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January 1, 2004

                Well, the first day of the year and I get a phone call from Don “Donnie” DiRusso from Florida. He had to tell me that he was his aunt’s funeral- Mrs. Dora Bizzatto- in Westminster. It seemed that after the funeral at St. Edwards his other aunt-Mrs. Evelyn Delmonico-started telling people in her about “him” (Fr. Kardas. She was telling about the article in the newspaper-last February- about McCormick being interviewed by Kathleen A. Shaw.  He said that his Aunt Evelyn was blistering about me with very strong comments that were “very favorable.”

                I told Donne about the article in that there was nothing new then what was printed in 1995. But, Evelyn was on a vendetta run with her husband Ralph Delmonico. Let’s not forget, Ralph was the guy in 1993 going up and down Main Street-literally-telling everyone that would listen that I stole $40,000 from the parish. (He was the guy that used to be a “Sunday Mass Collection” with the long handles poking parishioners taking up the collection and holding-up the back wall by the main church door during Mass-refusing to be part of the assembly. These two-Evelyn and Ralph-had attitude incorporated not only with the church but in general. They were not fun people to have for breakfast.

                But what this did show by the last February article and clergy media reporting that there was a “trashing” as one priest told me. It was over and over again and continued on. 

January 5, 2004

                I watched a one hour special on cable of NECN entitled “Father Paul Shanley-Crisis in the Church. I watched how Shanley was presented as being penury with his court appearance and interviews. He was shown in an extreme light and often giggly frugality. Obviously, it was not a positive picture given in the program. One has to remember that in the early 70s; Shanley was known as the “Street Priest” in Boston and was lamented. Here it is 30 years later and the media is feasting on a totally different presentation. 

January 6, 2004

                I received a phone call from “Father Peacock” to ask me to get something to eat before I attend my Tuesday AA meeting.

                What was peculiar was Tuesdays he was gone on his “day-off.” I always realized he had an angle working whenever I would get a phone call from him. I know this sounds paranoid, but I don’t think I am that far-off on this guy.

                He proceeded to tell me that he called Fr. John Paul Gagnon (Administrative Leave). He said he spoke with him for some period of time. He bluntly said to me that he does not want to have the dinner that he was hoping to have at his rectory with 3 or 4 other priest on Administrative Leave with him hosting the group-included me. I just listened. There was something else going on where he didn’t want to be identified with this special undertaking on his part-gathering the “wayward bother priest.”

                I wondered about this whole thing. What was “Father Peacock” true motive? Thinking about it, he most of hear from Gagnon that another priest was becoming the liaison with priest on Administrative Leave (Fr. George Riddick).  “Father Peacock” only did things in the Church to become a Monsignor. I believe that he thought by getting such a position, he would have his last chance because of his age to become that “Monsignor.” There was a reason for that spe9ial dinner being canceled by him. Father Gagnon was one that knew all the priest gossip that was not fit to print in the diocese.

                I really did min that this was big cancelled. This was not a group that I would hang-around with overall besides priestly meetings.

                This same meal the conversation turned somehow where I said: Isn’t it peculiar that my case is similar toyshop Harrington’s drunk driving accident with a teenager being seriously hurt in the other vehicle. “Father Peacock” snapped back at me: “”Your case was sex.” I responded that my case was only an allegation, not an actual account of Harrington’s fact (slipped away from the accident by the police department). Nothing more was said. Actually, the silence was dealing. But, he did come back with: “No one will fire your case-up because they are fearful of getting sued.” This was the fear and control factor that “Father Peacock” would use at times. This occurred mainly when times that he was frustrated or possibly me coming too close to another issue in his background. It was very oblivious with his face becoming red with anger. It was as though the “Ugly American” model of late using others in an individualistic super-cognitive dualistic manner.

                This is like the words in the song Hotel California: “You can sing out anytime, but you can never leave.” A number of times, I had people tell me to leave. Where I responded, it is my vocation you are talking about. I had to realize that it was “smoking minors” trying to explain to certain individuals-they really didn’t want to see what it really was. 

January 7, 2004

                The Sentinel & Enterprise and the Worcester Telegram & Gazette carried practically the same front page story on the Worcester Diocese Sex Abuse Audit.

                The Sentinel & Enterprise story “Diocese lauded for abuse outreach: Critics say audit is superficial, doesn’t address she root of the problem.” Matt O’Brien reports: “Worcester-An audit found the Worcester Catholic Diocese in full compliance with the 2002 Dallas Charter on clergy sexual abuse, a set of mandatory guidelines set forth by the U.S Catholic bishops.

                “Church leaders in Worcester County celebrated Tuesday findings, which praised the diocese for its outreach work to protect children from sexual abuse, while critics lambasted the assessment as superficial.

                “ ‘The gave themselves a good report card,’ said Ann Hagan Webb, a New England coordinator for the Survivors Network of those Abuse by Priests, as she learned about the national results. ‘They hired auditors that the picked.’

                “The review led by two former FBI officials working for Boston-based contractors, the Gavin Group, commended the Worcester Diocese for its ‘openness and transparency in dealing with issues of sexual abuse of minors.’   

                “The auditors, in a report released Tuesday also praised the diocese for the ‘protection involvement’ of a diocesan review committee that began in Worcester 10 years before the Boston clergy abuse crisis erupted…”1

                This same day, in addition the Worcester Telegram & Gazette printed the story “Dioceses follow abuse reforms.” Denise Lavoie of The Associated Press writes: “The archdiocese at the epicenter of the clergy sex abuse scandal is complying with reforms put in place by the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops, according to a report released yesterday.

                “Some sex abuse victims and their advocates said the report, which measured compliance wit a policy established by the bishops in June 2002, was flawed because bishops themselves had to much control over the review process.

                “The audit praised the Boston Archdiocese for an aggressive outreach program, which has included sponsoring a national conference of mental health processionals to deal with issues related to sex abuse by priests.

                “Investigators also commended Boston for its efforts to give 200,000 churches and school workers, including priest ‘safe environment’ training to identify and present abuse, and for establishing a support group for the parents of people who have been abuse by priests.

                “Dioceses in Springfield, Worcester and Fall River also were found to be in compliance.

                “The auditors made recommendations in seven areas where they said archdiocese had not gone far enough. Included in those was a call for the church to better publicize the procedures for filing complaints of clergy sex abuse, and that the archdiocese should establish a record-keeping system to document all allegations of abuse reported to state Attorney Thomas F. Reilly.

                “In July, Reilly released a scathing report saying that 250 Boston-area priests and church workers had probably molested as many as 1,000 people between 1940 and 2000.

                “In their report, the auditors said Boston had complied with five of the seven recommendations as of Dec. 1,2003…Some said bishops had too much control over how the audit was conducted. Auditors were unable to review personal files that would verify whether bishops were complaining with a ban on transferring offenders frame diocese to another. The bishops recommended who the auditors should interview.

“‘Essentially, they picked the auditors, they chose what to show them,’ said Ann Hagan Webb, co-coordinator for the New England chapter of the Survivors Network of Those Abused by Priests.”2 

January 9, 2004

                We get the same story working on the front page of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette but by another reporter than Shaw and Nangle. Luttrell’s story is “Local diocese reform steps commended: Audit commends diocese” states: “Worcester-An audit showing that 90 percent of the country’s dioceses were complying with reforms put in place by the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops commended the Diocese of Worcester for taking steps to protect young people from clergy sexual abuse.

                “The audit, done largely by former FBI agent, commended the diocese for being in full compliance with the reforms and offered no instructions or recommendations for further measures.

                “Mary T. Jean of Worcester Voice, an activist who works with victims of clergy abuse, said the audit was self-serving and showed no new efforts on behalf of victims.

                “Diocese spokesman Raymond L. Delise disagreed, as did the head of the auditing firm.

                “The audit, by the Gavin Group Inc., looked at how 195 dioceses around the country complied with the Chapter for the Protection of Children and Young People, drafted in June 2002 by the Conference of Catholic Bishops in response to the pedophile priest crisis.

                “ ‘The audit process and the resulting report underscore that we are committed to healing and restoring trust by demonstrating our support for both letter and the spirit of the charter,’ Bishop Daniel P. Reilly, bishop of the Diocese of Worcester, said in a prepared statement.

                “The Diocese of Worcester was audited as part of the first group of dioceses, from June 23 to 27.the diocese comprises 126 parishes and 26 schools, has 244 priests and 76 deacons serving a population of 390,657 Catholics, the report says.

                “Among areas the audit examined was the exclusion from ministry of priests and others found guilty of abuse; conducting background checks on employees, priests and volunteers and volunteers on how to identify abuse.

                “The diocese was commended for the ‘excellence of the Diocese’s communications policy and procedures reflecting the bishop’s commitment to openness and transparency in dealing with issues of sexual abuse of minors,’ the report states…”3

                It is interesting to watch these reports and the PR issue by the Church. It gets: Who’s on first and what’s on second. The issue at hand is lost in the word game. 

January 10, 2004

                This day we get in the “Local News” of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette a story by Kathleen A. Shaw “Legal bills and cemetery costs put diocese in the red.” She writes: “Worcester-The Diocese of Worcester finished its fiscal year with a loss of about $800,000, which included major deficits in the cemetery system and a payout of more that #325,000 for legal fees and other cost related to allegations of clergy sexual abuse.

                “In the fiscal year that ended Aug. 31, the diocese also had to take more than $288,000 from the central administration fund to make up for a shortfall in the Bishop’s Fund.

                “The diocese released its annual financial statement yesterday. Raymond L. Delisle, diocesan spokesman, said expense exceeded income by $793,996.

                “The bulk of money that went to the central administration fund came from the cathedratiucum, which is a tax on proceeds from parish collections that go directly to the diocese. It is assessed according to canon law throughout the worldwide Roman Catholic Church to provide money to dioceses. In this diocese, the tax is 7 percent…”4

                What I find interesting is a reporter like Shaw is taking this annual report and making statements that one has to interpret in context and questions: What does any one figure “truly” represent. The best one that I heard when I was taking the “new pastors” course at Anna Maria College where the professor on economics had the annual diocesan report from the printing of the Catholic Free Press saying time and time again on figures: I’m not sure what this figure means? So, drawing that the diocese ran 2003 in the “red” in regards to what overall factor? I know that one would say: “Red” means money in deficit nature- losing money.

                My case was settled in 1998 by the diocese. So, the monies paid out for priest sex abuse figure would not be included in this 2003 financial report. Therefore, one had to watch where the lines are in such money matters.  

January 14, 2004

                The cartoon “B.C.” this day in the newspaper had “You know” machine giving “Chin answer”: “You know your trail is heading south when your lawyer objects to your swearing to tell the truth and nothing but the truth.”5

                When I read this in the Worcester Telegram & Gazette, I, immediately, recalled how my civil lawyer called me to say: You’re case has been settled. I was shocked because I never was actually able to give my whole story and tell the “truth.” The truth was that I never molested these two girls that claimed that I allegated or anyone for that matter. I was never given an opportunity to defend myself or for that matter make those statements besides in my deposition. The case was settled without my agreeing to settle the suits or anything else. I was, only, told by Attorney Carey: It is over. I recall saying to him: What is over?

                Oh! This is the second anniversary of my last contact with anything with my bishop-appointment at Chancery with Bishop Reilly. This was the meeting that I asked for help with my “rent” and gave him the list of “Stolen items from the rectory.” It reminded that I was given a positive confirmation of hope and list being addressed-end of story on Reilly’s political part.

                What I did notice, again, was while writing my “journal” and text that my shoulder became tight and I was feeling more tense than usual. I went outside for my three-mile walk (approx. 60 min.) to clear my head and find a means of relaxation in this walking. But, my body was sore at the shoulders. I kept reminding myself in the walk to relax.  

January 15, 2004

                “Therapists confer to help abuse victims: Archbishop says counseling needed” appeared in this day’s issue of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette. Denise Lavoie of The Associated Press writes: “Newton-Nearly 200 social workers, psychologist another mental health professionals from a dozen states came to the epicenter of the clergy sex abuse crisis yesterday for a groundbreaking conference aimed at finding the best methods for treating victims of clergy abuse.

                “Many of the speakers at the conference were nationally known experts in treating child sexual abuse, but they readily acknowledged that clergy sex abuse is a relative new area for them and one that requires specialized treatment.

                “ ‘We know very little about the impact of clergy sexual abuse,’ which is different in ‘important and fundamental ways’ from sexual child abuse, said Terrace Keane, a professor of psychiatry at the Boston University school of Medicine and director of The National Center for Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder.

                “The conference was co-sponsored by Boston College and the Archdiocese of Boston. The clergy sex abuse scandal erupted two years ago in Boston with revelations that church officials had shuffled pedophile priest John J. Geoghan fro parish to parish even after learning of abuse allegations against him.

                “The scandal widened after internal church documents showed that dozens of priest were similarly protected after the church received abuse allegations against them. The scandal spread to dioceses across the country as more and more victims came forward to say they were abused by priests as children…”6

                A couple of points must be recognized as the crisis of the last two year begins to ask: What was happening to me in 1993? The other point of the “scandal spread…more and more victims came foreword” is only beginning more questions: Why now? Do you mean to say that no one spoke out but when one realized, as the experts say-a new phenomena – we have people connecting dots to get what we have now. Where would money play into the formula or agenda against the Roman Catholic Church in its teachings? 

January 16, 2004

                John L. Allen, Jr. writes this day in the National Catholic Reporter with “The Word from Rome: Rome greets audit with appreciation, reservations.” He writes: “On Jan. 6, the W.S, bishops issued the first of three much-anticipated reports on she sex abuse crisis. The report presented was an audit of American dioceses on their compliance with the Charter for the Protection of Children and Young People adopted by the bishops in Dallas in June 2002. The report found that 90 percent of dioceses are in basic compliance, a result that player to largely positive comment in the American press; although victims’ groups argued that since the auditors worked for the bishop it was not a credible probe…

                “At the same time, however, officials continued to voice reservations about some aspects of the American approach.

“For one thing, officials told me, it’s still unclear to them what ‘sexual abuse’ means in the American context. Thus if the John Jay report lists ‘X number of incidents in Y years,’ these officials will wonder what the criteria were for classifying something as an ‘incident.’ This becomes a particularly acute problem if one review board in one diocese decides that a given behavior constitutes sexual abuse and thus a priest is removed for life, while I another diocese similar behavior triggers no disciplinary consequences (What if your bishop had a drunken driving accident of a teen bodily harm?)

“Second, some officials still question the ‘zero tolerance’ policy itself which stipulates that a priest will be revoked from ministry for life for even one incident of sexual abuse of a minor. These officials believe that in cases of a less serious offense in the distant past, priest would, at least in some instances, be able to resume a ministry.

“A related concern has to do with due process rights. One hears horror stories in the Vatican about priest who have been suspended as a result of an accusation, and then ‘cut off’ by their bishops, with no further communication and hence no chance  for their day in court (Try me and my story. What I find interesting was that my case was not the only one that was “cut off.”  Rome was aware of the operations of their bishops and realized how heavy handed some cases were. Yet, I became a statistic overall.)

“Finally, some Vatican officials continue to express reservations about the role of the National Review Board, especially the concept that laity are exercising a sort of ill-defined authority over bishops (Shut-out).”7

This one of those rare times that I read anything of what has happened to me by the isolation of my situation and the Worcester Chancery “Goon” Squad. I wondered: What if we-priest- had the Priests’ “Union” functioning?

Another article in this same issue “Audit avoids basic question: Why? Report measured a bureaucratic response to a bureaucratic solution, says expert on abuse crisis” by Fr. Thomas Doyle. He writes: “The lengthily and detailed report on the implementation of the Charter for the Protection of Children and Young People contains much to commend it. There seems little doubt that hits is a good ‘first step’ but it is far from the end of the road. These bishops and others who believe that the institutional church and the bishops have turned the corner are sadly mistaken. While the repots reflects definite progress, the deficiencies loom and must be both acknowledged and someday addressed if the so-called ‘corner’ is ever to be reached and the end of the road-a church of openness, trust and compassing led by a majority of leaders with similar virtues-is to be seen.

                “The major problem with this report and the prices it describes is that it seems primarily geared toward re-establishing the lost credibility of the bishops rather than getting at the root cause of the sex abuse nightmare and thereby effectively dealing with the many painful aspects of this nightmare. True, the report examines the norms of the charter in great detail and at times makes realistic and pointed observations followed by good recommendations. The problem is that the entire endeavor only scratched the surface and this, by design. The purpose of the audit process was to determine compliance with the charter which tells very little of the total clergy abuse story. The report is certain to disappoint and anger victims, survivors, their families and loved one, their supporters and many other laity, clergy and religious who have been waiting for an adequate organizational response to this terrible dark night of Cathol-icism’s corporate soul…The rot of the problem is not a few thousand dysfunctional clerics. It is far deeper than that…”8

                This is the Father Doyle that the media credits for started to make public the priests’ sex abuse crisis in the United States when he was working the Vatican Embassy in Washington. Doyle was practically “exiled” because he then became an Air Force Chaplin in Germany.

                I received a belated Christmas-picture card from David Laughrea in California. David knew me from my first assignment at St. George’s and corresponded annually with a Christmas card. This year he wrote: “I found out from my mother and father that you are retired.” This is how certain people out here have me classified. What I wondered was where did his father-Jim- get that type of information to tell his son?

January 20, 2004

                I have experienced my good times to write and not so good even at times, I am unable to turn my computer on to do my book or journal. I call this experience my “roller-coaster ride” with the ups and downs of life in general.

                What I noticed previously and experience time and again that I am struggling with emotional ups and downs that I try to adapt where I try to not carry on my daily routine.

                I do experience at times when I recall a phrase or thought that I recall when I may have been laying in bed during the night. I was at a point of taking a slip of paper and pen on my night table to jot it on paper. I’ve changed that routine because I had to discipline myself to say “sleep time is sleep time.”

                I want to finish writing my book section and wanting to do this now to move on to project-novel writing. I noticed that my writing is more objective and rational style. I have a rhythm going at this time. When I write I try to block-in a plan of 2 or 4 hour bracket.  

January 25, 2004

                Now here is a story that is something we do not have in Worcester Diocese. The closest of anything as such was in the early 70s with Bishop Flanagan, as the Ordinary, of a “Priest Association (Union).” It only lasted five year, mainly due to the fact that it consisted of “curates” (Associate Pastors). I was a member and recall that Monsignor Manning and Father Rueger would not even talk at meal time in the rectory at St. Georges, Worcester. What was peculiar was our bishop (Flanagan) allowed the “union” to function. The pastors were the issue. It was a definite need for a “rights” issue. But, it had a fast-death because the members were experiencing rectory difficulties-living with the absolute pastor model. It was an interesting experience that eventually had Rueger be my “executor” as auxiliary bishop-Harrington’s lap dog.

                So, the Worcester Telegram & Gazette prints this day “Clerical group struggling: Boston Priests’ Forum trying to define its purpose” by Jay Lindsay of The Associated Press.

                “The article reads: “Boston-A pioneering group that gained prominence during the sex abuse crisis as a voice for long-silent clergy is struggling to define its purpose even as some priests criticize it as divisive and barley functioning.

                “The Boston Priests’ Forum got its start as a place for clergy to socialize and support each other and soon found itself rallying around a single issue-concern about the handling of the church abuse scandal by Cardinal Bernard F. Law.

                “Now, a year after Law resigned, the forum finds itself caught between retuning to its roots as a fraternal organization or developing the pubic voice it found during the height of the crisis, said the Rev. Robert W. Bullock, the group’s president.

                “The forum might best serve priests as an independent vice, but that could also cause major discord, said the Rev. Thomas A. Mahoney, the group’s treasurer.

                “‘That’s why this is a difficult crossroads to come to,’ he said.

                “The Boston Priests’ forum was founded in 2001 by three priests who began meeting over dinner to discuss the theology and chronic problems of the priesthood, such as isolation and overwork.

                ‘When the abuse scandal broke in January 2002, group leaders took on a role as a public voice for clerics who saw church elders as unresponsive to their concerns about false accusations and plummeting morale…”9

                This is the unanswerable question in my case and I image many others: What if? We will never know. The hierarchy made sure of that. 

January 23, 2004

                I came across an interesting thought in my writing of my manuscript: Sermon style for weekend liturgies-If you have a comfortable Jesus in you life agenda, it is not Jesus.  Most interesting to have this renewed thought to carry in the memory bank. 

January 28, 2004.

                I noticed that writing my manuscript that I was, another explanation, going through a yo-yo emotional feelings. I had found it difficult this day and last few weeks difficult to write, mainly because of related newspaper stories of late.  

January 30, 2004

                At times, I felt as though I was being treating as a ‘welfare case.” I was doing non-priestly work. But, I had the impression that some people think I didn’t do anything but get a monthly “salary.”  I actually have been told that I didn’t do anything. Oh? I would get very defensive at times with this when asked: What have you been doing?

                Finally, I became somewhat smart and developed a standard response: I have a daily routine that is quite extensive. I realized that manuscript work and writing wasn’t substituted for living. I was trying to live a normal life pattern as conditions have been established.

                One conversation that I had with a former parishioner made the remark to me that when a new bishop comes to Worcester that he would bet me doing something back in the Church. I didn’t have this hope. I was somewhat resolved to functioning with my priesthood was going to be in” the cave.” I think I was pragmatic enough to keep a focus on doing the best with the conditions that were in my area of living. There were forces that were pushing me to get a “real life.” But, overall, the vocation issue of my priesthood was the key to my personhood. 

January 31, 2004

                The Worcester Telegram & Gazette front page story in large headlines gives us this day “Report on clergy abuse released: Conte responds to public concern: Statements from 113 victims used to investigations.” Roger Leo of the Telegram & Gazette Staff reports: “Worcester-To assure the public that has office has followed evidence of clergy sexual abuse wherever it leads, District Attorney John J. Conte yesterday released a report of investigation that began in February 2002 and continue today.

                “Mr. Conte’s report showed 17 clerics have been charged with criminal sexual abuse since 1985 and eight others were to criminally charged but have been removed from ministry.

                “Ten of the accused priests were charged between 1985 and the mid-1990s, while seven others have been charged as a result of an ongoing investigation that began in 2002; one of those seven has pleaded guilty and one was found not guilty. The cases of the other five are ongoing.

                “The report also showed that allegations of a clergy sexual abuse peaked in 1979, when 56 offenses wee alleged, and dropped precipitously after 1989.

                “Explaining the unusual step of releasing information about on-going investigations, the report titled ‘Report on Clergy Cases January 2004,’ states: ‘This report is essential to respond to widespread pubic concern about allegations of sexual abuse by members of the clergy.

                “ ‘This information is provided to encourage victims to come forward, assist victims at understanding the investigative process, and assure the public that this office has been following the evidence wherever it leads… To date, the report states, 113 victims have provided statements to state police investigators or local police, while another 18 victims have declined to give statements sot investigate…

                “Statements taken to date (Chart): statements resulting in charges-35; statements asserting claim barred by statue of limitations-58; statements asserting fact that do not constitute criminal conduct-4; statements that require further investigation-7; statements asserting claims that are outside the Middle District jurisdiction-4; statements asserting claims against deceased persons-3; statements in which victims decline to cooperate with prosecution-2; total statements taken to date-113 (Source: Office of the District Attorney).”10 

January/February 2004

                The Atlantic Monthly issue this month had an article by Father Andrew Greeley “Young Fogy’s: Young reactionaries, aging radicals-the U.S. Catholic Church unusual clerical divide.” He writes: “The divisions created by Vatican II are not new, of course. Caught up in the reform euphoria that followed the council, the lower clergy and the laity almost immediately developed a new ideology based on respect for women and for the freedom (including the sexual freedom) of the laity. On these matters, quietly or loudly, the laity and the lower clergy did resist the teachings of the Church.

                “The backlash was swift, Church leaders realizing that reform had slipped out of their control, grew increasingly convinced of the need for Restoration-a movement n which the upper clergy would close ranks and reassert their authority. Newly appointed bishops would restore the rules; theologians who disagreed would be silenced; and, as much as possible, the old order would be re-established. Even some of the progressives of the council, frightened by the laity’s exuberant interest in change and by the declining influence of the Church in the United States, lost their nerve and joined in the call for a Restoration. Today’s young conservative priests are rallying to the call.

                “Who are these young counter-revolutionaries? Several studies are helpful in answering this question: a 1970 National Opinion study (with which I was involved); two studies released by the Los Angeles Times, in 1994 and 2oo2; and a 2002 study by the sociologist Dean R. Hoges. Hoge’s The First Five Years of the Priesthood: A Study of Newly Ordained Catholic Priests is particularly useful. Hoge reports that half the newly ordained priests are fundamentally different from layperson-that he is literally a man apart. Hoge also reports that almost a third of these priests feel that the laity need to be ‘better educated to respect the authority of the priest’s word.’ These beliefs are strikingly at odds with other of the predominantly liberal generation of new priests studied in the 1970 NORC survey. Today’s young priests tend to want to restore the power that the clergy held not only before Vatican II but also before a large educated Catholic laity emerged as a powerful force in the Church after World War II. Older priest today often complain that their younger colleges are arrogant, pompous, and rigid and that they love to parade around in clerical dress. The image that comes to mind is young versions of the old ethnic monsignors of the Depression ear.

                “Stark differences exist between older and younger priest on many major areas of concern within the Church. The 2002 Los Angeles Times study reveals that priests of the Vatican II generation overwhelmingly support the idea that priests should be allowed to marry. In the study 80 percent aged forty-six to sixty-five were in favor, as were 74 percent of those aged sixty-six to seventy-five. Only about half the priests under thirty-five, however, supported the idea. The study revealed a clear divide, too, on the ordination of women. Sixty percent of priest aged fifty-six to sixty-five, and at least half of those aged forty-six to seventy-five, supported the idea, but only 36 percent of priests under forty-six did. Significantly, even priests over seventy-five-whose news toll take well before Vatican II-were slightly more likely to support the marriage of priests and the ordination of women than were the young priests…”11

                I have submitted a significant amount of print from the article by Greeley to express the great divide of the “young fogy’s”   from my group, ordained in the early 1970s. I even saw this with a young man from St. Edward’s parish, which was teaching in a Catholic High School, and decided to enter the priesthood. He was only a lector and would never participate in anything else in the parish because he was “too busy.” Then, he would run away. I thought possibly it was a personality issue with me. So, I asked the parish music director to try to get him involved with a few projects. He gave the same answer to her.  This group of “young fogy’s” was also known as “sanctuary candle stick polishers.” They did not mix-it-up with ordinary parishioners.  

February 2, 2004

                This day the Worcester Telegram & Gazette prints “Report from DA draws split verdict: Critics say document lacks details” by Martin Luttrell. He writes: “”Worcester-Representatives of the Catholic Diocese of Worcester said a report issued last week by District Attorney John J. Conte shows that the diocese is working with him to investigate allegations of pedophile priests, and that the majority of the cases reported are several years old.

                “But advocates for the victims have misgivings, contending that the district attorney’s report shows nothing about an investigation into the chancery or how the clergy abuse problem was allowed to grow.

                “ ‘It’s a situation that seems to have decreased dramatically since 1979,’ said James G. Reardon Jr., a lawyer for the diocese. He was referring to statistics complied by the district attorney’s office that showed allegations of clergy sex abuse peaked at 56 in1079,then feel steadily until 1989, when fewer than 10 cases were alleged to have occurred.

                “ ‘I don’t see a lot of these (victims) coming forward,’ Mr. Reardon said. ‘Most are historical claims going back 20 years. Something obviously happened to change the dynamic involved.

                “‘Even most of the civil claims are for allegations more than 20 years ago,’ he continued. ‘The magnitude of the problem seems to have decreased dramatically. His statistics bear that out,’ he said of Mr. Conte's report.

                “The district attorney’s investigations began in February 2002 and continue. The report, released Friday , shows that 17  clerics have been charged with criminal sexual abuse since 1985 and that eight others were not criminally charged but have been removed form ministry…”12

                I was reading on the Internet a Catholic segment that reported that the National Catholic Reporter was going to list “Tracking list of names of clergy that have been alleged with articles” pertaining to their specifics, This was a feeling as though I was hit by a punch in my stomach. I had this experience before that I believe I described as being hit with a ‘stomach-pit feeling.” 

February 5, 2004

                Mrs. Connie Rivard died a massive heart attack at the Westminster Inn pool. I was told she finished her daily swim and sat on a beach chair and that was it.

                Connie was my parish secretary-did the weekly bulletin- on a totally volunteer bases. She was doing the bulletin for two other pastors previous to me. She gave three or four days a week in the office.

                She was one person that may have had the character of New Hampshire old state flag motto: Don’t thread on me. She was interesting with her questions to me where I tried to answer them as best as I was able. I believe she knew that.

                She was strong natured but very dedicated to the parish. She did have the knack with her friend to write letters to the bishop. I mean, she would write “strong” letters before my time with previous pastors and church situations and especially when I was removed. She walked with me through a lot while I was in the parish and after-twice a week went to lunch with her and Mrs. Vickie Mitchell. They would do their grocery shopping after lunch. Connie was something. It was good to have her on my side especially when I was renovating the parish church and building died the “Faith Community Center.”

                I spoke with her the day before she by phone after I shoveled her walks. Our phone conversation was my last communication with her. It was a lengthily and nice conversation of a number of topics.

                Connie was precious. 

February 6, 2004

                I spoke with Attorney Jim Morarity by phone. It was a general conversation with nothing specific. We did talk about the priest sex abuse issue. He mentioned how he noticed that because of Geoghan and Paul Shanley in Boston that Worcester Diocese was “jumpy and so uptight.” He mentioned that my case was nothing like the Boston cases. He, also, commented how the Church was a theocracy and absolute power: “They have all the cards.” He mentioned how things were not in my control and I had to be practical. I did respond that I knew I didn’t have any control over my situation. He said: “It is a mothball situation.”

                This reminded how I was taking a ride with Jack Keena day to NH for his “libation supplies” where he asked me: “You mean you’re not going to do anything-with the Worcester Diocese.” I said: “No! Not at this time.” Typical Jack as a retired salesman had it in his blood to even go into the den of the devil if it would produce a sale. Jack would rush-in on situations. I didn’t even go any further with explaining to him because he was on a different wave length of addressing issues.

                Back to Jim, he and I would speak periodically where he was a parishioner from Westminster. We would have some interesting “chats.” 

                I sent a letter to Attorney Ted Carey in Boston asking for copies of depositions in my case for my personal file. More times I wanted to check what was said on matters in my case. I should have requested this immediately in 1995 but did not believe anything of substance happened in my overall case. Boy! I was wrong because I now re-read exactly what was said and what thing were being “frozen” that never were related on my part as Bishop Harrington treatment and reasons for that conduct.

                I was, also, thinking of late about Bishop Dupre of Springfield (MA) Diocese alleged sex abuse case by two men some two decades before. I was thinking-did not do- of sending a note to Rueger saying: He (Dupre) wasn’t lucky as you were. I would have sent this note with a smiling face of the bottom of the paper.  One huge reason was that Rueger received the Vatican’s “Good Housekeeping Seal of Approval” of being innocent on his alleged sex abuse situation.

One of the books that has been written during this time of upheaval in the Church- Vows of Silence: The Abuse of Power in the Papacy of John Paul II  by Jason Berry and Gerald Renner and reviewed by Tom Roberts in the National Catholic Reporter.

                Roberts writes: “The church should read this book not because it contains startling new revelations and certainly not because it is uplifting or edifying. It should be read because it will train our focus, in these days of reports and audits on what we must consider-church leadership and accountability. It is a must-read because it pulls together, as is only possible in a reported book of this length, the clear evidence of how deeply ingrained is the culture of clerical secrecy that allowed the scandal to flourish. It makes clear that matter how many new reports and norms are issued, no matter how many Episcopal apologies are stacked up amid the wreckage of the crisis, the only real way out of the current mess is to institute bold new mechanisms for establishing transparency and for holding church leadership accountable.

                “Both Jason Berry and Gerald Renner are respected journalist whose carriers encompass print and reporting on myriad subjects but who are probably most widely known for the groundbreaking work each has done in unearthing the clergy sex abuse crisis and the culture of clerical secrecy.

                “By way of full disclosure, their work, individually and as a team has appeared in NCR. Berry’s career is inextricably linked to NCR; his reporting constituted the major contribution to the earliest reports of the sex abuse scandal nearly 20 years ago in these pages.

                “This book is a dramatic telling of the deeper story of the sex abuse crisis that has gripped large segments of the church for the past two decades and that has hit the elder culture most forcefully in the two years since publication of The Boston Globe’s investigating pieces. Those stories led both to a flurry of activity aimed at dealing with the crisis and the ouster of Cardinal Bernard Law.

                “The story is told primarily through the careers of Dominican Fr. Thomas Doyle, a whistleblower, who early on urged the bishops to listen to the victims and to stop hiding abusive priests, and that of Mexican Fr. Marcial Maciel Degollado, found of the Legion of Christ religious order: Maciel has been accused of sexually abusing seminarians. Under the norms enacted in the United States, given such accusations, he would have been removed from active ministry months ago. However; he remains to only a priest in good standing but a revered figure in Rome who has received clear sings of papal approval…”13

                What this book does do is show how there is different strokes for different folks syndrome. I wonder with the numbers of over 4,00 priest allegated in the United States, how many stories were that where priest were never heard from again without a public announcement. There were cases in the Worcester Diocese. Certain priest just disappeared and no one in the regular priest population knew anything or would not talk. Most guys, really, did not know anything. It was a very interesting place to minister (work) in the 80s and 90s.  

February 9, 2004

                I wrote a letter to my civil lawyer in Boston with a simple request: “Dear Attorney Carey, I would like a copy of each deposition (2) that was taken during the course of discovery in the matter you represented me. I appreciated your assistance. If you have any questions, you can reach me at 978-630-2948. Sincerely,…”14

                What I, finally, did for I was to obtain all pertinent legal material concerning my case. It was time-long overdue- to read the legal facts. 

February 11, 2004

                I received my weekly issue of the National Catholic Reporter which had a weekly column “Washington Notebook: by Joe Feuerherd.  He writes: “The Norms (American Bishops) call on bishops to suspend a pried from ministry once a credible accusation of abuse is brought forward. If the investigation bears out the allegation, the priest (with an exception for the elderly and infirm) is to be removed from ministry.

                “Writing in the Boston College Law Review, (Fr. Ladislas) Orsy S.J. who spelled out his objections to the ‘hasty’ legislation.

                “‘The Norms offer weak protection to innocent priests and deacons who are easy target of groundless accusation,’ he wrote. Meanwhile, the protections that are offered (the accused, for example, ‘is encouraged to retain counsel’) mean little because the legal infrastructure necessary to protect the rights of the accused is almost nonexistent.’ (No kidding!) ‘A priest is suspended and he has no reliable procedure to which he can turn,’ says Orsy. ‘It is so slow so convoluted and so lacking of properly trained personnel-especially in small dioceses-that it is not enough.’

                “ ‘In the law review he put it this way: ‘The diocesan courts in the United States (and elsewhere) are limited in their ability to handle criminal cases. The judges and the offices of the courts were trained primarily for the adjudication Additional problems:

·          The Norms lack a common definition of ‘sexual abuse.’ Writes Orsy: ‘To assign the ultimate responsibility for the definition of the crime to the diocesan bishop/patriarch may result in definitions diverging from place to place and from case to case, not a sound practice in criminal law.’

·          Similarly, the written policies for dealing with sexual abuse issues required by the Norms are to uniform. ‘Such an obvious deficient approach can be explained only by the extreme concern of the Conference to trespass on the jurisdiction of the individual bishops,’ writes Orsy.

·          The ‘Norms offer no legal safeguards to prevent the repetition of misguided actions by bishops’ nor do they give a role to the ‘college of presbyters [priests]’ in ‘resolving the crisis and preventing similar ones in the future.’ Says Orsy: “The fact that a small percentage of them [priests] were sick is not a reason not to use all the intelligence and energy of the rest.’

·          The ‘zero tolerance’ policy included in the Norms fails to made ‘critical distinction.’ Writes Orsy: ‘…the law should have ‘zero tolerance’ toward any crime by proscribing it, but the judge and jury should weigh and ponder the personal responsibility and culpability of the accused 9which can exist on different degrees0 and come to decision accordingly.’

·          The diocesan preview boards established by the Norms serve at the pleasure of the local bishop and are appointed by him. ‘Had the priests and the people of the diocese been given an opportunity to have a voice I the selection of the candidates for the board, the chance to provide wise advice to the bishops would have been greater.’ Says Orsy: ‘The danger that some bishops may appoint persons who will ‘never cause any problems’ is obvious.’”

“The clergy sex abuse crisis, says Orsy, is a symptom of a larger problem: a deeply flawed centralized church management system. There are no effective intermediaries between the world’s 2,7000 dioceses or their equivalents) and Rome. Writes Orsy: ‘They all repot to the Holy See (Rome)-only. No matter what the administrative apparatus of the Holy See is-and it is relatively small-it cannot provide preventive control. By way of comparison, imagine a worldwide corporation with 2,700 local branches and with no intermediate controlling stations between them and the center, which has a relatively small staff…”15

Jesuit Fr. Ladislas Orsy is visiting professor of law at Georgetown University. So, reading this, I never had a chance with Bishop Harrington-my Ordinary- rattling at me: “You’re guilty till proven innocent.” I didn’t punt even if it was fourth-down and 99 yards to go. It was a matter of justice which was only a “mirage” in the Diocese of Worcester.

This same day the Worcester Telegram & Gazette gave us by Rachel Zoll of The Associated Press “Sex abuse by clergy exceeding estimates: Over 1,3000 priests since 1950.”

Zoll writes: “The scope of sexual abuse accusations against Roman Catholic clergy since 1950 appears to be much greater than previously estimated by victims’ groups and the media, an Associated Press review f reports form dioceses has found.

“The U.S. church will make an unprecedented, nationwide accounting of abuse claims and cost later this month, and some bishops already have started releasing local figures. The AP contacted dioceses across the country and found that 1,341 clergy members have been accused of molesting minors, with more than half the dioceses yet to report.” ‘What it’s really doing is showing us in black and white that the problem is much worse than any of us thought,; said Sue Archibald, president of The Linkup, a Kentucky-based victim advocacy group.

“Statistics have yet to be released by some archdioceses that have faced hundreds of allegations, including Boston and Los Angeles.

“A January 2003 review by The New York Times counted 1,205 accused priests nationwide over five decades. Survivors First, an advocacy group compiling its own list for media reports are lawsuits, has counter 1,800.  

“But Paul Baier, of Survivors First, said he compared the numbers his organization collected with reports from 41 dioceses and found the dioceses’ local statistic were double what he had counted.

“ ‘If those trends continue across 195 dioceses, we can see the numbers that’s self-reported by the bishops being twice as high as the names in our pubic database,’ Boer said…”16

When I read such reports, I reflect on Christmas time retail sales and the figures and media reports that are given out. It is the “Whose on first, and what is on second.”  The merchants and retailers give out information that I wonder about because they have to satisfy the shareholders. What is the real story, would we ever know? 

February 12, 2004

                Stan Giza calls me from Palmer to tell me about the Springfield Diocese’s “quitting.” He told me he is saving the newspapers for me to read the whole story.

                This day’s front page of The (Springfield) Republican announces “Bishop quits after abuse query: Dupre abruptly resigns, enter hospital.”

                Bill Zajac- staff writer- reports: “Springfield-Ad ay after The Republican confronted the Most Rev. Thomas L. Dupre with accusations that he sexually assaulted two boys about three decades ago, he abruptly resigned yesterday as bishop of the Springfield Romans Catholic Diocese, citing health reasons.

                “The bishop’s departure at age 70 left unanswered the series of questions posed to him about the accusations, which the newspaper has been investigating for months. The accusations were first brought to the bishop in a letter last year by the mother of one of the two alleged victims, one of who was about 13 and the other a pre-teen when the alleged abuse began.

                “The woman, a longtime diocesan school worker, said her letter arrived at the bishop’s residence weeks before he told The Republican last year he might retire earlier than the mandatory retirement age of 75 because of heart and other health problems.

                “The woman tried unsuccessfully for months to persuade her now adult son to publicly press charges. Her name is not being used in accordance with the newspapers’ policy of protecting alleged sexual abuse victims.

                “Roderick MacLeish, a Boston lawyer-where have we heard about him-who has handled hundreds of abuse claims in the Boston Archdiocese, said he has been retained by the woman’s son strictly to try to protect his anonymity. MacLeish said he is representing the other alleged victim, who is also trying to protect his anonymity as he explores legal options.

‘ ‘My client want his privacy protected and his family’s privacy protected. I hope all, including the diocese will respect that,’ said MacLeish, adding that he hasn’t fully discussed legal options with his client.

                “ ‘This is a serious situation,’ MacLeish said.

                “The allegations were presented to the bishop amid a recent flurry of public speaking engagements in which Dupre urged Catholics to support a constitutional amendment that bans gay marriages.

                “Dupe’s resignation follows tow years of diocesan problems related to clergy sexual abuse in the diocese and the Catholic Church.

                ‘The diocese issued a statement yesterday stating that Dupre submitted his resignation in November and that his request was granted by the Vatican on Tuesday.

                “Dupre allegedly sexually abused town minor beginning in the 1970s, according to the mother of one of the victims. After failed attempts to speak to Dupre about the allegations, the newspaper submitted a detailed list of questions via email to diocesan spokesman Mark Dupont Tuesday.

                “Within hours, Dupre checked into an undisclosed medical facility outside the diocese for undisclosed treatment. His ailments are not considered life threatening, according to diocesan officials…”17

                This same issue of the newspaper printed a “Timeline: Bishop Thomas L. Dupre of the Springfield Diocese.” It was an extensive one beginning with Dupre’s birth-Nov.10, 1933. This issue of the newspapers gave four pages covering Bishop Dupre.  

February 13, 2004

                The Springfield Republican front page had in bold print “DA to investigate bishop: A local priest told the state attorney general of accusations in November, but the case was to pursued because the alleged victims didn’t come forward.”

                Bill Zajac-Staff Writer- reports: “Springfield-The Hampden County District Attorney’s Office has begun taking steps to investigate allegations that the recently retired bishop of the Springfield diocese sexually abuse two minors beginning more than two decades ago.

                “As local diocesan leaders sought to ease the shock of thousands of Catholics in Western Massachusetts, they were also preparing a report on the allegations that will be sent to the archbishop of Boston.

                “The Rev. Thomas L. Dupre, whose retirement was, announced Wednesday, has yet to respond to the allegations first reported yesterday in The Republican. He checked himself into an undisclosed medical, non-life-threatening illness after The Republican confronted him with a detailed list of questions regarding the alleged abuse.

                “The Roman Catholic Diocese of Springfield said Dupre first applied to the Vatican for retirement in November 2003 and he was notified that it was accepted on Tuesday. Dupre who has a recent history of heart problems, cited health reason for his retirement.

                “The accusations against the bishop came from a mother of one of the alleged victims. The woman, a longtime worker in a Catholic school in the diocese, said her son was abused by Dupre starting in her son’s freshman year in high school and that here son’s best friend was abused beginning when he was a preteen. The alleged abuse started in the 1970s and lasted into the 1080s…”18

                When I was reading this, it seemed that this chancery had a procedure in place to handle the media and questions. It was a significant difference than handling my particulars- We (Worcester Chancery) will get a hold of you. I waited, waited and waited. Nothing but some five years later I get to meet the new bishop.  

                I wonder how many priest personal and others were involved with time being accounted for in a Dupre case or for that matter, my situation.

                I go back to one of those “hot house” kitchen interrogations of me where Rueger had a folder that was stacked with papers that were at least 5 or 6 inches thick. Was it my file? It was never referred too nor anything but in front of Rueger on the table- show time.

                Our diocesan newspaper, The Catholic Free Press, had a front page picture and story of Bishop Thomas Dupre. It was submitted by the Staff and Catholic News Service entitled “Springfield Bishop Dupre resign; health cited.”

                It stated: “Washington-Pope John Paul II has accepted the resignation, for health reasons, of Bishop Thomas L. Dupre of Springfield.

                “Archbishop Gabriel Montalvo, papal nuncio to the United States, made the announcement in Washington Wednesday.

                “Bishop Dupre, 70, has been a bishop since 1990 and head of the Springfield Diocese since 1995, His successor was not named immediately.

                “Diocesan spokesman Mark Dupont said Bishop Dupre left the diocese Feb. 10 for treatment at a medical facility. He declined to give detail citing concern for the bishop’s privacy.

                “Last May, in an interview with The Republican Springfield’s daily newspaper, Bishop Dupre said he was considering retiring early because of his health. He has a heart condition and has had back problems.

                “The same month in an interview with his diocesan newspaper, The Catholic Observer, he said for the last four years he had ‘suffered from a serious heart ailment as well as other age-related issues.’…”19

                One has to read this complete article because if is so Episcopal orientated (Catholic Free Press) in its reporting of 21 paragraphs with three paragraphs about allegations in comparison to practically only allegation story  being reported on the Springfield’s daily newspaper- The Republican.

                The Church has perfected its approach for bishops- special treatment. Of course, as we all know for experiences in Worcester Diocese and other dioceses, bishops are autonomous and can interpret and apply such directives as they see fit-or simply ignore them-sometimes.

So, we get this day, in addition to Bishop Durpre’s story, the Catholic Free Press other front page story “We are on the road to recovery: Report issued on history of sexual abuse in diocese” by Kevin Luperchio of the Free Press’s staff.

He writes: “Worcester-Following more than two years of self-scrutiny on the issue of clergy sexual abuse of minors, Bishop Reilly has released a report detailing what the diocese has learned and steps it has taken to ‘restore the trust that has been seriously broken by the tragedy.’

The report includes a pastoral letter from the bishop, published in today’s edition of The Catholic Free Press, and information on the number and type of abuse allegations made by year and action taken against accused priests.

“It shows that 45 priests have been accused of sexual abuse of a minor in the 53-year history of the diocese. (Forty-three were diocesan priests and tow belonged to other dioceses.)

“The number of accused priest comes from a total of 1,506 priests, including 775 diocesan priests and 751 religious order priests or priests from other dioceses, who ministered in the diocese between 1950 and 2003.

                “Twenty-nine of those priests were removed from public ministry, either through administrative measures, sick leave or retirement; three were allowed to continue in public ministry because the allegations against them were withdrawn and 12 were deceased at the time allegations were brought, according the report. The remaining priest has been removed –or excoriated-from the diocese prior to any allegation and is no longer in public ministry…”20

                The Worcester Diocese did everything to give the impression of Bishop Reilly’s message of “Creating a Safe Environment.” They really hit on the issue of a “dragnet going through the water” and all is well.

                In addition, this day, the National Catholic Reporter reports: “No one knows whether James Kelly’s suicide last October in from of a New Jersey Transit train in Morristown, N.J., stemmed from the childhood sexual abuse by a Mendham, N.J., priest or from other problems.

                “Still, while gathered after his funeral on the grounds of St. Joseph’s Roman Catholic Church I Mendham-where the abuse occurred more than two decades ago-people who were abused by the same priest discussed manning their support group chapter after Kelly, a 37-year-old telecommunications salesman from Morristown who has recently been laid off.

                “ ‘We were must kind of having an open table discussion,’ recalled Bill Crane, who, like Kelly, was sexually abused by the former Fr. James Hanley. ‘And it dawned on me that something really needs to take place that is tangible, to bring to light thee seriousness of what we endured as children, so it won’t be forgotten.’

                “Crane suggested erecting a small monument, and received approval from the group and the church’s pastor, Fr. Kenneth Lasch. When dedicated in April outside the church’s Pax Christi Center; the 400-pound basalt monument-shaped like a millstone-will evoked a biblical saying that is meaningful to Christians who were sexually abused by children.

                “In the passage, from the Gospel of Matthew, Jesus addresses those who would harm children, saying, ‘It would be better for you if a great millstone was fastened around your neck and you were drowned in the death of the sea.’

                “The monument apparently would be the only marker in the nation dedicated to victims of the clergy sex abuse crisis located at a church. Lasch said it could help victims fell the church will not forget what happened to them there…”21 

February 14, 2004

                The (Springfield) Republican prints this day “Diocese must ‘come clean’: Interim successor to Dupre speaks.”

                The story goes: “Springfield-The newly elected leader of the Roman Catholic Diocese of Springfield said yesterday the church must ‘come clean,’ admitting that an ‘old boy network’ years ago protected priest suspected of sexual abuse.

                “Monsignor Richard S. Sniezyk, who will lead the diocese until a bishop is appointed by the Vatican, said church leaders and members are shaken by an allegation this week that out-going Bishop Thomas L. Dupre molested two boys more than 20 years ago when he was a parish priest. Dupre resigned Wednesday, citing health reasons.

                “In referring to the ongoing sex abuse crisis in the church, Sniezyk said church officials must acknowledge a culture that protected abusive priest existed years ago.

                “ ‘We have to come clean,’ said Sniezyk, recalling own as a young priest he heard rumors of ‘cliques of priest’ who molested young churchgoers, that were protected by church and legal officials, Sniezyk, who was ordained in 1962,said he never witnessed any abuse. (There was stories as such that I heard in the Worcester Diocese-The Boys in the Band Group.

                “ ‘I think truly an old boy network existed. We have to admit that no one did anything with it in those days,’ Sniezyk said adding that priest are now being held accountable.

                “Sniezyk who was elected administrator yesterday by an eight-member board of diocesan consulters will oversee the day-to-day operations of the diocese until a bishop is named by the pope, which could take up to a year…”22 

February 15, 2004

                I was struggling to come to terms with me being put into “mothballs.” I felt that I was made a scapegoat by Harrington and Gang. I was writing my journal for myself but also for giving a picture of what this experience looked as from another side of the issue. 

February 16, 2004

                The Worcester Telegram & Gazette reports “Bishop Reilly issues report on sex abuse: Priests’ names not given.” (Priests names have been printed in this newspaper.)

                Another report of the Telegram & Gazette Staff-Martin Luttrell reported: “Worcester-The Diocese of Worcester released its first report on the scope of clergy sexual abuse of children yesterday, citing 112 allegations of abuse form 1950 through 2003.

                “While the diocese found that only 48 were substantiated and another was considered credible, an activist who works with victims of clergy sexual abuse said the numbers are higher than she had thought.

                “‘What’s new is that this is the first time we’ve pulled the numbers together and put them in one report,’ said diocese spokesman Raymond L. Delisle. ‘Previously, we had done this one at a time. We were doing this as part of a national study. We put it together and wanted to share that.’

                “Bishop Daniel P. Reilly shared the text of the pastoral report yesterday with parishioners during Mass at St. Paul’s Cathedral, which was videotaped and broadcast in the evening on WCTR, Channel 3.

                “According to the diocese report, $2,280,833 has been paid in compensation to victims in settlements of abuses between 1950 and 2003. Of that, $1,469,000 came form insurance and $811,833 was paid directly by the diocese.

                “An additional $185,879 was spent for victim counseling, services and therapy, the report sates

                “ In the report, Bishop Reilly emphasizes that the source of funds for any settlement, therapeutic response or legal fees was the Bishop’s discretionary funds….No  donations to the Bishop’s Fund, or parish contributions to the diocese known as the cathedraticum, or gifts to the Forward in Faith capital campaign were used for anything other than their designated purpose…”23

                The numbers become very interesting to read. But, trying to understand them is another story. (My settlement with the two “alleged victims” was $95,000- lawyer’s fees.) 

February 17, 2004

                I was on the internet to read The Boston Globe article “Abuse article says 4% of priests in US accused: Figure is higher than Church officials expected.” It was written by Michael Paulson of the Globe Staff who was similar to Kathleen A. Shaw of the Worcester Telegram & Gazette.

                He wrote: “About 4 percent of Catholic priests have been  accused of sexually abusing minors over the past half-century according to a draft of the first comprehensive study sexual abuse within the Catholic Church in the United States. The percentage is higher than many people including church officials, had anticipated.

                “the draft of the study, done by John Day College of Criminal Justice for the US Conference of Catholic Bishops found that 4,450 of the 110,000 priests who served between 1950 and 2002 were accused of sexual abuse of minors, according to CNN, which reported yesterday that it had reviewed the draft.

                “The number of alleged perpetuators given in the draft study is higher than the tallies by news media outlets, including the Associated Press and The New York Times that have tried to count reported allegations nationwide.

                “The number is also higher than that protested by church officials. A top Vatican official, Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger (father Pope Benedict XV), said in 2002, according to the Catholic News Service: ‘In the United States, there is constant news of this topic, but less than 1 percent are guilty of acts of this type.’

“But the number of victims is lower than expected by many…”24

This same day The Republican in Springfield prints “Aid for former priest debated: Anonymous donors chipped in $100,000 to help support abusive priests, something that baffles the mother of an alleged victim.”

Staff writes Bill Zajac wrote: “Springfield-the fund that possibly could provide financial support for a recently defrocked priest in the Springfield Diocese represents incredible acts of charity by donors, diocesan officials said.

“But others are raising questions, including why the church hasn’t provided the same amount of charity to victims of sexual abuse (Worcester seems to settle cases on layer’s fees and offering counseling.).

“In announcing the laicization of convicted child molester Richard r. Lavigne Jan. 20, officials of the Romans Catholic Diocese of Springfield said he may be eligible for financial help from a fund recently created to financially support priests removed form ministry for sexual abuse. 

“At least two people who want to remain anonymous have contributed about $100,000 I total for the fund, according to diocesan officials. More than two people, but no more than six or so, may have contributed to the fund, diocesan officials said.

“Sandra L. Tessier of Springfield, the mother of an alleged sexual abuse victim of Lavinge, expressed outrage that the diocese would facilitate a fund to support Lavigne-a person accused by about 40 people of sexual abusing them as minors. Lavigne also is the only suspect in the unsolved 1972 murder of 13-yer old Springfield altar boy Daniel Crouteau.

“ ‘What kind of person wants their money supporting a sexual predator?’ Tessier said…We Monsignor Richard S. Sniezyk) are a church that follows the teachings of Jesus Christ. If Jesus Christ was here he would reach out to Richard Lavigne as he reached out to Judas, as he reached out to Peter after he denied him, and as he reached out to all sinners,’ Sniezyk said…Lavingne’s current $1,030 monthly stipend and $8,800 in annual health benefits will end May 31. To continue to receive financial help, Lavinge would have to ask for charity from the diocese.

“If he does seek help, a lay panel of professionals would determine if Lavigne is indigent. If he were deemed indigent, money would be given to him from the newly created fund. The amount would be decided by the panel. Lavigne would also have to agree to cooperate with the diocese’s clergy monitor…25

This is interesting reading in due fact of what the Worcester Diocese has me under their “umbrella.”

                Michael Paulson of the Boston Globe staff wrote “Aubse study says 4% of priest in US accused: Gigure is higher than Church officials expected.” He wrote in The Boston Globe: “About 4 percent of Catholic priests have been accused of sexually abusing minors over the past half-century, according to a draft of the first comprehensive study of sexual abuse within the Catholic Church in the United States. The percentage is higher than many people, including church officials, had anticipated.

                “The draft of the study, done by John Jay College of Criminal Justice for the US Conference of Catholic Bishops, found that 4,450 of the 110,000 priests who served between 1950 and 2002 were accused of sexual abuse of minors, according to CNN, which reported yesterday that it had reviewed the draft.

                “The number of alleged perpetrators given n the draft study is higher than the tallies by news media outlets, including the Associated Press and The New York Time, that have tried to count reported allegations nationwide.

                “The number is also  higher than that projected by church officials top Vatican official, Cardinal Joseph Ratzinger, said in 2002, according to the Catholic News Service: ‘In the United States, there is constant news on this topic, but less than 1 percent of priests are guilty of acts of this type.’

                “But the number of victims is lower than expected by many…” 

February 18, 2004

                The Worcester Telegram & Gazette foes on this day’s front page “Parish priest placed on leave: Diocese removes Blackstone pastor.”

                Martin Luttrell of the Telegram & Gazette Staff writes: “Blackstone-The Romans Catholic Diocese of Worcester has placed rev. James D. Champion, pastor of St. Paul Church, on administrative leave after allegations of sexual misconduct.

                “Monsignor Thomas J. Sullivan, diocesan chancellor and director of ovations informed parishioners of Rev. Champion’s removal during three Masses on Sunday. He and Worcester District Attorney John J. Conte said that the allegations did not involve children, nor result I criminal charges.

                “Rev. Champion, 58, had been pastor at St. Paul for 12 years. He has been removed form ministerial duties and is no longer living at the parish rectory, Monsignor Sullivan said…

                “A report released last month by Mr. Conte showed that 86 priests, brothers and sisters of religious order, ordained ministers, as well as three laypersons, have been accused of sexual misconduct.

                “Of these, 37 are living priests attached to the Diocese of Worcester, and one layperson, also connected to the Diocese of Worcester; 20 are deceased priests who were attached to the Diocese of Worcester and one layperson connected to the diocese who is also deceased.

                “A report released by the diocese Sunday only addressed  priests accused of sexual abuse of children, citing 112 allegations of abuse from 1950 through 2003.

                “Both reports indicated that the instances of alleged abuse peaked between 1975 and 1979, and that most victims did not report them-either to the church or civil authorities-for an average of 20 years (Any professionals investigating those last fact-20 years?).26

                What has to be said is interesting how the Worcester Telegram & Gazette writes an article of a priest situation, which is usually short if facts and they run away with a pattern of figures that become the “manta” for articles for a good period of time as we witnessed in this February 18th article.

                Another possibly of such a technique is that the writer has to submit an 800 words or similar standard for an article.

                I had an interesting conversation with “Father Peacock” this afternoon. He had to give a deposition concerning a priest that lived in his rectory when he was a pastor at another assignment. He knew that I sensed something was happening with his questioning at one time about depositions. So, he related that the lawyer-Attorney Goulka- for the diocese who was driving said to him: “Father ________ is guilty. He did do this (abuse a boy)” This was very hard to believe that this lawyer made such a remark to him and being so flippant-if it was said?

                “Father Peacock” had to tell me that on his deposition copy, one question asked him was if he was aware that the Huse of Affirmation was treating pedophiles? He, also, mentioned that he was asked if he knew anything about a “sex ring in Worcester”? I mentioned this one time to him that I was asked about this when I was at the IOL, Hartford. I made no comment and kept a poker-face.

He then proceeded to tell me that after the deposition, a copy was sent to him to make any corrections or additions. I kept a poker-face and said nothing because I never was given such a procedure.

What was interesting was that “Father Peacock” was so “uptight.” What surprised me was that he had just retried forma three week vacations (retreat) to Canada. Something was bothering him about “something big,” He reacted towards me negatively that that last three years he came back in early February because he had to “face another priest alleged in the diocese.” Oh? The stories were very conflicting that he was relating to me. I knew that he never told me anything without it being calculated.              

“Father Peacock” then put a spin on a story as his interpretation: The diocese now says all cases of allegation have to be reported to the DA’s Office. It was not to go anymore to the Worcester Chancery. He told me that the Fr. James Champion story of an adult accusing him was to the DA’s Office. I knew that from reading the newspaper. But, it seemed that this story being told me was as though I would take a while to pull the diamonds from the min approach. He had to make it a point tome that the diocese now seems to say that it is not them anymore but the DA’s Office that is doing the priest-in. My question: Why is he so stressed by all of this? Oh! He even had to tell me that Attorney Goulka told him on the ride back to her office from his deposition said to him: “You did very well.” (He would say something as such even if it did not happen.). 

February 20, 2004

                The Catholic Free Press comes out on its weekly publication on page one “Blackstone pastor removed form parish.” The paper reports (no staff member): “Blackstone-Father James D. Champion, pastor of St. Paul parish for the last 12 years, has been placed on administrative leave of absence because of allegations of sexual misconduct, Bishop Reilly has announced.

                “The bishop, in a letter sent to priest of the diocese Tuesday said the allegations do not involve children or minors or any of the parishioners at St. Paul’s.

                “Monsignor Thomas J. Sullivan, diocesan Chancellor, has been names temporary administrator of the parish, Bishop Reilly announced today. He will continue as Chancellor and Director of Vocation with his residence remaining at the bishop’s residence.

                “Msgr. Sullivan told parishioners about Father Champion’s removal at the Masses last week-end. He assured them that the bishop would assign a priest to be responsible for the spiritual and temporal administration of the parish. ‘The stability and strength of St. Paul’s is very important to the bishop. All of the regular parish scheduling will them continue as planned and parish activities will not be curtailed,’ Msgr. Sullivan said.

                Msgr. Sullivan told parishioners that the diocese learned of the allegations against Father Champion from the district attorney. He said the bishop and the Diocesan Review Board have investigated the matter and will continue to