 2004
Kathleen A. Shaw continues
reporting in the Worcester Telegram & Gazette “Priest calls
Catholic Church ‘evil’ at Voice of the Faithful gathering.”
She writes: “Worcester-The Rev.
James J. Scahill, a parish priest in East Longmeadow, yesterday said
the Roman Catholic Church is ‘not the church of Jesus Christ’ and
has become ‘insidiously evil.’
“He put the blame on the
hierarchy of the church which he said is ‘interested in power, its
own power,’ and said nothing will change until Catholic laypeople
withhold their offerings.
“‘At least the Mafia is at
front,’ he said. ‘The churches insidious’
“His remarks came as American
bishops are gathering in Washington, D.C., for their fall meeting.
Election of one of them to head the United States Conference of
Catholic Bishops tops the agenda. Bishop Wilton Gregory of
Bellville, Ill., has finished his term.
“Catholics need to begin a
grass-roots campaign to bring about reform, starting with their own
parish priests, many of whom have remained silent during the clergy
sexual abuse scandal that has gripped the church since 2002, he
said. Rev. Scahill suggested that laity become more aggressive in
demanding their priests become active.
“Rev. Scahill, pastor of St.
Michael’s Parish in the Diocese of Springfield, was in Worcester to
accept the Priest of Integrity Award from Voice of the Faithful,
which held its New England conference at the DCU Center. More than
500 Catholics form the New England states, including a handful from
the Diocese of Worcester, attended the day-long event, which ended
with a Mass. VOTF is a national organization of Catholics who remain
in the church but seek justice for victims of clergy abuse, honor
what it calls priests of integrity, and work to bring about reforms
in the church.
“Although VOTF members stay in
the church, the Rev. Thomas P. Doyle, O.P., the priest who first
alerted American bishops to the growing sexual abuse crisis in the
church in the mid-1980s, said 40 percent of the people in Protestant
churches are former Catholics.
“ ‘And the bishops don’t give a
damn,’ he said…”120
November 14, 2004
Well, I had my second accident
in my driving career. It occurred in Rindge, NH returning from my
regular Tuesday night AA meeting. It was my fault. I was following
another car that was in the left lane and turning. I was looking at
the green light in this left turn lane where it was not the lane to
travel forward. Suddenly, after the car in front of me turned left,
I entered the intersection and I hit car entering from my right-who
the respective green light. Bang. Neither the driver of the other
car or me were hurt or needed medical attention. Our cars had to be
It was my fault mainly due to the fact that I
was not paying attention.
I was reflecting with a number
of issues. One was the letter I received from Bishop McManus and the
guideline for priest on Leave of Absence due to sexual abuse. The
other was how I had in my mind one individual at this Tuesday
meeting bragging own 11 years ago at this same meeting that he was
going to take his car and commit suicide with his car by crashing
it. I crashed 11 years later with my accident. This guy’s story, I
recall very specifically because I was at that meeting. I did not
say anything after to him. I recalled that time of 11 years ago due
to the fact that I drove away from that meeting wondering if he was
behind me-because same road was being traveled-with his desires that
he expressed in the meeting.
So, I realize that it is not an
excuse and realizing it was my fault in this accident. But, it was a
good wake-up signal for me to sharpen my thinking when driving and
at all times possible.
November 15, 2004
The Associated Press reporter
Rachael Zoll reported “Dioceses still reeling as bishops meeting
opens” in the Worcester Telegram & Gazette.
He writes: “Washington-The
nation’s Roman Catholic bishops are holding their fall meeting this
week during troubled times for the U.S. church.
“Two dioceses have declared
bankruptcy in the face of millions of dollars in clergy sex abuse
claims and a third plans to file at the end of this month. More
dioceses are expected to follow.
“the presidential election
exposed deep divisions among bishops over how they should respond to
Catholic politicians-and to all Catholics-who are at odds with
church teaching on abortion another issues.
“And as the meeting opens
today, the customarily routine transition that occurs every three
years in the leadership of the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops
has bee sullied by fallout from the molestation scandal.
“ ‘The bishops are very
anxious,’ said Russell Shaw, a Catholic writer and former spokesman
for the bishop’s conference…”121
November 17, 2004
“Catholic priest and the laity
must move forward carefully” by Kenneth J. Moynihan writes in the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette: “How do you run an authoritarian
institution in a democratic society? The answer should probably be
“That clash of political
cultures within the Roman Catholic Church resounded against last
weekend when nearly 1,000 members of the Voice of the Faithful (VOTF)
gathered in Worcester to boost one another’s spirits and to make
plans. The group defines itself as an organization of faithful
Catholics seeking justice for victims of clerical abuse, honoring
‘priests of integrity,’ and working for reforms in the church. From
a political perspective, these are the folks who think a healthy
dose of democracy would be good for the church.
“The forces of authority are
fed by the hierarchy of the church, especially the bishop who
exercise virtually unlimited jurisdiction over their dioceses. In
matters religious, they are accountable only to the Vatican, over
which a sovereign reigns in the person of Pope John Paul II.
Catholic teaching hold that the people is infallible when he speaks
as head of the church on matters of faith and morals. Despite-or
perhaps because of-the wall of authority that surrounds them, church
authorities in the wake of the clergy sex-abuse scandal have been
having trouble inspiring confidence in their leadership…”122
November 19, 2004
The National Catholic
Reporter prints “Study finds laity wants more openness after
sexual abuse scandal” by David Briggs of the Religious News Service.
Briggs writes: “The sexual
abuse scandal is creating a historic shift in relations between
American Catholics and their church hierarchy.
“In the first comprehensive
national study of the effects of the sexual abuse scandal,
researchers at The Catholic University found nearly four of five
people in the pews sad they were ashamed and embarrassed for their
church, and nearly three-quarters said the failure of bishops to
stop the abuse is a bigger problem than the abuse itself.
“Anger in the pews toward
church leaders so far is having little effect on Choices’ commitment
to their church, however. Respondents reported only a slight decline
in attendance and giving as a result of the scandal; more than four
in five report that being Catholic remains very important to them
“But what the results indicate
is that while the church itself remains intact, the sexual abuse
scandal is shaping up to be a seminal moment in how Catholics view
the authority of bishops, some observers said.
“ ‘The development of lay
organizations such as voice of the Faithful demanding accountability
and openness to me represents a new day. It’s new in my life,’ said
Catholic University sociologist Dean Hoge.
“Joseph Kelly, chairman of the
religious studies department at John Carroll University, said, ‘it
was a shocker’ for Catholics to learn that the people they trusted
to take care of the sexual abuse crisis were covering it up. “ ‘I
think the issue of trust will be around longer than the abuse
things,’ he said.
“The study originated last
years with a committee of leaders at the University of More Dame
seeking a benchmark survey of lay Catholics in the United States.
Two of the nation’s most respected Catholic researchers, Hoge and
Purdue University sociologist James Davidson, let the national
telephone survey conducted in the fall of 2003 of 1,119 adult
Catholics. The results have a margin of error of plus or minus 3.5
“More than the priest shortage
or any other crisis in the church today, Catholic lay people say the
most serious problems facing the Catholic church in the United
States are the scandal of priests sexually abusing minors and the
perceived cover-ups by bishops…”123
November 20, 2004
I had a conversation with a
former parishioner who had some background in social justice from
her day in Pennsylvania at the Post Office. She asked me: What
happened to forgiveness, hope, peace and justice from our Church? I
did say it, but wanted too-It is all about money and who you know in
the “Power and Authority” system.
The Sentinel & Enterprise
of Fitchburg carried on its front page “ ‘Father Rich’ taking leave
of absence: Taking six month break due to medical reasons.”
Dorothy Schroeder wrote:
“Fitchburg-Father Rich Lewandowski will begin a six-month medical
leave of absence next week after celebrating a final Thanksgiving
morning mass at St. Camillus Church.
“‘During that time I’m going to
do some body and mind and spiritual growth,’ he said.
“Lewandowski, who is well-known
throughout the community as ‘Father Rich,’ said he’s suffering from
post-traumatic stress disorder. PTSD is a psychological disorder
that can occur when a person experiences life-altering events.
“‘It’s due to various losses
that have occurred in my life over time,’ Father Lewandowski said,
adding that some of the events have happened recently but some are
“He said even the though the
medical leave is necessary, he will be anxious to get back to his
parish and his post in the Newman Center at Fitchburg State College.
“‘In the time I am away, I will
keep you in my memories and prayers,’ he wrote in a letter these
parishioners this week. ‘I ask that if you please sent a prayer my
“As of Friday, Father
Lewandowski said ‘the plan is to come back to this area,’ after his
Father Lewandowski is history.
Knowing what I know-which is very little in regards to the hierarchy
and priest- there is another story here and we will never-most
likely- ever know about it.
November 22, 2004
I noticed this particular day
an interesting insight. I was more relaxed and comfortable with
myself. I had been invited to go out for lunch with the Keenas’. I
recall leaving the bathroom and being so much more relaxed than I
have been for a significant period of time. I felt this comfortable
feeling being so much different in mind and body than going and
being away from “Father Peacock” for some time at this point.
This had me wondering in that I
don’t believe I hit a real depression overall with what I had gone
through. I did the denial, anger and bargaining route but not the
deep depression and being medicated for it. Possibly, one of my
saving ways was that I persisted to ask questions, even though they
might not all have been the right questions. It does not mean that
anyone in the proper authority heard them or if they did respond in
any manner. I was and still am standing.
Kathleen A. Shaw of the
Worcester Telegram & Gazette had on the front page “Diocese
still support priests unleashed for abuse allegations.”
She writes: “Worcester-The
Diocese of Worcester continues to support a number of priests placed
on leave because of sexual misconduct allegations, including the
Rev. Thomas A. Kane, director of the former House of Affirmation,
who was fired amid fiscal irregularities at the Whitinsville
“Bishop Robert J. McManus said
in a statement Friday that the diocese is reviewing its policies on
support for priests on leave because of sexual abuse allegations,
but said canon law requires the diocese to continue support to
priests who need help.
“Bishop Daniel P. Reilly,
former head of the Worcester Diocese, said in a deposition and under
questioning from lawyers Tahira Khan Merritt of Dallas that the
money comes from the priest assistance fund. The priests, by canon
law are entitled to money to meet their needs, including medical
insurance, he said. He did not say exactly how many priests are
receiving money. Bishop Reilly reported in February that 45 priests
have been accused of misconduct since 1950, although some have since
“The diocesan records for
dismal 2003 show more than $270,000 in the priest’s assistance fund.
Bishop Reilly said this money does not go to retired priests, who
are in a separate fund.
“Raymond L. Delisle, spokesman
for the diocese, said the money in the priest assistance fund is
also used for other things besides accused priests.
“He said priest in good
standing with the church can be helped through the fund, when they
are on leave because of health or other personal circumstances
unrelated to allegations of misconduct. The financial help each
priest get is decided on a case-by-case basis, he said…”125
Well, let’s not forget that I
asked Bishop Reilly in 2002 for assistance in rent category for
which I receive $200 a month. He said to me that should not be a
problem. Well, nothing ever was done concerning this or anything
November 26, 2004
The “Editorial Page” of the
National Catholic Reporter reports “Bishops seek a reprieve.”
It states: “Our bishops, it
seems want a time-out.
“At their Nov. 15-17 meeting
(it was to run to Nov. 18, but they managed to complete their agenda
a day early), the body of bishops laid out plans for the future of
their conference. Bottom line: less public discussion of pressing
issues, more private time to contemplate such pastoral concerns as
priestly formation and the centrality of the Eucharist, fewer
statements on what many perceive as secondary issues, and tighter
rein on their bureaucracy.
“People of goodwill may differ
on the merits of each of these inclinations. The bishops, for
example, are certainly entitled to time together, outside the
spotlight, to share experiences and formulate positions. They are
after all, colleagues, and it’s hard to be collegial when a few
members steal the public misstatement or mischaracterization leads
to silence. Plus, the world won’t suffer much if our church leaders
decide that their collective opinion on this or that hot topic will
not be forthcoming and bureaucracies being what they are, it is hard
to argue with the nation that priorities must be established and
budgets adhered to.
“But, taken together, and in
the context of the last three years, these individual notions paint
a disturbing picture. And, of course, it all goes back to the
problem that won’t go away.
“The clergy sex abuse crisis is
for Catholics like desert sand that get into everything. It annoys
and blinds and at times makes things break down. You might want to
ignore it but it won’t allow you to …”126
December 1, 2004
Would I ever be able to use, in
my case, unspecified damages for defamation slander and emotional
damages and stress in court paper? I was never given the advice of
what I may have been able to do. Attorney Carey did say, in what
seemed a passing remark that I had a case anytime that I wanted to
process in a civil suit.
I read in Life’s Little
Instructions for this day: Remain optimistic-all hope depends on
December 2, 2004
Finally, I have come to writing
the text section for 2002. I have been working on the text besides
doing research, daily journaling. I started with this writing to
break down my initial text writing in sorting the overall articles
for that respect year, then I would review these articles a second
time and chose which were most pertinent to my story in the
Worcester Diocese and related stories to substantiate the picture I
was attempting to report. I, then, would enter the specific articles
into the computer. After this, I would bring-up my journal from that
year, split the Windows screen and write the text-Preface Year. The
last step for this year-section would be footnotes which I did in
longhand and type them separately when I finished my overall text
writing. It has helped to speed-up the overall work. It was as
though I was working in block sections and helped me set certain
objectives during the day and week. I felt that I was processing and
accomplishing more overall work.
I noticed this day my thoughts
of preparing to deal with Step #4 during this Thursday’s meeting. I
was thinking of working through the phase of “uncovering” and
“discovering. I have been told that I should have a clearer
understanding of myself during Step $4. I should be able to
recognize many things I did for the wrong reason and other things
that I did for the right reason as a part of my frame of reference.
Then I should be on a whole new course. I should come to the enable
my experiences in much more satisfying existence. If there is any
fear of discovering different areas of one’s life, one examines
valuable spots. I, eventually, will see myself as productive and
worthwhile human being. Rediscovery is an on going process and not a
So, the meeting became directed
with Sept #4 phrase: We thought ‘conditions’ drive us to drinking
and when we tried to correct those conditions and point that we
couldn’t to our entire satisfaction, our drinking event went out of
hand and we became an alcoholic. It never occurred to me that we
needed to change ourselves to meet the conditions, whatever they
were (12 Steps and! 2 Traditions on page 47).
This was me but “to meet the
conditions” whatever were in my life and the Church as the Second
Vatican Council, renewal in changes and transformation had an
affect. However, I had to deal with a hierarchical model that
operated in a vertical manner of top down decisions.
December 7, 2004
This day the Worcester
Telegram & Gazette gives us “Lawyers for diocese want sex-abuses
case dismissed” on page B2 by Gary Murray.
He writes: “Worcester-Lawyers
for the Worcester Catholic Diocese are asking a judge to dismiss
several clergy sexual abuse lawsuits pending against the diocese in
Worcester Superior Court.
“A hearing was held yesterday
on a motion filed by Attorney Goulka, a lawyer for the diocese,
seeking dismissal of the claims against the diocese on First
Amendment grounds. In the alternative, the diocese is asking that
the court enter a partial summary judgment in its favor on the basis
of the charitable immunity doctrine.
“Summary judgment is a judgment
issued without the necessity of trail on the basis of
uncontroversial facts as disclosed by the pleadings I a case.
“Lawyers for the plaintiffs in
the pending cases opposed the requests of the diocese, which were
taken under advisement by Judge Jeffrey A. Locke.
“In her argument for dismissal
yesterday, Ms. Goulka said civil courts lack jurisdiction to decide
disputes involving issues of religious doctrine, discipline, faith
or internal organization including matters relating to ‘the
ecclesiastical relationship between the priest and the bishop,’ Ms.
Goulka argued that the lack of jurisdiction extended to the
supervisory role bishops have over priests.
“Carmen L. Durso, one of the
plaintiffs’ lawyers, sad there was no First Amendment protection for
the diocese in the context of the cases before the court because the
allegations that negligent supervision allowed the abuse to continue
‘have nothing to do with core beliefs.’
“” ‘We’re talking about acts,
not beliefs, and we’re talking about the rights of children,’ Mr.
Durso told the judge.
“As an alternative to
dismissal, Ms. Goulka asked the court to rule that the diocese was
absolutely immune from liability for any torts committed before
Sept. 16, 1971, on grounds of chartable immunity and that damages
for torts found to have been committed after that date but limited
December 9, 2004
I had my regular “check-in”
with Doctor Zeman in Hartford. He made a very interesting remark,
again to me: “Bishop Rueger was allegated.” He has done this a
number of times in the last few appointments. I began to realize
that it was his way to get a more interesting reaction than I was
obviously giving. I may be wrong. He did not make many statements to
me in an appointment. This time, I did mention how the Worcester
Diocese handled Rueger’s allegation and proclaimed Rueger
“immaculate.” I related how Monsignor Sullivan was reported to have
taken a “stash of money” to Rueger’s alleged victim. Nothing more
was reported and or even rumored. It was a topic in the diocese that
was “tight-as-a-clam” issue. I recall mentioning how Sullivan was
reported saying in an interview that 99% of allegations are
true-Rueger must be the 1%.
It was an interesting statement
by Doctor Zeman. It had me wondering on my drive back-1 ¾ hours-to
my place how he raised this Rueger issue a number of times of late.
December 10, 2004
I finished reading The
Pontiff in the Winter by John Cornwell (2004). The notes of this
work show what I was hearing for some time about the sex abuse
crisis. A few lines from this work: “Inevitably, the history of this
period will note that the crisis erupted during John Paul’s watch, a
period in which he presided over and increase income’s authority and
a decrease indicant authority. He (JPII) should not escape censor
for his failure to see the early signs of the crisis and to act
appropriately.” (p.238) another line of this same page: “This past
quarter century, the period of his pontificate, will be remembered
above all for the priestly sexual abuse scandal and it’s far
reaching consequences.” Another line: “The Church was going to
continue to deal with internal matters in an internal way. The
Church would marinade its ‘secret canonical norms’ so as to avoid a
‘culture of suspension.’ (p.231). In addition: “The conservatives
were blaming the era of post-Vatican II permissiveness, hedonism,
widespread laity, and the infiltration of homosexuals into the
priesthood. The progressives or liberals were arguing that the
decisions of Vatican II has not been applied; that the bishops and
laity been rendered immature and irresponsible by an authorial,
highly centralized Holy See; this in turn, they (Church) had
encouraged a generation of clerics in arrested development at a time
when permissiveness was pervasive in society-at-large. (p.228).
another line: “He (JP) II used a few words of Ukrainian, a language
the Poles thought to despise as fit ‘only for animals.’ “(p. 296).
This book had Chapter 28 entitled “The Sexual Abuse Scandal” which
was pages 222-238-a total of 16 pages with no new insights by the
author on this topic than what had been reported in the secular
press. It was a different reading of this author of John Paul II
pontificate because so much was written about him as “The Great” and
this work showed another viewpoint.
The National Catholic
Reporter “Editorial” for this day was “Misplaced papal praise.”
It stated: “Like president,
potentate or prime minister, or a pope spend his time and with whom
he chooses to spend it, is significant. At a minimum it sends a
signal-which is in or out of favor, whose ideas have proved
triumphant, who, bottom line, has the man’s ear.
“Style over substance? Perhaps.
But still important.
“Which brings us to with whom
Pope John Paul II chose to spend time Nov. 30: Fr. Marcial Maciel
Degollado, founder of the Legionaries of Christ? As readers of this
publication are aware, Marciel is a papal favorite. The Legionaries,
with 500 priests and 2,000 seminarians, shares John Paul II’s
theological outlook. At the closing celebration of events marking
the 60th anniversary of Marcel’s ordination, the people
heaped praise on the Mexican priest and honored the work of the
Legionaries and their lay affiliate, Regnum Christi.
“Marcel, however, is also an
accused child molester. Eight former Legionary seminarians say he
abuse them. As this paper previously reported: ‘The men say Marciel
first abused them when they were young boys or teenagers between the
ages of 10 and 16, sometimes telling them he had permission form
Pope Pius XII to engage in sexual acts with them in order to gain
relief from pain related to an unspecified stomach ailment.’
“Maciel vigorously denied the
allegations. The Vatican, by all indications, has white washed its
investigation into the charges.
“But, here’s a key point, his
accusers exude credibility. They include an engineer, a
schoolteacher, a lawyer, a rancher, a Harvard-educated scholar, a
professor at the U.S. Defense Languages School, a psychology
professor and a retired priest. A distinguished group, ignited only,
they say, in an effort to expose the truth about the man who
sexually abused them.
“If Maciel were a U.S. priest,
under procedures approved by the American bishops and recognized by
the Vatican in 2002, he would be removed from active ministry,
declared unfit to wear a Roman collar. Instead, he is honored by the
In some of my other readings
about Maciel and the Legionaries showed hoe they have had elite
backing and clout in the Vatican. They seem to minister with their
clergy and school sytem to the walthy especially in Mexico and Latin
American. They back the wealthy, where critics say they stifle by
their work and teachings stifle any social or economical reforms.
They seem to focus o the wealthy which reinforces the sharp class
divides that have long held Latin America back with these issues of
change. They are even established in Washington, D.C.
This same issue of the
National Catholic Reporter had another interesting, timely
article The Vatican combats Manichaean’s” fourth century heresy
tells us a lot about ur embodies selves.”
Christ Roberts writes: In the
middle of the summer, on the last day of July, the Vatican released
a letter to the world’s Roman Catholic bishops ‘On the collaboration
of men and women in the church and in the world.’ NCR noted
it at the time, publishing both supportive and critical commentary
but now that the dust has settled, is it possible to re-read the
letter in a broader, less partisan perspective?
“If you followed the columnists
and other media reports back in the summer, then you probably
suspect that from a feminist point of view the letter is at best
ambiguous. Fro instance, one section of the letter argues that women
deserve economic respect, and this can be seen as progressive. On
the other hand, a closing paragraph also assists upon ‘the
reservation of the priestly ordination solely to me.’ Other
examples, suggesting both conservative and progressive spin on the
letter, can be adduced. Perhaps this letter is just a deadlock.
frustratingly, this letter is free of ecclesiastical self-criticism.
It omits reflection on the church’s notorious failures to apply its
own teachings. To some people, the irony will be comical: In this
letter, one group f men (some Vatican bishops) writes to another
group of men (the world’s bishops) on the subject of collaborating
with women. Many critics will wonder why these bishops couldn’t find
any women to help with the letter. Collaboration evidently has it
“So is this letter worth
reading? Is there anything else in this letter, besides the
ambiguity and frustration? Yes and yes, but those how this letter
might be worthwhile, it helps to see it in a wider context, a
contact almost universally ignored in both the secular and religious
media. What we have here is more or less a fresh update on St.
Augustine’s fourth-century clash with the Manicheans.
“Church history and the classic
heresies aren’t everyone’s cup of tea. Mentioning them is hardly
likely to entice most modern readers to give the Vatican a chance to
try to engage this document form the papal point of view. But if you
want an antidote to frustration, spare a moment for this broader
perspective. It explains a few things and sets the terms for anyone
who wants to see Christian theology do better than this letter.
“The Manicheans were a
quasi-Christian sect who could not believe that a good God would be
involved in the material world. They emphasized that what matters in
a person is immaterial spirit, and that our bodies are indifferent
or even hostile to spiritual pursuits.
“Augustine, although once a
Manichaean himself, studied the Bible and changed his mind. He
deduced that our bodies, like all of material creation, are not
hostile or indifferent, because in Genesis, God calls them good.
Although we are beset by sin and suffering, the problem lies in our
pride and selfishness and not in the mere fact of having been
“On that basis, and buttressed
by the implications of Christ’s Incarnation and the Resurrection,
Augustine believed that God loves what he has made and that God
works with and through materiality for our redemption. In other
words, when we think about ethical problems related to the body, we
shouldn’t act as if the body wee a curse, as if it were an obstacle
to ignore, overcome or tame…”129
When I read this article, I was
aware of the “Letter” but immediately wondered what was the Vatican
sending this at this time besides the women’s ordination issue of
late? The Vatican, I learned, has a number of issues they silently
address with their “Letter” technique.
December 12 2004
I received a note for Father Al
who I met while I had my tour of IOL-Hartford for 9 weeks.
He wrote: “Dear Ted: Just got
back from Florida yesterday and noticed you are due at Looney-Bin on
Dec. 9. I can’t make it that day, family matters…”130
He is form Hartford area and we
would have lunch any time I had to do my “check-in.” This was the
way Worcester’s Bishop was monitoring me and my Leave of Absence.
Father Al’s use of the term
“Looney-Bin” is very seldom heard this day and age. But, it is a
term that few of us priests that had to go through the “tour” that
we did. It was an experience.
Worcester Telegram & Gazette
had Dianne Williamson column with “Santa stint eases a heavy heart:
Former youth minister works through pain.”
Williamson writes: “A year ago,
Solomon E. Toledo Jr. was the well-regarded head other young adult
ministry for the Diocese of Worcester. He was earning a respectable
wage and hoping to eventually parley his experience into a higher
post with a diocese on the West Coast.
Today, Mr. Toledo is homeless
and living in his 1993 blue Buick Lexabre. He works part time at
Wal-Mart in Whitinsville, but a salary cut in half by child support
payments barely covers his food. And although he has struggled for
years with clinical depression, he said he is nourished by a holiday
ritual he has performed for three decades.
Every weekend, the 50-yer-old
Mr. Toledo dons a Santa Claus suit and sheds his sadness for a few
magical hours. At a discount store in the Wal-Mart plaza, Mr. Toledo
sits in a tall chair and allows the dreams of happy, innocent
children to nurture his battered suit.
“‘I love it,’ said Mr. Toledo,
who’s bleached heard and ruddy complexion makes him a
picture-perfect Santa. ‘The world is so bleak at time. But kids see
me and their eyes shine. If I can’t by a youth minister anymore, I
can at least be a symbol of love for children.’
“A year ago last month, Mr.
Toledo was summoned to the diocesan chancery office and summarily
fired by Monsignor Thomas J. Sullivan. While the diocese has
provided few details, Mr. Toledo said he was dismissed because of a
26-year-old allegation of sexual misconduct that occurred between
the then 22-year-old youth minister and a 16-year-old girl in
Riverside Calif. No charges were ever brought against Mr. Toledo;
last week, police in Riverside said they have not record of any
investigation against him…”131
The dragnet continues going
through the water. Here was a layman that was hired by the Church
and then allegated? What become interesting was how all this
occurred. I question where were the lawyers in this type of
situation? Was this another case of “deep pockets”?
December 13, 2004
I had a very different
experience this day-no automobile which was in for repairs, no
telephone service and therefore no internet. I had to “get with the
program” and do some text writing. It was a different overall day in
that I would take it for granted to have my car and telephone for
immediate use. It was not the case. In some sense, I was somewhat
December 14, 2004
I was reflection on society’s
addiction to consumerism, gambling and large scale debt often leads
to disillusionment for people and easily pray for fundamental
Christian groups in all religious dimensions that preach: With no
religious back ground to provide tools or means for discernment are
swayed by clear, intimate and harsh take-it-or-leave it morality.
The times reflect itself in too clear answers being given and
followed. Life is much more complicated and dynamic than what
certain religious and political groups are relating. I still feel
that I am the person I have developed to be because of the “tools” I
have obtained through life and am “thinking.”
In this days Worcester
Telegram & Gazette under the “New England “section was “Church’s
new anti-abuse plan criticized.
Rachel Zoll of the Associated Press wrote: “Two
victim advocacy groups accused Roman Catholic bishops yesterday of
abandoning their pledge not root out sexually abusive clergy by
reducing the number of U.S. dioceses that will receive full, on-site
audits of their child protection programs next year.
: But a spokesman for the U.S. Conference of
Catholic Bishops said the changes were meant only to make theories
more efficient and were not a sing church leaders are backing away
“Massachusetts-based Voice of
the Faithful, a lay Catholic group, and the Survivors Network of
those Abused by Priests, said the revisions will undermine whatever
trust the bishops have restored in their leadership since the abuse
crisis began in Boston in early 2002.
“In each of the last tow years,
the bishops hired an outside auditor who sent teams largely made up
of former FBI agents into al 195 U.S. dioceses. Their job was to
determine whether the church had put in place the safeguards
required under the anti-abuse policy that the bishops approved at
their June 2002 meeting in Dallas.
“Last month, the bishops
authorized a new approach to the audits at their national meeting in
Washington. They decided that dioceses fund fully compliant twice
will not be required to have on-site visits next year... Instead,
they can fill out questionnaires that will be sent to the auditors
for review. Some bishops had complained that the audits were
expensive and time-consuming…”132
December 22, 2004
I called the Giza’s in Palmer
hoping to make a visit. It was something where previously would get
in the car and drive in for a visit. Paul, their son, answered the
phone. He said: “It was not a good idea, Teddy, for a visit. The
family has been taking care of my parents.” Stan Giza-the father-
was going for evaluation because last month he had a mini-stroke. I
said that I would keep him in my daily Mass prayers. I never heard
I was going to re-write some of
my journal but decided to let it be in what I had written. What I
wrote of late was my thinking of the time and that was important
because I did not have to be political. My “fear buckets” were
filling-up in my thinking of the phone call to Palmer and the
“visit” issue plus the Father Ridick letter of a possible visit? I
did still carry the fear of being “carved-up” again. I was
experiencing either feast or famine with Christmas invites.
I had coffee this day with Jim
Morarity-my lawyer firmed and former parishioner. I asked him about
the issue of having any legal grounds concerning “defamation of
Morarity made a facial
expression, that seemed to me of a hopeless situation and don’t do
anything as such to the Church. It was a nonverbal communication
skill which I am very good at reading. He did say that it was a very
difficult undertaking that is not very rewarding. Jim is one of
those “Old Catholics” in that the clergy are beyond any wrong doing.
I didn’t go any further with him about this. But, it still resonated
in my mind of what Attorney Carey said to me: “You can open you case
anytime you want.”
December 25, 2004
I reflected this day on how I
need to look back and see more than anything and that is God’s face.
Faith doesn’t promise a ladder to crawl-out of the pains of life. It
promises a grid to walk on with this rough way of those pains.
Mostly, it is only when we look back in our lives that we see that
this “friend” has always been there. It means that one is able to
manage those feelings that at times are so difficult to understand
or deal with. There, really, is no magic bullet.
December 30, 2004
On page B1 of the Worcester
Telegram & Gazette this day we read “New suits name 6
priests-Rev. Messier among listed: 3 priests not previously named.”
Kathleen A. Shaw writes:
“Worcester-New civil lawsuits alleging sexual abuse by six priests
of the Catholic Diocese of Worcester, three of whom have not been
accused previously in legal action, were filed Tuesday in Worcester
“The suits name the Rev., John
J. Bagley, former diocesan chancellor, who was removed in 2002 by
former Bishop Daniel P. Reilly after another allegation was made;
the Rev. Raymond P. Messier and the Rev. Henry S. Banach, who have
civil suits involving other allegations pending against them; the
Rev. Leo J.O/Neal, who is now retired and the Rev. Bernard R. Reilly
and Monsignor Michael L. Carney, both of whom are deceased. The
suits were filed by Boston lawyer Carmen L. Durso.
“The suits list the following
“Rev. Bagley, now of Hyannis
allegedly assaulted a male victim in1963 when he was assigned to
Christ the King parish in Worcester. The alleged victim was about 15
at the time.
“Rev. Bagley was pastor of St.
Mary’s Church in North Grafton when he was removed form ministry in
2002 by Bishop Reilly after the bishop received another allegation
of sexual abuse involving an underage youth who said he was sexually
assaulted in 1067 at Christ the King parish. (Wait a minute, Bagley
was “on the job” with a previous allegation? Interesting how even
“Rev. O’Neal, now retired, was
assigned to St. Joseph Church in Barre in 1975 when he allegedly
sexually abused a 14-yesar-old boy, then an orphan living at Stetson
Home for Boys in the same town.
“Monsignor Carney, who died in
1981, was assigned to St. Andrew the Apostle Church in Worcester in
1977 and 1978 when he allegedly sexually abused a 15-year-old boy.
“Rev. Reilly, who died in 1990,
allegedly sexually assaulted a girl in Worcester. A woman alleges
she was sexually assaulted by Rev. really I her Worcester home
starting in 1952 when she was about 2 and continuing until about
“Rev. Banach allegedly abused a
goy age 12 or 13 in 1976 and 1977 when he was assigned to St. Hedwig
parish in Southbridge. He is retired and living in Worcester. He has
been accused of sexual abuse by three other men in a pending civil
“Rev. Messier allegedly abused
a boy about age 12 in 1976 and 1977 when he was serving at St. Joan
of Arc parish in Worcester. The alleged assault happened at the
priest’s Charlton home.
“Rev. Messier was pastor of St.
Francis of Assisi parish in Athol and St. Peter’s parish in
Petersham when he was removed form the ministry in 2002 by Bishop
Reilly after another allegation was made. (Here we go again with
Reilly not removing a priest until there is a second allegation?
What was really going on?) He is now living I Charlton. He has been
accused by three other men in a pending civil suit…”133
How many of these guys had to
go through a visit like Hartford in my case? What was the standard
with Bishop Reilly and the normal policy with priest allegated but
here he did nothing until he received a second allegation as with
Bagley and Messier?
Another small article appeared
on page B6 of this same paper entitled “Retired priest not be
The article read: “Worcester-A
retired priest accused of sexually assaulting a child may undergo a
psychiatric evaluation to determine whether he is mentally competent
to stand trail.
“The Rev. John J. Scantryz, 73,
of Waterbury, Comm., is awaiting trial in Central District Court on
four counts of indecent assault and battery on child under the age
of 14. The charges date back to the mid-1980s, when Rev. Szantyr was
assigned to Our Lady of Czestochowa Parish on Ward Street. The
sexual assaults are alleged to have occurred on various dates form
June 1, 1985 to Dec. 12, 1987. The alleged victim, a boy, is now in
his late 20s.
“The criminal complaints
against Rev. Scantryz were issued in 2003, after the alleged victim
told investigators the man he knew as ‘Father John’ touched him in
an indecent manner when he was a child attending Our Lady of
Czestochowa and Rev. Szantry was a priest assigned to the parish.
“A preliminary psychological
examination of Rev. Szantry by a court-designated forensic
psychologist was conducted Dec. 16 at the request of Assistant
District Attorney Joseph J. Reilly III, according to curt records.
The case was continued to Feb. 17 for a hearing…”134
Nothing more was reported in
the media or other on Father Szantry. He dropped-off the edge of the
December 31, 2004
The Boston Globe through
boston.com on the Internet reported by Associated Press this day “6
file sex abuse suits in Worcester Diocese.”
It reads: “Worcester-Five
people who say they were molested by priests, as well as another
person who alleges abuse by a pay person, have filed lawsuits
against the Worcester Diocese, which this month sought to dismiss or
limit other sexual abuse suits.
“Four men and a woman contend
in the suits filed Tuesday in Worcester Superior Court that they
were assaulted in the 1960s and 1970s, according to their attorney,
A Sixth suit filed Tuesday
against the diocese alleges that a layperson hired by a priest
assaulted a boy. All are seeking unspecified damages.
“The new suits include claims
against the Rev. Raymond Messier, the Rev. Henry S. Banach, and the
Rev. John Bagley, all of whom were preciously accused of abuse.
Banach is retired, while messier and Bagley are on leave.
“A spokesman for the diocese
did not return call seeking comment.
“Supreme Court Judge Jeffrey A.
Locke has not ruled on a diocese motion to dismiss or limit lawsuit
filed by a dozen men who claimed they were molested by priests.
“Durso, who also represents
some of those plaintiffs, argued that the church should not be
allowed to limit the size of the payouts because the abuse of
children and shifting priests from parish to parish was to part of
it charitable functioning.”
This article is a follow-up of
the previous days report in the local newspaper. But my eyes opened
with the comment that Bishop Reilly did to remove certain priest
until he had a second allegation on a priest.